Tuesday, March 31, 2009
♥ loveSICK
if it means sick of love and infatuation, yeah.
if not, no.
School, danceCCA was the best.
got rid of all the negative chi.
mentally at least.
Then came home,
don' understand how people can sleep on bus rides.
ate, slept, massive migraine, studied, ate, studied and chatting studying a lil more and gonna crash.
overdid it with dancing and now i'm paying the price.
oh well, that's what'd i do for the LOVE of dancing.
hmm. irony much?
oh well,
dance is my LIFE.PASSIONLOVERHOBBYWTV.
ciao fellow suckers of love,
Sarah.
if not, no.
School, danceCCA was the best.
got rid of all the negative chi.
mentally at least.
Then came home,
don' understand how people can sleep on bus rides.
ate, slept, massive migraine, studied, ate, studied and chatting studying a lil more and gonna crash.
overdid it with dancing and now i'm paying the price.
oh well, that's what'd i do for the LOVE of dancing.
hmm. irony much?
oh well,
dance is my LIFE.PASSIONLOVERHOBBYWTV.
ciao fellow suckers of love,
Sarah.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Monday, March 30, 2009
♥ Harder Than You Know,
&the tears i cry,
wasn't only because of goodbye.
School was fine, same old same old.
Geog presentation went pretty alright.
found out my blogskin has a song behind it.
&&OLIVERJAMES SANG IT!
WHOO.
I LOVE THiS SKIN.
Watched Marley&Me.
It was so so sad for me.
Reminded me of scott!
&&the time when he had to be put to sleep.
I was only about primary 3-4, and i was like crying in the car.
I brought cereal to eat then Aaron asked me for it..
but i scolded him and said no..
Then daddy told me it's ok..
then i started crying over Scott.
While Aaron still didn't get it that Scott was going to DIE.
OMG.
okok. too sad.
i cried so much.
First show i cried so much.
WOW.
DANCE TOMORROW!
&&my choreography is only at most 1/2 done.
oh well.
gotta do geog~
lights out for now,
Sarah.
ciao~
wasn't only because of goodbye.
School was fine, same old same old.
Geog presentation went pretty alright.
found out my blogskin has a song behind it.
&&OLIVERJAMES SANG IT!
WHOO.
I LOVE THiS SKIN.
Watched Marley&Me.
It was so so sad for me.
Reminded me of scott!
&&the time when he had to be put to sleep.
I was only about primary 3-4, and i was like crying in the car.
I brought cereal to eat then Aaron asked me for it..
but i scolded him and said no..
Then daddy told me it's ok..
then i started crying over Scott.
While Aaron still didn't get it that Scott was going to DIE.
OMG.
okok. too sad.
i cried so much.
First show i cried so much.
WOW.
DANCE TOMORROW!
&&my choreography is only at most 1/2 done.
oh well.
gotta do geog~
lights out for now,
Sarah.
ciao~
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Sunday, March 29, 2009
♥ Hold My Hand,
"For all the nights you've held me so long, i'm taken back by you."
write me a song, and tell me of the things you long.
words that you'll never say.
Today was pretty okay.
Woke up, did chinese hw.
watched What a Girl Wants while having lunch!
SO AWESOME.
Oliver James is so hot!
Went to M&S, got a black hoodie!
FINALLY!
Then, snacks.
hohoho, many easter eggs for them.
Bought DVDs.
Wanna watch Marley&Me later.
Need to finish stupid bio&geo first though.
half done with bio thanks to Marker-ness.
too-de-loo,
Sarah.
you can't blame her,
she's been hurt too much.
She's afraid,
and out of space.
write me a song, and tell me of the things you long.
words that you'll never say.
Today was pretty okay.
Woke up, did chinese hw.
watched What a Girl Wants while having lunch!
SO AWESOME.
Oliver James is so hot!
Went to M&S, got a black hoodie!
FINALLY!
Then, snacks.
hohoho, many easter eggs for them.
Bought DVDs.
Wanna watch Marley&Me later.
Need to finish stupid bio&geo first though.
half done with bio thanks to Marker-ness.
too-de-loo,
Sarah.
you can't blame her,
she's been hurt too much.
She's afraid,
and out of space.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Saturday, March 28, 2009
♥ &your laughter it kills
up to now, i can't understand how a guy can fall for me.
thanks for telling me how you felt,
did it hurt when i couldn't come up with much?
i'm sorry.
i forgot how to love when i lost myself too.
Mark's party, pretty awesome.
Great fun in the cold, laughing with the hilarylowshulin.
Nice gentlemensz offering their jackets.
Pretty funny stuff happened.
GUYS are so hard to understand!
They still want to play on even when they're injured.
They WON'T stop unless they can't move!
Weird creatures.
First day i actually thought i was possibly happy for once in this awfully cold place.
How wrong i was.
The damn cold was just a warning of the evening.
to hell i didn't want to be here.
you have no idea how much it hurts.
how much shit i have to go through.
send me back? It's more like a reward than punishment.
DO IT. PLEASE. I IMPLORE YOU.
While you are enjoying your life here,
i have to try so hard i can't try any harder than i am.
i'velost everything including myself,
while trying to make the best out of all this crap i have to shoulder.
&that's just the summary.
pictures will be uploaded another day.
hopefully one day i won't be pissy.
This was meant to be a happy post damn it.
guess that,
it just never ends,
Sarah.
imyallalot.
&i hope you know.
thanks for telling me how you felt,
did it hurt when i couldn't come up with much?
i'm sorry.
i forgot how to love when i lost myself too.
Mark's party, pretty awesome.
Great fun in the cold, laughing with the hilarylowshulin.
Nice gentlemensz offering their jackets.
Pretty funny stuff happened.
GUYS are so hard to understand!
They still want to play on even when they're injured.
They WON'T stop unless they can't move!
Weird creatures.
First day i actually thought i was possibly happy for once in this awfully cold place.
How wrong i was.
The damn cold was just a warning of the evening.
to hell i didn't want to be here.
you have no idea how much it hurts.
how much shit i have to go through.
send me back? It's more like a reward than punishment.
DO IT. PLEASE. I IMPLORE YOU.
While you are enjoying your life here,
i have to try so hard i can't try any harder than i am.
i'velost everything including myself,
while trying to make the best out of all this crap i have to shoulder.
&that's just the summary.
pictures will be uploaded another day.
hopefully one day i won't be pissy.
This was meant to be a happy post damn it.
guess that,
it just never ends,
Sarah.
imyallalot.
&i hope you know.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Friday, March 27, 2009
♥ Go&Die
CATHE WAS NOT FUN.
WHEN WILL SHANGHAI BE LIKE REALY FUN.
OMFG LUH.
NO HOTTIES/CUTIES...
SHANGHAI IS DEPRIVED!
&&I WANT TO GO BACK TO SINGAPORE DAMMIT.
NEED AIRTICKET AND LODGING.
i.
don't.
love.
you!.
freakit.
&out.
WHEN WILL SHANGHAI BE LIKE REALY FUN.
OMFG LUH.
NO HOTTIES/CUTIES...
SHANGHAI IS DEPRIVED!
&&I WANT TO GO BACK TO SINGAPORE DAMMIT.
NEED AIRTICKET AND LODGING.
i.
don't.
love.
you!.
freakit.
&out.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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♥ Half Past Dead,
I didn't go to buy Mark's present.
Just gonna give something not so nice as i planned?
I didn't realy have a plan..
ohmygosh.
wtv, sorry. Just so damn tired..plus there's stupidstupidstupid cathe later..
Cross my fingers and pray i don't fall asleep.
It's a super cold day...well, cold anyway.
Fire drill.
English, Chinese, DT, Lunch, Math, Hist, Chem, Home, Dinner, Out, Home...CRASH.
Hilary's stockings are just the best.
haha, we shall go stockings shopping.
Have to buy at least 5 pairs.
YESYESYES.
I WANTT TO SLEEP NOWNOWNOW.
Pray there'll at least be someone to drool over if lesson's are boring.
I NEED IT. some hot guy/cutie.
lol....kidding, i'll go sms people, or listen and fall asleep.
I shall attempt to make new friends.
&i bet people are gonna compare me to Aaron.
The height diff.
Yes, i'm proud to be petite.
damndamndamndamndamndamndamndamn.
i am very sleepy.
Sleep typing atm.
i know you're jealous.
Well,
I'm done for today i guess.
Shall move my ass and get ready.
Au revoir,
Sarah.
damn keyboard is not working.
Just gonna give something not so nice as i planned?
I didn't realy have a plan..
ohmygosh.
wtv, sorry. Just so damn tired..plus there's stupidstupidstupid cathe later..
Cross my fingers and pray i don't fall asleep.
It's a super cold day...well, cold anyway.
Fire drill.
English, Chinese, DT, Lunch, Math, Hist, Chem, Home, Dinner, Out, Home...CRASH.
Hilary's stockings are just the best.
haha, we shall go stockings shopping.
Have to buy at least 5 pairs.
YESYESYES.
I WANTT TO SLEEP NOWNOWNOW.
Pray there'll at least be someone to drool over if lesson's are boring.
I NEED IT. some hot guy/cutie.
lol....kidding, i'll go sms people, or listen and fall asleep.
I shall attempt to make new friends.
&i bet people are gonna compare me to Aaron.
The height diff.
Yes, i'm proud to be petite.
damndamndamndamndamndamndamndamn.
i am very sleepy.
Sleep typing atm.
i know you're jealous.
Well,
I'm done for today i guess.
Shall move my ass and get ready.
Au revoir,
Sarah.
damn keyboard is not working.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Wednesday, March 25, 2009
♥ For You I Will
sorry sir, i'm feel no desire.
to love or not, i've forgot.
i only want to be me, and live without all the hurting.
Teddy Geiger is so sweet?? Yeah, artsy guys are romantic to hell bits, i love them.
taste so sweet,
and it melts you.
ohhh, the love.
ha. Sleep typing atm.
really lazy to reply tags.
will do it here.
Thanks Jingyi.
Thank you besty, i'm always there for you on msn. Just send me an IM.
Though i'm sure you have your other friends to go to. IL&MYloads.
this post was meant for yesterday but the internet screwed up on me.
"when i look into your eyes, all i see are lies."
SO, today's a crazy, whacked, wild day.
gosh.
i miss them a lot.
like, a hell lot.
a lot of things are happening,
wish i could be there to help you.
Sorry.
Words are insufficient.
gosh,
now it's turning upside down.
when will i stop hurting others,
and i stop hurting myself.
cos i'm sick and tired.
thanks for messing up my life,
i hate you more than i want to.
now something's happened.
UGH.
goshdammit.
SERIOUSLY.
i hate all these complications.
I didn't ask for it mann, should've stayed in singapore.
I didn't come here for all the shit and hurting.
What do guys see in me anyway?
What do people know about love when everything they feel is just infatuation.
GOSH. kill me. srsly.
leave right now,
Sarah.
xo.
to love or not, i've forgot.
i only want to be me, and live without all the hurting.
Teddy Geiger is so sweet?? Yeah, artsy guys are romantic to hell bits, i love them.
taste so sweet,
and it melts you.
ohhh, the love.
ha. Sleep typing atm.
really lazy to reply tags.
will do it here.
Thanks Jingyi.
Thank you besty, i'm always there for you on msn. Just send me an IM.
Though i'm sure you have your other friends to go to. IL&MYloads.
this post was meant for yesterday but the internet screwed up on me.
"when i look into your eyes, all i see are lies."
SO, today's a crazy, whacked, wild day.
gosh.
i miss them a lot.
like, a hell lot.
a lot of things are happening,
wish i could be there to help you.
Sorry.
Words are insufficient.
gosh,
now it's turning upside down.
when will i stop hurting others,
and i stop hurting myself.
cos i'm sick and tired.
thanks for messing up my life,
i hate you more than i want to.
now something's happened.
UGH.
goshdammit.
SERIOUSLY.
i hate all these complications.
I didn't ask for it mann, should've stayed in singapore.
I didn't come here for all the shit and hurting.
What do guys see in me anyway?
What do people know about love when everything they feel is just infatuation.
GOSH. kill me. srsly.
leave right now,
Sarah.
xo.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Tuesday, March 24, 2009
♥ You Got The Best Of Me,
but guess it wasn't enough.
thank you ryanlimshuyao.
my saviour......
happy?
sorry.
thank you ryanlimshuyao.
my saviour......
happy?
sorry.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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♥ To, Or Not To.
to let this blog, or not to let this blog rot.
oh well. i'll blog.
just, this isn't it.
just daily happenings?
idk.
messed up now.
words don't mean much, but they count.
you know, i'm getting really tired of the silence and failed attempts.
It's just rubbish.
Really.
Go clean up please,
so not my month.
YOU KNOW WHAT.
FK OFF, AND OUT OF MY LIFE.
I'm the one always being told to talk,
at least i know what to say and do.
it's just so damn friggin hard to talk to the wall who can't say anything back!
so sick, so tired.
really.
piss off.
you got the best of me,
sarah.
xo.
please just leave.
oh well. i'll blog.
just, this isn't it.
just daily happenings?
idk.
messed up now.
words don't mean much, but they count.
you know, i'm getting really tired of the silence and failed attempts.
It's just rubbish.
Really.
Go clean up please,
so not my month.
YOU KNOW WHAT.
FK OFF, AND OUT OF MY LIFE.
I'm the one always being told to talk,
at least i know what to say and do.
it's just so damn friggin hard to talk to the wall who can't say anything back!
so sick, so tired.
really.
piss off.
you got the best of me,
sarah.
xo.
please just leave.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Monday, March 23, 2009
♥ Do You Mean It,
cos words turn into nothing once you've had enough.
school, sleepy. still feeling pissy.
Just take it that i'm PMS-ing. I really don't know how to answer you.
English was boring, assembly was a waste of time, geog was ok, PE was the usual,
Lunch was hyped, physics was great, chinese was awesome and bio was terrific.
Bus ride was ok, texted all the wayyy. Thank you person.
I know you love your left hand right now and not gonna wash it.
Oh, thanks also for not abandoning me.
Home, ate, comp, attempting to edit physics..ALONE.
Feeling pissy.
Trying to think. OMG, HuimeiGOAT and I are like feeling the same right now.
We both tried, too bad right.
hmmmm, then there's geog presentation to prepare for.
No time to think.
Dance CCA starts tomorrow?
ohml.
it's coming to the end,
Sarah.
xo.
4 days countdown.
catch me if you can.
EARTH HOUR on the 28th of March at 8:30pm!
JOIN THE FUN, SWTICH OFF ALL LIGHTS AND LIVE IN DARKNESS FOR AN HOUR(:
oh, and no tv's or computers!
Let's all text/call.
school, sleepy. still feeling pissy.
Just take it that i'm PMS-ing. I really don't know how to answer you.
English was boring, assembly was a waste of time, geog was ok, PE was the usual,
Lunch was hyped, physics was great, chinese was awesome and bio was terrific.
Bus ride was ok, texted all the wayyy. Thank you person.
I know you love your left hand right now and not gonna wash it.
Oh, thanks also for not abandoning me.
Home, ate, comp, attempting to edit physics..ALONE.
Feeling pissy.
Trying to think. OMG, HuimeiGOAT and I are like feeling the same right now.
We both tried, too bad right.
hmmmm, then there's geog presentation to prepare for.
No time to think.
Dance CCA starts tomorrow?
ohml.
it's coming to the end,
Sarah.
xo.
4 days countdown.
catch me if you can.
EARTH HOUR on the 28th of March at 8:30pm!
JOIN THE FUN, SWTICH OFF ALL LIGHTS AND LIVE IN DARKNESS FOR AN HOUR(:
oh, and no tv's or computers!
Let's all text/call.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Sunday, March 22, 2009
♥ Desperate,
i'm searching desperately for you, but you're nowhere near.
Park Getaway, beautiful but cold.
sorry if my words were too harsh,
doesn't change much..
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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♥ Gone; I'm Done
indulge in my pain,
this is becoming too public.
Sorry i can't share my life anymore.
It hurts to the core, i'm feeling over-exposed.
If it's meant to be,
you'll find me.
thefakepretence.
please, someone familiar, talk to me.
This pain is getting too overwhelming.
&one day you'll see the real me,
where i'm no longer smiling.
Life taught me to hate,
taught me not to love too deep.
Love taught me to hurt,
it taught me to becareful who you trust.
I'm sorry, i can't love.
don't read this blog anymore.
it's all just fake pretence of happiness.
artificial love.
that's life.
5 days countdown.
this is becoming too public.
Sorry i can't share my life anymore.
It hurts to the core, i'm feeling over-exposed.
If it's meant to be,
you'll find me.
thefakepretence.
please, someone familiar, talk to me.
This pain is getting too overwhelming.
&one day you'll see the real me,
where i'm no longer smiling.
Life taught me to hate,
taught me not to love too deep.
Love taught me to hurt,
it taught me to becareful who you trust.
I'm sorry, i can't love.
don't read this blog anymore.
it's all just fake pretence of happiness.
artificial love.
that's life.
5 days countdown.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Saturday, March 21, 2009
♥ KissofDeath; Eternal Damination
&& I miss Liz, France, Ryl, Teresa, Hazel, Fei Min, Nat, Anamei and more.
barely thinking straight.
plus CHELLO.
Besty.
everyone.
the nice hot sun in Singapore.
the awesome memories.
take it back,
sarah.
xo.
PS read between the lines, it may seem like it's all. i hate drifting apart, and words just hurt too much.
thunder&lightning. it's dark.
wru.
so cold.
barely thinking straight.
plus CHELLO.
Besty.
everyone.
the nice hot sun in Singapore.
the awesome memories.
take it back,
sarah.
xo.
PS read between the lines, it may seem like it's all. i hate drifting apart, and words just hurt too much.
thunder&lightning. it's dark.
wru.
so cold.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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♥ Crash&Burn; Serial Missing
Sorry Zoey, china internet is irritating me.
Too laggy. Will upload pics to destroy your computer screen soon(:
Another time.
Hope facebook will do for now?
Imy.
This is soley dedicated to Zoey.
&it's because i love her.
&miss her.
xo.
Too laggy. Will upload pics to destroy your computer screen soon(:
Another time.
Hope facebook will do for now?
Imy.
This is soley dedicated to Zoey.
&it's because i love her.
&miss her.
xo.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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♥ Open
"am i alone, cos i am feeling like i'm screaming with my mouth shut.
when it's really open."
WORDS DON'T MEAN A THING.
it's just words, that everybody tries to mean.
let's just face it, we're all liars.
talk, let's talk. about?
why don't you start.
cos i'm all out of words.
don't know where to start.
Tired of everything,
Sarah.
x.
i just want to be anywhere but here.
when it's really open."
WORDS DON'T MEAN A THING.
it's just words, that everybody tries to mean.
let's just face it, we're all liars.
talk, let's talk. about?
why don't you start.
cos i'm all out of words.
don't know where to start.
Tired of everything,
Sarah.
x.
i just want to be anywhere but here.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Friday, March 20, 2009
♥ Better Off
back from trip.
partially sleep deprived.
fully mixed up.
if only words could explain this mess.
why does the heart only learn after it has fallen, been crushed and yet, it still does it again.
damn you.
LIZ. YOU SRSLY COMING TO SHANGHAI? OMFG. PLEASE DON'T BE KIDDING?!!!!
IMYL.
actually, i miss you like hell. damn you.
Your soon better be like the next holidays..after summer. or before. for at least a week.
someone save me from this nightmare called life,
Sarah.
nolove.foreverout.
don't ask, no mood.
partially sleep deprived.
fully mixed up.
if only words could explain this mess.
why does the heart only learn after it has fallen, been crushed and yet, it still does it again.
damn you.
LIZ. YOU SRSLY COMING TO SHANGHAI? OMFG. PLEASE DON'T BE KIDDING?!!!!
IMYL.
actually, i miss you like hell. damn you.
Your soon better be like the next holidays..after summer. or before. for at least a week.
someone save me from this nightmare called life,
Sarah.
nolove.foreverout.
don't ask, no mood.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Monday, March 16, 2009
♥ Narrow Minds
you might want to be kind.
You only get half of what's happening.
Don't you know it's a world filled with hurting outside of you.
Grow up.
Honestly, this is all getting very very very depressing.
Trip is tomorrow.
yay....
hopefully it'll be ok at least.
should be right?
ugh...
mindless fun, where are you.
Need to let loose.
Where's all the real fun gone.
Got too used having fun with extra awesome stuff.
Now it's just getting horrendous eye bags and screwed up self.
I should find that new life i seek soon.
I'm really in need of one.
One little secret,
i think my world is so messed up i think i'll just drop dead.
keep wishing.
Not happening.
Look, if you hate me, just say it.
I don't give a damn yeah.
If you want to be my friend,
don't be a shole and just be happy for me.
Going through enough.
Kay...that was random.
shit. stupid mood swings...
maybe it's not mood swings...
just prove how i miss mutant so much.
the real hyper me...where are you...
screwedupscrewedupscrewedup.
I just wish i could cut myself open and rip my heart out.
I'm really tired of having to feel.
So sick of caring, so sick of loving.
Let's just all be emotional people and get stereotyped.
It's rad.
Gotta reply to one&only.
it's time.
Not even words can save me now,
Sarah.
xo.
You only get half of what's happening.
Don't you know it's a world filled with hurting outside of you.
Grow up.
Honestly, this is all getting very very very depressing.
Trip is tomorrow.
yay....
hopefully it'll be ok at least.
should be right?
ugh...
mindless fun, where are you.
Need to let loose.
Where's all the real fun gone.
Got too used having fun with extra awesome stuff.
Now it's just getting horrendous eye bags and screwed up self.
I should find that new life i seek soon.
I'm really in need of one.
One little secret,
i think my world is so messed up i think i'll just drop dead.
keep wishing.
Not happening.
Look, if you hate me, just say it.
I don't give a damn yeah.
If you want to be my friend,
don't be a shole and just be happy for me.
Going through enough.
Kay...that was random.
shit. stupid mood swings...
maybe it's not mood swings...
just prove how i miss mutant so much.
the real hyper me...where are you...
screwedupscrewedupscrewedup.
I just wish i could cut myself open and rip my heart out.
I'm really tired of having to feel.
So sick of caring, so sick of loving.
Let's just all be emotional people and get stereotyped.
It's rad.
Gotta reply to one&only.
it's time.
Not even words can save me now,
Sarah.
xo.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Sunday, March 15, 2009
♥ Mercy
why does life have to hurt so much,
and through this how do we all last.
i won't complain about my pains here,
cos i know you don't give a care about it.
i won't expect you to understand,
and i pray that'll come to an end.
Today's not my day.
Moody and unwell.
don't feel like going to school tomorrow,
never took this long to stop.
Yes, i bet you can't wait to see me burn/die.
Personally, i think i'll die very soon.
So get rich and celebrate.
I hope i die soon.
Can't stand it anymore.
I need a getaway of out this place,
Sarah.
xo.
and through this how do we all last.
i won't complain about my pains here,
cos i know you don't give a care about it.
i won't expect you to understand,
and i pray that'll come to an end.
Today's not my day.
Moody and unwell.
don't feel like going to school tomorrow,
never took this long to stop.
Yes, i bet you can't wait to see me burn/die.
Personally, i think i'll die very soon.
So get rich and celebrate.
I hope i die soon.
Can't stand it anymore.
I need a getaway of out this place,
Sarah.
xo.
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Saturday, March 14, 2009
♥ In It To Win It
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG. I CHANGE MY MIND.
PENN IS NOT HOT.
IT'S FRIGGIN MICHAEL COPON DUDE MANN. THAT EX POWER RANGER JACOB WANNABE! && Jenifer tisdale is...fat?
oml.
Anway, going to church soon. Can't friggin upload pictures. Was trying but it kept failing on me. Not very nice. Today's a sleepy day again. I'm unproductive today. Shall go study later. If i have the mind to. OH NO. I'm slacking. ugh. NO WAY. Studying at night.
She's gone. It's supposedly Whites Day right? but she leaves. wthwthwthwthwth.
letters reread..
gosh.
it's devastating. Excursion. Happy or sad?
Just miss mutant loads.
We could have been going to
PARIS TOGETHER DAMN IT.
plus with belimmo&sheleh.
It would've been a blast. Really.
Then we could cam-whore like hell and get scolded by teachers and lots.
Who cares, the fun in that is just too satisfying and tempting.
Plus we're "good" students.
reminiscing is bad for the health.
I wish i could go back to sleep and never wake up.
Really.
Just not into it anymore.
Lousy day.
hate today.
imy,
sarah.
xo.
PENN IS NOT HOT.
IT'S FRIGGIN MICHAEL COPON DUDE MANN. THAT EX POWER RANGER JACOB WANNABE! && Jenifer tisdale is...fat?
oml.
Anway, going to church soon. Can't friggin upload pictures. Was trying but it kept failing on me. Not very nice. Today's a sleepy day again. I'm unproductive today. Shall go study later. If i have the mind to. OH NO. I'm slacking. ugh. NO WAY. Studying at night.
She's gone. It's supposedly Whites Day right? but she leaves. wthwthwthwthwth.
letters reread..
gosh.
it's devastating. Excursion. Happy or sad?
Just miss mutant loads.
We could have been going to
PARIS TOGETHER DAMN IT.
plus with belimmo&sheleh.
It would've been a blast. Really.
Then we could cam-whore like hell and get scolded by teachers and lots.
Who cares, the fun in that is just too satisfying and tempting.
Plus we're "good" students.
reminiscing is bad for the health.
I wish i could go back to sleep and never wake up.
Really.
Just not into it anymore.
Lousy day.
hate today.
imy,
sarah.
xo.
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♥ Words are Inadequate
What we went through just cannot be written fully in words. Only mere descriptions.
Started out as thinking of each other as bitches but look what we've become.
I left you, and even though it doesn't make a big difference you're leaving singapore.
I feel a big rip in my heart, or what's left anyway.
You said our friendship couldn't be described and words were not enough.
I agree with you, all the shit you went through with me.
Without you i'd probably be worse off. It's also because of you that i stayed there so long. If not, i would have probably left.
I keep trying to find the words to express how i feel and the gratitude for all your presence in my life. It's just that there's no words that can fully express what i feel. This sounds all so cliche, but it's just true. I hope you read this, and i can't wait to see you in July. Please, go back July. Damn Mutant. I really miss going through all the crap with you. It was worth it. If i could go back in time, i wouldn't judge you so quickly.
But as ironic as it is, i wouldn't want to make you stay and suffer, but only want to give you reasons to come back. You told me that, yes. & now i'm telling it to you. For some reason we had grown so close in such a short peroid of time. Though i was hurting, you helped me. Sentosa incident, vivo cheer-ups, complaining to you bout all the shit, crying with you, getting all hyped up and cam-whoring. All the guy crazy stuff. I'd trade anything to have it all back and go through it again, and more.
The only thing good about this move was that i found out the few friends that were true. One of them, was you. I was honestly shocked, i always treated you like a good friend but i never thought we'd be this close. I feel a part of me missing, there's no hyper me, almost no confidence in myself, going through shit without you, it all just seems so damn wrong. I hate it. I guess in some way you made me believe in myself, you helped me when i fell, you hurt with me and you never left me for one moment. Thank you so much. Even with this much words, it's still insufficient.
I wouldn't trade a thing in this world for our friendship and memories shared.
Saroach; Salami; Cockroach; Sarah.
xoxo.
It sucks too, having to go through all this without you.
Your retarded self.
i'm sorry.
Started out as thinking of each other as bitches but look what we've become.
I left you, and even though it doesn't make a big difference you're leaving singapore.
I feel a big rip in my heart, or what's left anyway.
You said our friendship couldn't be described and words were not enough.
I agree with you, all the shit you went through with me.
Without you i'd probably be worse off. It's also because of you that i stayed there so long. If not, i would have probably left.
I keep trying to find the words to express how i feel and the gratitude for all your presence in my life. It's just that there's no words that can fully express what i feel. This sounds all so cliche, but it's just true. I hope you read this, and i can't wait to see you in July. Please, go back July. Damn Mutant. I really miss going through all the crap with you. It was worth it. If i could go back in time, i wouldn't judge you so quickly.
But as ironic as it is, i wouldn't want to make you stay and suffer, but only want to give you reasons to come back. You told me that, yes. & now i'm telling it to you. For some reason we had grown so close in such a short peroid of time. Though i was hurting, you helped me. Sentosa incident, vivo cheer-ups, complaining to you bout all the shit, crying with you, getting all hyped up and cam-whoring. All the guy crazy stuff. I'd trade anything to have it all back and go through it again, and more.
The only thing good about this move was that i found out the few friends that were true. One of them, was you. I was honestly shocked, i always treated you like a good friend but i never thought we'd be this close. I feel a part of me missing, there's no hyper me, almost no confidence in myself, going through shit without you, it all just seems so damn wrong. I hate it. I guess in some way you made me believe in myself, you helped me when i fell, you hurt with me and you never left me for one moment. Thank you so much. Even with this much words, it's still insufficient.
I wouldn't trade a thing in this world for our friendship and memories shared.
Saroach; Salami; Cockroach; Sarah.
xoxo.
It sucks too, having to go through all this without you.
Your retarded self.
i'm sorry.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Friday, March 13, 2009
♥ Times Like These,
Through the unglam moments, we still rock.
Art CCA = Cam-whore sessions = free manual labour = crazy beaver = Love
7Nov2008, Sentosa.
7Nov2008, Sentosa. Forever&Always,
these memories can never be replaced.
Sarah.
xoxo.
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♥ I Miss You,
KARMELLO. DON'T GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. JULY. MUST. damnit. you don't even read blogs. ugh. bloody loser.
you got the best of me.
Strange.
School was ohkay as usual. Not great. When's it ever great...miss mutant like hell. THE HYPER ME AND THE CAM-WHORING. OMG. I miss that so much. No one to cam-whore or get high with..or obsess over movies/actors/songs dotdotdot...
wth luh.
&&i'm still the new student. like, get over it mann. srsly. i mean, you don't even know me. I can be hell of a mess and chaotic. srsly. hee.
OMG, i miss Miss Ida! OMG. &LOHAN!...and slacking at PE classes or playing thrashy floorball and totally owning stupid guys. OMG.&& stupid mass PE. Then there's CCA. MRS BRENDA NG. WOW. i miss it all. really. here, it's just like local school life. Plain stress, no fun. BORING. WHERE IS THE LIFE. I need fun to do well. UGH.
Cam-whoring with stupid mutant and blur beaver was ace. miss it loads. really.
i guess it'll be picture uploads and done.
dedicated to beaver&mutant.
il&myl.
forgive me.
for all that we had,
i do not regret.
Sarah.
xoxo.
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Thursday, March 12, 2009
♥ I Think That You Are Lovely
"pretty baby don't leave me, i've been saving smiles for you."
i'm sorry i can't be there for you, to take away the pain that's making your sky so blue.
Dear Zoey, i won't know what's really happening to you. I really wish i could be there to help you but i can't. Just know i'll be here for you love. Always was, always will be. Stop stressing, gosh. July, i will make sure you laugh it all out till you cry. Really. I hate it when you stress yourself. Email or anything if you need. Will listen if you tell me. Maybe i'll call you sometime soon to check on you.
love always, Sarah.
Don't be scared,
for you know i will be here.
We know it won't be easy,
and the pain coming we both fear.
"sometimes love is addiction, sometimes it hurts like hell. sometimes you just can't get enough."
totally not into the poem thing now. maybe later? sorry presidentwannabe.
hmmm. bio test = failure.
PE test = ok.
life = better?
tuttuttut. PROJECTS ALL DONE.
YES. GOSH. FINALLY.
but i think i'm going to be ill again.
Need to sleep early! haha.
FINALLY.
MY BEAUTIFUL SLEEP, friday tomorrow!
Omg, finally the weekends. Can slack a lil and watch The Boy In Stripped Pajamas, Revolutionary Road plus that show....uh......forgot the title. oml.
I feel better. Yes, i do.
Anyway, it's cold. Need to get off soon and curl up in my bed and crash.
boy you make it hard to breath,
Sarah.
xoxoxxx.
i'm sorry i can't be there for you, to take away the pain that's making your sky so blue.
Dear Zoey, i won't know what's really happening to you. I really wish i could be there to help you but i can't. Just know i'll be here for you love. Always was, always will be. Stop stressing, gosh. July, i will make sure you laugh it all out till you cry. Really. I hate it when you stress yourself. Email or anything if you need. Will listen if you tell me. Maybe i'll call you sometime soon to check on you.
love always, Sarah.
Don't be scared,
for you know i will be here.
We know it won't be easy,
and the pain coming we both fear.
"sometimes love is addiction, sometimes it hurts like hell. sometimes you just can't get enough."
totally not into the poem thing now. maybe later? sorry presidentwannabe.
hmmm. bio test = failure.
PE test = ok.
life = better?
tuttuttut. PROJECTS ALL DONE.
YES. GOSH. FINALLY.
but i think i'm going to be ill again.
Need to sleep early! haha.
FINALLY.
MY BEAUTIFUL SLEEP, friday tomorrow!
Omg, finally the weekends. Can slack a lil and watch The Boy In Stripped Pajamas, Revolutionary Road plus that show....uh......forgot the title. oml.
I feel better. Yes, i do.
Anyway, it's cold. Need to get off soon and curl up in my bed and crash.
boy you make it hard to breath,
Sarah.
xoxoxxx.
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Wednesday, March 11, 2009
♥ What Is Love,
i pray i stop crying, and i pray i stop messing things up.
i've done it again. messed it all up.
yeah, i'm so good at hurting people.
fking shoulders hurt now.
yeah. stupid. stupid girl sarah.
should've known.
i won't let it end so fast.
i'm going to hold on till my heart rips again.
i promise.
i hate this hurting.
i really do.
i just wish you knew.
you know what, i can't take it all.
i need to go back.
back to that screwed up school where everything was fine because mutant and everyone got my back. now it just feels i'm left all alone.
this my punishment?
please spare me and kill me.
bad enough she's going back. what more do you want to take out of me?
i can't stand this anymore.
really, i can't.
please just end this all. i really feel like slashing and i will. i will. i just am hurting already. enough.
what about me? what am i supposed to feel? what am i supposed to do?
i'm trying so hard but it's so damn hard to do anything for him because my heart won't let it be abused again.
i'm sorry.
i wish i could stop this, but my heart needs some familiar place to be.
save me.
i've done it again. messed it all up.
yeah, i'm so good at hurting people.
fking shoulders hurt now.
yeah. stupid. stupid girl sarah.
should've known.
i won't let it end so fast.
i'm going to hold on till my heart rips again.
i promise.
i hate this hurting.
i really do.
i just wish you knew.
you know what, i can't take it all.
i need to go back.
back to that screwed up school where everything was fine because mutant and everyone got my back. now it just feels i'm left all alone.
this my punishment?
please spare me and kill me.
bad enough she's going back. what more do you want to take out of me?
i can't stand this anymore.
really, i can't.
please just end this all. i really feel like slashing and i will. i will. i just am hurting already. enough.
what about me? what am i supposed to feel? what am i supposed to do?
i'm trying so hard but it's so damn hard to do anything for him because my heart won't let it be abused again.
i'm sorry.
i wish i could stop this, but my heart needs some familiar place to be.
save me.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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♥ Rainy Day
no poem rhymy stuff. really out of it.
CAN'T THINK. MIGRAINE. KILL ME.
STUPID STUPID STUPID BIO TEST. UGH.
Gonna get a 1. srsly. no kidding.
Bio report = 3 the most.
FAIL. FAIL. FAIL. UGHHHH.
Not even sugar can save me now. Annoying much. Sorry, prob gonna be more slow than ever.
veryveryveryvery tired. veryveryveryveryvery deprived of sleep.
have to do pe proj and drama thing.
yay me.
DT done. i guess. can't be bothered anymore.
skittles.
geog proj.
lunch.
oreo.
bio test.
ahhh. too much to take in. so damn stressed and tired?
hmm.
ahhh. can't think. no poems today. just, so damn tired.
don't want to think.
don't want to feel.
don't want to live anymore.
screw life srsly,
sarah.
no such word as love anymore.
CAN'T THINK. MIGRAINE. KILL ME.
STUPID STUPID STUPID BIO TEST. UGH.
Gonna get a 1. srsly. no kidding.
Bio report = 3 the most.
FAIL. FAIL. FAIL. UGHHHH.
Not even sugar can save me now. Annoying much. Sorry, prob gonna be more slow than ever.
veryveryveryvery tired. veryveryveryveryvery deprived of sleep.
have to do pe proj and drama thing.
yay me.
DT done. i guess. can't be bothered anymore.
skittles.
geog proj.
lunch.
oreo.
bio test.
ahhh. too much to take in. so damn stressed and tired?
hmm.
ahhh. can't think. no poems today. just, so damn tired.
don't want to think.
don't want to feel.
don't want to live anymore.
screw life srsly,
sarah.
no such word as love anymore.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Tuesday, March 10, 2009
♥ Past Love,
hold up and rewind, i'm about to lose my mind.
Today was chem test.
each day just goes by, and it doesn't feel right.
drifting from them already? like...barely half a year. Maybe i was bound to be a loner.
hmmm. Then CCA. LAS TDAY OF VOLLEYBALL CCA. YAY.
sleepy. really sleepy. still have bio to do. UGH. Deets more in privated blog.
oh, poem for shuyao.
trying again. too sleepy to feel anything really?
hmm.
anyway.
i bet you don't know how i love you,
the way i notice every little thing you do.
it's the way you make me feel,
as though this is finally something real.
just wish you'd wake up someday,
and help me take my pain away.
i promise i will never leave your side,
even as this relationship we stage must hide.
OK. RLSY. your poem. can't go on. too SLEEPY.
sarah needs to sleep.
sarah needs to feel.
sarah needs to forget.
sarah needs to heal.
sarah needs to stop thinking.
sarah needs to go...
100309,
the day i lost my mind.
sarah.
xoxo.
Today was chem test.
each day just goes by, and it doesn't feel right.
drifting from them already? like...barely half a year. Maybe i was bound to be a loner.
hmmm. Then CCA. LAS TDAY OF VOLLEYBALL CCA. YAY.
sleepy. really sleepy. still have bio to do. UGH. Deets more in privated blog.
oh, poem for shuyao.
trying again. too sleepy to feel anything really?
hmm.
anyway.
i bet you don't know how i love you,
the way i notice every little thing you do.
it's the way you make me feel,
as though this is finally something real.
just wish you'd wake up someday,
and help me take my pain away.
i promise i will never leave your side,
even as this relationship we stage must hide.
OK. RLSY. your poem. can't go on. too SLEEPY.
sarah needs to sleep.
sarah needs to feel.
sarah needs to forget.
sarah needs to heal.
sarah needs to stop thinking.
sarah needs to go...
100309,
the day i lost my mind.
sarah.
xoxo.
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Monday, March 09, 2009
♥ What You See's Not What You Get
I'm so sick of saying that you don't understand me. You don't. I'm sick of protesting all this misunderstanding. So. I shall go back to write poetry. dedicated to my dear lovesick/filled mrlimshuyao. All the best with that girl you supposedly love.
UGH. BLANK. BLANK. WHY AM I BLANK. failed.....
too tired.....
"i need inspiration, not just another negotiation."
thinking too much of the past. bloody jerk. i actually almost loved him. ALMOST. It was THAT close. &then he broke my heart into a gazillion pieces. amazing. really. are hearts made up of some really strong material that it mends over&over&over&over again without fail? Well, almost fully mended anyway. BUT, there's obviously the scars. Yes, the beautiful scars that stay there.
Perfect. Now we shall all go complain and whine about the pain we feel and that we're alone cos we really are. GOSH. CLICHE MUCH. YES. I AM SO CLICHE. WHY AM I SO CLICHE. IT IS GROSS BEING SO CLICHE. that cliche girl, with the cliche life. i gross myself out far too much. I'm perfectly abnormal, loner, retarded, love desperado and cliche loser. great. want to help me add on? i know you do. well, piss off. I'm feeling pissy now. yay. OMG. I'm getting Hilary's PMS syndrome. AHHHH. INFECTIOUS. Ok, maybe not. I'm just incredibly sleepy. Stupid hilarylow keep hitting me. gosh. sleepy!!! SO darn SLEEPY. CURSE BIO REPORT. CURSE IT. ok. no. don't get low marks. ughhhhhh.
attempt 1 at poems.
UGH. BLANK. BLANK. WHY AM I BLANK. failed.....
too tired.....
"i need inspiration, not just another negotiation."
thinking too much of the past. bloody jerk. i actually almost loved him. ALMOST. It was THAT close. &then he broke my heart into a gazillion pieces. amazing. really. are hearts made up of some really strong material that it mends over&over&over&over again without fail? Well, almost fully mended anyway. BUT, there's obviously the scars. Yes, the beautiful scars that stay there.
Perfect. Now we shall all go complain and whine about the pain we feel and that we're alone cos we really are. GOSH. CLICHE MUCH. YES. I AM SO CLICHE. WHY AM I SO CLICHE. IT IS GROSS BEING SO CLICHE. that cliche girl, with the cliche life. i gross myself out far too much. I'm perfectly abnormal, loner, retarded, love desperado and cliche loser. great. want to help me add on? i know you do. well, piss off. I'm feeling pissy now. yay. OMG. I'm getting Hilary's PMS syndrome. AHHHH. INFECTIOUS. Ok, maybe not. I'm just incredibly sleepy. Stupid hilarylow keep hitting me. gosh. sleepy!!! SO darn SLEEPY. CURSE BIO REPORT. CURSE IT. ok. no. don't get low marks. ughhhhhh.
attempt 1 at poems.
This Feeling
Wish i could tell you,
what i'm going through.
It's like i've been taken over,
by a kind of pain that hurts like forever.
Just want to find a remedy,
to all this that's hurting me.
Wish i could explain,
this feeling i feel over and again.
Maybe it's a kind of love,
that messes up your world.
This feeling i hope will go,
for i'm tired of being left alone.
It's the point of disappointment,
and let down comes from everyone of them.
Don't leave me,
to fend myself from all this hurting.
It feels like i try too much,
and break at the softest touch.
I wonder if i told you i loved you,
would you say you felt it too.
I stand here still loving,
even as my heart is wide open hurting.
You're as though permanent marker,
and my heart is the paper.
Written on my heart,
it hurts and i'm scared you'll tear me apart.
Afraid of all this crazy hurting,
and the never leaving feeling.
I can't think properly,
and i'm scared of the end that will come eventually.
Maybe one day love will vanish,
or claims so often shall we banish.
YES! YESYESYES. DONE. I'm so sleepy. zonking off.
ciao~
"who needs the disappointment of a phone call, not i."
baby try harder,
sarah.
xoxoxxx.
stupid blogger can't have paragraphs. screw it.
HAPPY FIFTEENTH BIRTHDAY BRENNA!
Though i may not know you very well, you're quite an awesome friend.
Thanks for being my friend, or i'd be a lost soul on first day at school over here.
Sucks to be alone and stuff.
WELL, enjoy your birthday and presents.
Especially the very big one from Anna&Hil.
OH. Got you red nail polish since you like blood* so much.
Plus chocolates for your upcoming monthlygirls'painthing.
The time when Hilary gets all excited and high.
Love you loads,
Sarah.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Sunday, March 08, 2009
♥ Love Story,
My vow to Romeo:
I promise you my heart,
in exchange for yours.
I promise never to break it,
and treasure the love that's ours.
The first time i've fallen for someone,
and i'm in love.
Just want someone to depends on,
and i trust you are the one.
Through the rough tides,
i will stay by your side.
Through the cold winds,
come whatever life brings.
Forever in my heart,
till death do us part.
so cliche. till death do us part. but, GOOD USAGE. ADMIT IT. PLEASE, i haven't been writing good poems lately cause of being ABANDONED. So MANY times. By the SAME PERSON.
It's devastating. Tomorrow's gonna be a heck of a day(:
you know it's not that easy,
sarah.
xoxox.
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♥ Stop This Feeling,
&boy when our eyes meet, it's like i'm falling from a thousand feet.
i can't stop thinking about what we could be, and what you see in me.
I am suppose to be studying. forgot to send ANNA ELA proj. Honestly, i'm just 3/4's done with it. UGH. I'm so not in top shape. Need to go mug and remove myself from civilisation for a bit. Maybe i should start with not blogging till Friday 13. MAYBE. Gosh, no self-discipline. Failed IJ girl. OH WELL.
Gotta do poems for mrlimshuyao.
later on in the post.
OMG. HILARY DUFF right, Gypsy Woman. One&Only you reading this? Remember that song.
It would irritate you to bits with the weird noises at the start of the song. Crazy much, i guess that's me. haha.
THEN, there's Breakaway. Grad song. Failed much, it was fun though. All those practices and screw ups. Oh well right.
Done with R&J thing, need to complete ws though. UGH. Kill me? Well, today's just work day. Gonna blog and get to work. SRSLY.
DT not done..gonna restart? i'm a major failure. gosh.
poetry then out.?
the way you stare at her,
wishing she knew she's your entire world.
nothing could ever compare,
and you just wish for one minute she'd care.
you're so in love with everything she does,
and you know it's not lust.
tried to forget,
and of this feeling you can't rid.
sorry mrlim. can't type poetry here.
feel so exposed? well, private blog. maybe.
love do you know who i am?
sarah.
xo.
i can't stop thinking about what we could be, and what you see in me.
I am suppose to be studying. forgot to send ANNA ELA proj. Honestly, i'm just 3/4's done with it. UGH. I'm so not in top shape. Need to go mug and remove myself from civilisation for a bit. Maybe i should start with not blogging till Friday 13. MAYBE. Gosh, no self-discipline. Failed IJ girl. OH WELL.
Gotta do poems for mrlimshuyao.
later on in the post.
OMG. HILARY DUFF right, Gypsy Woman. One&Only you reading this? Remember that song.
It would irritate you to bits with the weird noises at the start of the song. Crazy much, i guess that's me. haha.
THEN, there's Breakaway. Grad song. Failed much, it was fun though. All those practices and screw ups. Oh well right.
Done with R&J thing, need to complete ws though. UGH. Kill me? Well, today's just work day. Gonna blog and get to work. SRSLY.
DT not done..gonna restart? i'm a major failure. gosh.
poetry then out.?
the way you stare at her,
wishing she knew she's your entire world.
nothing could ever compare,
and you just wish for one minute she'd care.
you're so in love with everything she does,
and you know it's not lust.
tried to forget,
and of this feeling you can't rid.
sorry mrlim. can't type poetry here.
feel so exposed? well, private blog. maybe.
love do you know who i am?
sarah.
xo.
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Saturday, March 07, 2009
♥ I Could Say,
"since you've gone i lost that chip on my shoulder, since you've gone i feel like i've gotten older.
now you're gone it's as if the whole wide world is my stage. now you're gone it's like i've been let right out of my cage."
yeah, screw you and your lies. i actually still think of what we used to be. you always made me feel guilty when i went out with FRIENDS. && you didn't even allow that. FRIENDS who are GIRLS you bloody shole. I'm not a damn lesbian. I hated you so much, right now, i hope you're pissed. I still have your damn keychain you bought for me. 700dollars. i hope it breaks you. I hope you burn. I hope you know that it hurts, and that i never wanted to leave. & that i really believed you. I was so naive. Can't believe you said that if someone was laughing a lot with someone else, it means that person laughing is in love. Bloody jerk. I actually trusted you but you let me fall. I'm way better than your ex-girlf. I pity her, for being so unlucky. I was dumb, and you're just like any other jerk i knew. I'm uglier than her? Oh screw you and your lame excuses. I should've cheated on you, shouldn't have wasted my time on you, i just hope the kisses leave a scar. I hope you hurt whenever you go back. Yes, i stil think of you, and the thought of what we had disgusts me now. You sick shole. Ugh, it feels like you've actually violated me. Disgusting freak, i never should've been so naive, never should have let you have your way, never should've listened to you and let you hurt me so bad. To think our relationship was the longest i had. UGH.
gosh, sorry. reminiscing. sorry people.
Everybody who knows this jerk, stay away from him. He only lies.
&he is filled with bullshit.
aside from all my stupid past....
misshim.misshimnot.misshim.misshimloads.misshim.misshimnot.
gosh, imyl.
want to watch the scarlet letter.
love&allout,
sarah.
xoxo.
now you're gone it's as if the whole wide world is my stage. now you're gone it's like i've been let right out of my cage."
yeah, screw you and your lies. i actually still think of what we used to be. you always made me feel guilty when i went out with FRIENDS. && you didn't even allow that. FRIENDS who are GIRLS you bloody shole. I'm not a damn lesbian. I hated you so much, right now, i hope you're pissed. I still have your damn keychain you bought for me. 700dollars. i hope it breaks you. I hope you burn. I hope you know that it hurts, and that i never wanted to leave. & that i really believed you. I was so naive. Can't believe you said that if someone was laughing a lot with someone else, it means that person laughing is in love. Bloody jerk. I actually trusted you but you let me fall. I'm way better than your ex-girlf. I pity her, for being so unlucky. I was dumb, and you're just like any other jerk i knew. I'm uglier than her? Oh screw you and your lame excuses. I should've cheated on you, shouldn't have wasted my time on you, i just hope the kisses leave a scar. I hope you hurt whenever you go back. Yes, i stil think of you, and the thought of what we had disgusts me now. You sick shole. Ugh, it feels like you've actually violated me. Disgusting freak, i never should've been so naive, never should have let you have your way, never should've listened to you and let you hurt me so bad. To think our relationship was the longest i had. UGH.
gosh, sorry. reminiscing. sorry people.
Everybody who knows this jerk, stay away from him. He only lies.
&he is filled with bullshit.
aside from all my stupid past....
misshim.misshimnot.misshim.misshimloads.misshim.misshimnot.
gosh, imyl.
want to watch the scarlet letter.
love&allout,
sarah.
xoxo.
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♥ Friday, Thirteen
EVERYBODY is complaining.
OK PEOPLE. RELAX. You're not the only ones with shit loads of homework, assignments and tests. HELLO? New student here? Major stress much?
YEAH HUH. Like, MAJORMAJOR stress.
So much happening ok. so much. too much? ok. i need to de-stress and get hyped. MISS KARMELLO. Those happy, hyper fun days. omg. and accidentally saying too loud that M.L was like Vgirl? SO SORRY. if you read this blog either of you. But i doubt. If you do, i'd freak. One's a teacher mann. & the other is ...wtv. heee. omg. Felt damn mean. But i was high with stupid mutant.... HER FAULT. She made me choose...then i said both are the same. holey. omgomgomg. please don't kill me if you read this mann.
gtg out. deets later?
gosh, kill me.
somehow i've fallen for you,
sarah.
xoxoxxx.
OK PEOPLE. RELAX. You're not the only ones with shit loads of homework, assignments and tests. HELLO? New student here? Major stress much?
YEAH HUH. Like, MAJORMAJOR stress.
So much happening ok. so much. too much? ok. i need to de-stress and get hyped. MISS KARMELLO. Those happy, hyper fun days. omg. and accidentally saying too loud that M.L was like Vgirl? SO SORRY. if you read this blog either of you. But i doubt. If you do, i'd freak. One's a teacher mann. & the other is ...wtv. heee. omg. Felt damn mean. But i was high with stupid mutant.... HER FAULT. She made me choose...then i said both are the same. holey. omgomgomg. please don't kill me if you read this mann.
gtg out. deets later?
gosh, kill me.
somehow i've fallen for you,
sarah.
xoxoxxx.
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Friday, March 06, 2009
♥ LoveLoveLoveLove,
tired of feeling this way, love please take me away.
gosh. so friggin tired! loads of shit to do....barely done! DT project now. UGH. KILL ME ALREADY. so friggin tired! && there's bio report etcetc....
gosh.
btw, i've moved on from him ok. i really deserve better.
I have no time to fuss over infatuation. He's not real, i want real.
therefore, moving on time?
gosh. confused. i just am moving on.
no matter what.
sorry ryan, no poems right now. maybe later? kinda stressed...
stress=no feelings to write nice poems for you.
sorry?
i'm all outta words,
sarah.
xo.
gosh. so friggin tired! loads of shit to do....barely done! DT project now. UGH. KILL ME ALREADY. so friggin tired! && there's bio report etcetc....
gosh.
btw, i've moved on from him ok. i really deserve better.
I have no time to fuss over infatuation. He's not real, i want real.
therefore, moving on time?
gosh. confused. i just am moving on.
no matter what.
sorry ryan, no poems right now. maybe later? kinda stressed...
stress=no feelings to write nice poems for you.
sorry?
i'm all outta words,
sarah.
xo.
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Thursday, March 05, 2009
♥ cos i can't move on,
Don't mind hilary's sick pervertic self. she has a crush on me& i'm in love with that little boy(:
love crushed me,
sarah.
xoxoxx.
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♥ Love Gonna Get You Down,
"is it you?"
Andrew the cutie wanted my ring. So i passed it to him, and he tried it on. Barely fit him, so he threw it on the floor. His smile is so cute! He gave me a hi-five! hahahha. He tried to rub my marker writings on my hand and got his hand dirty. OPPS.
ilygavindalling.
so tired, headache. post later or something.
falling head first,
sarah.
xoxo.
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Wednesday, March 04, 2009
♥ Be Good To Me
"so why dont you be, be good to me"
HELLO dear readers of this pathetic blog. I'm not really gonna post a lengthy post today i think.
Depends.
You know what, i think i just wanna drop dead for about a few seconds or more. I was supposed to be doing my homework. oh. it's only 7. it's ok. will start soon. RIGHT. SO.
watched Turn It Up: Centre Stage.
BRILLIANCEEEEEEEEEEEEE BABYYYYYYYYYYY.
The lead girl had serious stomach abs. Like 4pacs? ANYWAY. Ballet, hip hop&attitude. WHAT MORE COULD I ASK FOR. OH. & a lil tango i think. de dan paus was it? the couple dance for ballet. MAGNIFIC.& the dude was fine. gosh. should've continued ballet? Maybe, maybe. I am in love with couple dances from ballet now. They are just AWESOME. SO FRIGGIN ROMANTIC. Yes, that weird wish of mine. Romance. A girl can dream. haha. BS mann. I'm so full of it. SRSLY. I so need to dance. Need to start "working out". DANCERS' WORK OUT. NOT muscle building or wtv.
Chinese horror test. FAILED. I'm a goner. Need to start studying again. FORTUNATELY, bio test was post-poned or i'd be dead too for that. Need to finish up my movies and get a grip of myself. MUGGING, I'M COMING BACK.
&somehow i still can't let go of you,
there's that wishful thinking you feel it too.
Somehow it won't go away,
and it grows more each day.
pain&hurt you've got me,
sarah.
xoxo.
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Tuesday, March 03, 2009
♥ Maybe,
maybe he just felt lonely, and maybe he misses you.
HEYYOOO.
i'm such a failure and concentrating.
joined dance CCA.
I KNOW. just gonna take that risk.
Watched The Woman...supposed to be studying..
but it is awesomeeee!
like, the devil wears prada kinda thing.
so cool. well, sorta anyway.
i'm a bit off these days.
thanks to...idk.
need to study CHINESE.
BELOVED CHINESE, i have no idea where the stupid electronic dictionary shole is.
ugh. so screwed. stupid brothers don't wanna help me. FINE.
oh gosh, i'm so done for.
love let me be free,
sarah.
xoxoxx.
private blog more deets?
HEYYOOO.
i'm such a failure and concentrating.
joined dance CCA.
I KNOW. just gonna take that risk.
Watched The Woman...supposed to be studying..
but it is awesomeeee!
like, the devil wears prada kinda thing.
so cool. well, sorta anyway.
i'm a bit off these days.
thanks to...idk.
need to study CHINESE.
BELOVED CHINESE, i have no idea where the stupid electronic dictionary shole is.
ugh. so screwed. stupid brothers don't wanna help me. FINE.
oh gosh, i'm so done for.
love let me be free,
sarah.
xoxoxx.
private blog more deets?
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Monday, March 02, 2009
♥ Secret Love
i declare myself no longer available.
i'm going to be a nun.
lol.
ANYWAY. Watched Australia yesterday and the oh-so-sexy Make It Happen.
I NEED TO GET BACK TO DANCING BEFORE I GROW FATTER.
working on attitude dancing is NOT easy.
bloody hell looks so simple when it's on music videos and movies,
it's not! hell of a time trying to control the hips....
popping is just EASYYYYY.
ANYONE can pop.
srsly.
i miss dancing.
CCA change for next season! WHOO.
Photography or risk gay dancing?
both has bad parts to it..
like, may not be what it seems....
might turn out to be crappy movie watching cca's or something.
UGH, hate these kinda things.
WHERE'S THE GOOD FIRM GROUND OF A CCA.
i need to dance. badly.
before i grow really fat and lose my mental state officially.
can you imagine me any fatter?
WAIT. Australia was BRILLIANT! So damn nice.
"i will sing to you.
& i will listen."
GO Nicole Kidman!~
So i have, some street dancing show which looks promising, the bucket list, the reader, doubt and the boy in stripped pajamas up for major slacking.
&&& stupid tests are oncoming/going?!
GROSS. i hate this.
I LOVE MAKE IT HAPPEN. IT IS RAD BABY! RAD.
quote from Brenda or that woman in the show:
"dance is like the window to the soul"
SO TRUE MUCH! If you know how to express yourself.
ugh, so magnificant! The last dance of the show, she danced to Lady GaGa's song about dancing and it was just awesome. I so need to start training again.
If not i'm gonna lose it ALL.
muscles, stamina(already losing it), shap?, technique and blah blah blah.
need to start dancer crunches.
ouch...sore muscles...ugh....
OH WELL. The punishment.
So it's dinner time and i need to post on the private blog later.
need to invite more people....that blog's practically and literally DEAD.
love let me fall,
sarah.
xoxoxxx.
i'm going to be a nun.
lol.
ANYWAY. Watched Australia yesterday and the oh-so-sexy Make It Happen.
I NEED TO GET BACK TO DANCING BEFORE I GROW FATTER.
working on attitude dancing is NOT easy.
bloody hell looks so simple when it's on music videos and movies,
it's not! hell of a time trying to control the hips....
popping is just EASYYYYY.
ANYONE can pop.
srsly.
i miss dancing.
CCA change for next season! WHOO.
Photography or risk gay dancing?
both has bad parts to it..
like, may not be what it seems....
might turn out to be crappy movie watching cca's or something.
UGH, hate these kinda things.
WHERE'S THE GOOD FIRM GROUND OF A CCA.
i need to dance. badly.
before i grow really fat and lose my mental state officially.
can you imagine me any fatter?
WAIT. Australia was BRILLIANT! So damn nice.
"i will sing to you.
& i will listen."
GO Nicole Kidman!~
So i have, some street dancing show which looks promising, the bucket list, the reader, doubt and the boy in stripped pajamas up for major slacking.
&&& stupid tests are oncoming/going?!
GROSS. i hate this.
I LOVE MAKE IT HAPPEN. IT IS RAD BABY! RAD.
quote from Brenda or that woman in the show:
"dance is like the window to the soul"
SO TRUE MUCH! If you know how to express yourself.
ugh, so magnificant! The last dance of the show, she danced to Lady GaGa's song about dancing and it was just awesome. I so need to start training again.
If not i'm gonna lose it ALL.
muscles, stamina(already losing it), shap?, technique and blah blah blah.
need to start dancer crunches.
ouch...sore muscles...ugh....
OH WELL. The punishment.
So it's dinner time and i need to post on the private blog later.
need to invite more people....that blog's practically and literally DEAD.
love let me fall,
sarah.
xoxoxxx.
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Sunday, March 01, 2009
♥ Trickery
"when you flash up on my phone i no longer feel alone"
Boy, if it wasn't for that simple crush would we be different?
cos somehow i stay up till late night,
wondering if it's worth the fight.
i try not to think of you,
and i don't believe you don't feel it too.
beautiful stranger i can't help falling,
and my hearts' just only healing.
everytime i catch your eye,
i still can't believe it was so short to goodbye.
each time you're nearby,
i feel the inner me die.
pray you'd look at me one day,
and tell me you feel the same way.
i'm so impossible! ughhh. i can't stop this mad infatuation. i thought i had. GOSH. something is really wrong with me. I was moving on so fine! THEN....WTH WENT WRONG. Am i really destined to a life of solitary or someone i can never feel so strong for.
Anyway, went out for lunch.
bought dvds.
LILY ALLEN'S LATEST ALBUM BABY! score! damn the downloads.
obviously it's fake, but it's the contents i want.
&&& movies; Australia, The Bucket List(think karmello talked about this before.), Doubt, Make It Happen, another dance movie and more. can't really remember. hahahahhaha.
Slumdog Millionaire....was...OHKAY. Like, it was kinda....sad.....kinda romantic at the ending....but Moulin Rouge and The Notebook and A Walk To Remember beat it. Maybe it's just my emotions...too concentrated on......other stuff. WELL. off to watch AUSTRALIA! FINALLY!
love let me down too many times,
sarah.
xox.
Boy, if it wasn't for that simple crush would we be different?
cos somehow i stay up till late night,
wondering if it's worth the fight.
i try not to think of you,
and i don't believe you don't feel it too.
beautiful stranger i can't help falling,
and my hearts' just only healing.
everytime i catch your eye,
i still can't believe it was so short to goodbye.
each time you're nearby,
i feel the inner me die.
pray you'd look at me one day,
and tell me you feel the same way.
i'm so impossible! ughhh. i can't stop this mad infatuation. i thought i had. GOSH. something is really wrong with me. I was moving on so fine! THEN....WTH WENT WRONG. Am i really destined to a life of solitary or someone i can never feel so strong for.
Anyway, went out for lunch.
bought dvds.
LILY ALLEN'S LATEST ALBUM BABY! score! damn the downloads.
obviously it's fake, but it's the contents i want.
&&& movies; Australia, The Bucket List(think karmello talked about this before.), Doubt, Make It Happen, another dance movie and more. can't really remember. hahahahhaha.
Slumdog Millionaire....was...OHKAY. Like, it was kinda....sad.....kinda romantic at the ending....but Moulin Rouge and The Notebook and A Walk To Remember beat it. Maybe it's just my emotions...too concentrated on......other stuff. WELL. off to watch AUSTRALIA! FINALLY!
love let me down too many times,
sarah.
xox.
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