Friday, May 30, 2008
♥ Off To Church Camp~
It's funny how things always seem normal when you're feeling all wrong.
& the world continues to evolve even when we don't want it to.
i contradict. so?
I feel so much happier without having to think of studies and am glad that there are the June hols. I have never felt so relaxed for so long, or so it seems.
Anyway, back to earth. I'm GOING FOR CAMP. boring, annoying people will be there~ There's a 99% chance that i may not come back alive and instead, a zombie. I want to cam-whore loads~ I hope i'll be allowed to SLEEP LONG. once again, i went shopping with mummy and i think if we were to go on at this rate, we'll go bankrupt by the time school, Term3 starts- which will not happen. OH. I feel so so tired already and the SLEEPDEPRIVERS, nat&nat are coming over soon. Dinner will be early and i doubt i'll eat as much cos i feel so full. Did i mention that we shopped at Centrepoint and ate at Fish&Co. ? No, i didn't. I feel like a serious case of mono-loguing. It's scary and don't worry, it's not contagious. I think.
OH. NEED TO PACK SOME STUFF! WILL POST AS SOON AS I CAN.
CIAO~
& the world continues to evolve even when we don't want it to.
i contradict. so?
I feel so much happier without having to think of studies and am glad that there are the June hols. I have never felt so relaxed for so long, or so it seems.
Anyway, back to earth. I'm GOING FOR CAMP. boring, annoying people will be there~ There's a 99% chance that i may not come back alive and instead, a zombie. I want to cam-whore loads~ I hope i'll be allowed to SLEEP LONG. once again, i went shopping with mummy and i think if we were to go on at this rate, we'll go bankrupt by the time school, Term3 starts- which will not happen. OH. I feel so so tired already and the SLEEPDEPRIVERS, nat&nat are coming over soon. Dinner will be early and i doubt i'll eat as much cos i feel so full. Did i mention that we shopped at Centrepoint and ate at Fish&Co. ? No, i didn't. I feel like a serious case of mono-loguing. It's scary and don't worry, it's not contagious. I think.
OH. NEED TO PACK SOME STUFF! WILL POST AS SOON AS I CAN.
CIAO~
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Wednesday, May 28, 2008
♥ I'm With You
Would you take me by the hand and lead the way?
Dear blogakaPiDo,
I feel so tired. haha. watched Juno yeterday and it somehow seemed so meaningful except for that* part. Anyway, went to the esplanade to eat at Ichiban place. Mummy bought baskets and tidied the computer wires with Leah when we came back. I PAINTED. it's so cool. May post pictures on it some other time~ it's like only 1/2 done~
Tution at 7, feel so lazy today. Plus Liz asked me to go collect the FBTs tomorrow, with anamei. Don't really want to cos i don't know!
I think that what's meant to be, will be known when the time comes? Time will help us be stronger and if we don't last. Something tells me we'll do great later on in life.ilyily~ Thank you for being there for me yesterday, i totally needed it. You're such a good PiDo. Don't worry, i won't run off with your bestfriend and plus, he and i are just friends! RELAX love.
& with that, i end my day.
sarah~
Dear blogakaPiDo,
I feel so tired. haha. watched Juno yeterday and it somehow seemed so meaningful except for that* part. Anyway, went to the esplanade to eat at Ichiban place. Mummy bought baskets and tidied the computer wires with Leah when we came back. I PAINTED. it's so cool. May post pictures on it some other time~ it's like only 1/2 done~
Tution at 7, feel so lazy today. Plus Liz asked me to go collect the FBTs tomorrow, with anamei. Don't really want to cos i don't know!
I think that what's meant to be, will be known when the time comes? Time will help us be stronger and if we don't last. Something tells me we'll do great later on in life.ilyily~ Thank you for being there for me yesterday, i totally needed it. You're such a good PiDo. Don't worry, i won't run off with your bestfriend and plus, he and i are just friends! RELAX love.
& with that, i end my day.
sarah~
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Tuesday, May 27, 2008
♥ Skip Along The Road To Happy
where everything will be a lie,
so go along and skip happily away and sing Your Love Is A Lie by Simple Plan.
Cos that's what you seem to think.
You're so damn annoying.
I'm ready world! To fly away from my ugly past and ignore all the unimportant negatives. yeah, it's one of those feelings again. i need to cry and let it all out cos i seriously hate that i can't continue my passion where i can forget all this plus HE still thinks that he understands me or can. I hate carrying the pain alone, no way to let it out. I don't write anymore. I feel so screwed up blog. He's gaming now and i'm lost. No one can help me...I'm not joking. I never was. Maybe i should read a walk to remember again or one of nicholas sparks' books to cover up when i cry. I don't say a lot that i want to happen and only dearest pido, you lighten my world and you're everything i need to help me live this life i declare, condemned. I want to watch Juno or something. I'm going to let it all out first. I've thought about going back to him but, i ask myself why. Then i realised with gigi's help that, i'll only be getting back with him because i don't wish to see him hurt like that. Don't get me wrong dear reader, i don't love him like that. I just don't like feeling the hurt he feels. yeah i'm a freak, i feel what others feel. Cool huh? He says its my insecurity that led him to dumping me. Stupid i'd say. I realised that day, when every single feeling i thought i could forget came back to me, that i can't deceive myself anymore. I will live a life where i'd be misunderstood and no one can understand me the way i wish they could. But dearest, you're different. Though you broke my heart once, i just know it's you that i can trust, lean on and live with.
Right now, i don't wish to talk to anyone cos it's my nature to keep everything to me. yeah, this isn't everything. I won't open up myself now. Maybe to pido later if he asks. It just feels like i can't take anymore of it. So now i ask myself, why do i feel a very very strong urge to let the feelings pour out? I say because right now, with all these being thrown upon me, that's the best i can make. It's just so sad that they can't see how important dancing is to me, my life. Every step, every beat and every dance, it eases my mind. It reminds me of life. Ballet was a medicine for me then till i gave up, cos no one supported me. It starts easy then gradually becomes harder and challenging, and after all the obstacles i enjoy it. Life- is easy at first until we are exposed to many things we didn't know even existed. Only when we learn and understand do we get to enjoy it. Anyway, i'll stop here.
sarah.
so go along and skip happily away and sing Your Love Is A Lie by Simple Plan.
Cos that's what you seem to think.
You're so damn annoying.
I'm ready world! To fly away from my ugly past and ignore all the unimportant negatives. yeah, it's one of those feelings again. i need to cry and let it all out cos i seriously hate that i can't continue my passion where i can forget all this plus HE still thinks that he understands me or can. I hate carrying the pain alone, no way to let it out. I don't write anymore. I feel so screwed up blog. He's gaming now and i'm lost. No one can help me...I'm not joking. I never was. Maybe i should read a walk to remember again or one of nicholas sparks' books to cover up when i cry. I don't say a lot that i want to happen and only dearest pido, you lighten my world and you're everything i need to help me live this life i declare, condemned. I want to watch Juno or something. I'm going to let it all out first. I've thought about going back to him but, i ask myself why. Then i realised with gigi's help that, i'll only be getting back with him because i don't wish to see him hurt like that. Don't get me wrong dear reader, i don't love him like that. I just don't like feeling the hurt he feels. yeah i'm a freak, i feel what others feel. Cool huh? He says its my insecurity that led him to dumping me. Stupid i'd say. I realised that day, when every single feeling i thought i could forget came back to me, that i can't deceive myself anymore. I will live a life where i'd be misunderstood and no one can understand me the way i wish they could. But dearest, you're different. Though you broke my heart once, i just know it's you that i can trust, lean on and live with.
Right now, i don't wish to talk to anyone cos it's my nature to keep everything to me. yeah, this isn't everything. I won't open up myself now. Maybe to pido later if he asks. It just feels like i can't take anymore of it. So now i ask myself, why do i feel a very very strong urge to let the feelings pour out? I say because right now, with all these being thrown upon me, that's the best i can make. It's just so sad that they can't see how important dancing is to me, my life. Every step, every beat and every dance, it eases my mind. It reminds me of life. Ballet was a medicine for me then till i gave up, cos no one supported me. It starts easy then gradually becomes harder and challenging, and after all the obstacles i enjoy it. Life- is easy at first until we are exposed to many things we didn't know even existed. Only when we learn and understand do we get to enjoy it. Anyway, i'll stop here.
sarah.
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♥ Bear Loves PiDo
Forever and ever will i be yours?
Today, i went to taka to shop. i am elated. ok. that's pretty much it. packed my closet and got annoyed. I'm too zonked to type out anything cos i'm blanked. SO Sorry. Maybe Later(:
ily.
so many people want posts so i'm uber stressed.
ciao.
Today, i went to taka to shop. i am elated. ok. that's pretty much it. packed my closet and got annoyed. I'm too zonked to type out anything cos i'm blanked. SO Sorry. Maybe Later(:
ily.
so many people want posts so i'm uber stressed.
ciao.
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♥ Lullaby Remix
Lyrics:
Hush little baby,
don't say a word.
Mama's gonna buy you a rocking bird
but if the rocking bird don't sing
then mama's gonna buy you a diamond ring
and if the diamond ring don't shine
mama's going to buy you a buddha shrine
and if the buddha shrine don't pray
mama's gonna buy you a cd from the fray
and if the fray doesn't know how to save a live
mama's gonna buy you a cutting knife
and if the cutting knife isn't sharp
mama's gonna buy you a rubber duck
and if the rubber duck don't quack
mama's gonna buy you a cd rack
and if the cd rack don't play
mama's gonna be turning gay
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♥ Memories; Never To Be Forgotten
ILYguys for making 17.05.08 to be such a wonderful day though i missed out on many hours of sleep.
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Monday, May 26, 2008
♥ To PiDo, My lover
will i always be yours?
Dear PiDo,
i went out to Parkway as i told you just now when you sms-ed me after school ended for you. I had a pedicure and ate at Ichiban. Then it was painting with Alyssa when Elizabeth Lee called to ask if i wanted to watch Nims Island with anamei and herself. Then as i was about to ask mummy for permission, they called once more to ask if they could come over instead to annoy the life out of me-which they didn't in the end. So, anyway, mum agreed and we were heading home where not long after, my two beloved nightmares rang the doorbell. They proposed to bake and i reluctantly agreed then we went to find the little baking book. After that, we baked and soon was glued to the computer, shopping for FBTs. Then after much, they went home and i came online to see you(: OHOHOH. ANAMEI sms-ed me to add her! Such an annoyingly weird child. Hope to watch August Rush with mummy soon! Anyway, wanna concentrate on talking to you~ ILYLOADS.
Signing off,
Sarah~
Dear PiDo,
i went out to Parkway as i told you just now when you sms-ed me after school ended for you. I had a pedicure and ate at Ichiban. Then it was painting with Alyssa when Elizabeth Lee called to ask if i wanted to watch Nims Island with anamei and herself. Then as i was about to ask mummy for permission, they called once more to ask if they could come over instead to annoy the life out of me-which they didn't in the end. So, anyway, mum agreed and we were heading home where not long after, my two beloved nightmares rang the doorbell. They proposed to bake and i reluctantly agreed then we went to find the little baking book. After that, we baked and soon was glued to the computer, shopping for FBTs. Then after much, they went home and i came online to see you(: OHOHOH. ANAMEI sms-ed me to add her! Such an annoyingly weird child. Hope to watch August Rush with mummy soon! Anyway, wanna concentrate on talking to you~ ILYLOADS.
Signing off,
Sarah~
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Saturday, May 24, 2008
♥ LOVE LIFE LOADS
in a window, she smiled to everyone.
Dear Blog,
ily loads. SO, yesterday was the last of Term 2. Miss Ida will be on ML next term. Hope Mr Chen won't take us! it'll be freaky and OMG Mr John for english teacher!? YEAH! I'll miss Miss Ida though, she's so nice to tease. Anyway, review of Term 2? MAGNIFIC! Top 1 in class for Geog and Band A English! Though i totally screwed science and math, i got a good avg percentage, at least i improved~ I shall continue to do so. I SO WANT TO STUDY LAW. Somehow. Maybe it's momentary but i just want to do really well! Anyway, chinese...improved by 1%. pathetic. LOL. OH! Everything is just so sweet now and i really want december to come! OH! i'm going to change this annoying blogskin ASAP! HAHAH. it's my love month~ CIAOCIAOCIAO~
Dear Blog,
ily loads. SO, yesterday was the last of Term 2. Miss Ida will be on ML next term. Hope Mr Chen won't take us! it'll be freaky and OMG Mr John for english teacher!? YEAH! I'll miss Miss Ida though, she's so nice to tease. Anyway, review of Term 2? MAGNIFIC! Top 1 in class for Geog and Band A English! Though i totally screwed science and math, i got a good avg percentage, at least i improved~ I shall continue to do so. I SO WANT TO STUDY LAW. Somehow. Maybe it's momentary but i just want to do really well! Anyway, chinese...improved by 1%. pathetic. LOL. OH! Everything is just so sweet now and i really want december to come! OH! i'm going to change this annoying blogskin ASAP! HAHAH. it's my love month~ CIAOCIAOCIAO~
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Wednesday, May 21, 2008
♥ You Seem To Be Everywhere
& i try to pretend not to see you when i do
Dear darling,
ILY. today is a great day. Had fun, especially taking linfengs' stuff and donating his 10 bucks to red cross for the China Earthquake. It was simply cool and he got a mentos which was eaten and tasted sweet and rich. Indeed. Super cool luh. Saw was HORRIFIC! The gore just pained me A LOT. Like seriously!!!! CRUEL! OH. Totally skipped PE with much thanks to JoJo&Linfeng luh. OH. Then mummy came with Lyssy to fetch me so we could go taka and i walked to Mount E for dental from Taka. After dental, drank at Coffee Club and talked then went to Gramaphone to find out Jason Mrazs' latest album was sold out but bought Daphnes' album which is pretty good.
Anyway, i'm flirting with blog now so,
Ciao~
Besty, I'M OVER THE MOON; HEAD OVER HEELS.
more deets if you want, TOMORROW~
LOVELOVEYOU.
Dear darling,
ILY. today is a great day. Had fun, especially taking linfengs' stuff and donating his 10 bucks to red cross for the China Earthquake. It was simply cool and he got a mentos which was eaten and tasted sweet and rich. Indeed. Super cool luh. Saw was HORRIFIC! The gore just pained me A LOT. Like seriously!!!! CRUEL! OH. Totally skipped PE with much thanks to JoJo&Linfeng luh. OH. Then mummy came with Lyssy to fetch me so we could go taka and i walked to Mount E for dental from Taka. After dental, drank at Coffee Club and talked then went to Gramaphone to find out Jason Mrazs' latest album was sold out but bought Daphnes' album which is pretty good.
Anyway, i'm flirting with blog now so,
Ciao~
Besty, I'M OVER THE MOON; HEAD OVER HEELS.
more deets if you want, TOMORROW~
LOVELOVEYOU.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Tuesday, May 20, 2008
♥ Prepared To Be Crushed
My To Do List:
-KILL anamei and liz
-LOVE you* until the end of time
-WAIT for the right time
-STAY happy
-WORK hard enough to study Law
Dear blog,
you are my new boyfriend. HAHAH. Today was just pure slacking and me getting emotional during english cos of the disasters and the devastation it caused. ANYWAY, i'm too busy to type everything in detail so i'll do it in general. Today was fun and watching loads of movies. Forbidden Kingdom, Ratatouille, CJ7& Over Her Dead Body. So,
ciao~
YES!HE LOVES ME TOO. Sarah is over the moon and the bond just got stronger.
teresa says, absence makes the bond grow stronger. hope it applies to us too.
-KILL anamei and liz
-LOVE you* until the end of time
-WAIT for the right time
-STAY happy
-WORK hard enough to study Law
Dear blog,
you are my new boyfriend. HAHAH. Today was just pure slacking and me getting emotional during english cos of the disasters and the devastation it caused. ANYWAY, i'm too busy to type everything in detail so i'll do it in general. Today was fun and watching loads of movies. Forbidden Kingdom, Ratatouille, CJ7& Over Her Dead Body. So,
ciao~
YES!HE LOVES ME TOO. Sarah is over the moon and the bond just got stronger.
teresa says, absence makes the bond grow stronger. hope it applies to us too.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Monday, May 19, 2008
♥ How True Can Fantasies Get?
It's How Real You Make Out Of It?
Hey Dear,
I'm in love with taylor swift songs! I need her album! it's def a heart mender but also a tear jerker! So, today i woke at 10:40 and went out to Marina at 11:30 to eat and shop. Bought 2 Roxy bags and a DC white jacket, GF and seventeen magazine PLUS 2 more Nicholas Sparks books, "the choice" & "the guardian". Then headed to Coffee Club to have tea break and we came home. Listening to Taylor Swift's songs right now. I feel so touched. Read an aritcle about her on Seventeen, she's on the coverpage! I'm so done for! I've yet to finish up math homework! OH NO! Anyway, will post pictures another day. Too tired and lazy.
Ciao~
i lost my every need, my everything. It feels really horrible...he doesn't care now, or does he? should i ask?....he really can break my heart and mend it fast. but what about now???? GOSH. it really matters. yeah. he does have enough of me to break my heart. ily, i'm sorry. let's be what we used to be. not friends. not lovers together. but the special us.
Hey Dear,
I'm in love with taylor swift songs! I need her album! it's def a heart mender but also a tear jerker! So, today i woke at 10:40 and went out to Marina at 11:30 to eat and shop. Bought 2 Roxy bags and a DC white jacket, GF and seventeen magazine PLUS 2 more Nicholas Sparks books, "the choice" & "the guardian". Then headed to Coffee Club to have tea break and we came home. Listening to Taylor Swift's songs right now. I feel so touched. Read an aritcle about her on Seventeen, she's on the coverpage! I'm so done for! I've yet to finish up math homework! OH NO! Anyway, will post pictures another day. Too tired and lazy.
Ciao~
i lost my every need, my everything. It feels really horrible...he doesn't care now, or does he? should i ask?....he really can break my heart and mend it fast. but what about now???? GOSH. it really matters. yeah. he does have enough of me to break my heart. ily, i'm sorry. let's be what we used to be. not friends. not lovers together. but the special us.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Sunday, May 18, 2008
♥ Hesitating no more
So I Will Be Yours, I'm Sure.
HEYHEYHEY!
YEAH! FOURTEEN ALREADY! FABULOUS MUCH! THANK YOU FOR THE WISHES EVERYONE~
Yesterday was just brilliant!
Cathe- met france and vanessa a first then gave up waiting for the rest after natalia came so we went up first. Then liz, ana mei ans natasha came! They bought me presents and a chocolate mousse cake which got disfigured totally after cathe. OH PICTURES COMING SOON!~~~
Orchard- Pepper lunch for dinner. Wow. kinda contradicting huh. It was fantabulous! We ate at 8 plus cos we waited for teresa as she had her "secret project" to do. OH! & ana mei slept over and had to get her stuff. Anyway, went to Zara and completely did the most stupid thing. Then, watsons to get stuff. Then BACK HOME! It was really great chatting with the taxi driver while getting confused, laughing, getting misled and getting weird/freaky smses. It was fine. Then, reached home to cool down and settle down and went down from my room to first floor to cut my last cake which signified the end of my birthday at exactly MIDNIGHT when i blew out the candles. The ultimate bomb! Pictures soon. Then, we went back to my room- Teresa fell asleep almost instantly while the rest were deprived of sleep by Liz&Anamei. I give it to them that it was super fun but me&OEY were totally zonked today! Slept at 4, woke up at 6-7 and ordered macs before falling back asleep countless times. OH! Them lovelies made a wonderful card/surprise for me and i was so damn touched i almost cried! Pictures SOON. presents await me. Unexpected things happen. Watched White chicks, blood&Chocolate and a walk to remember today with zoey. It was nice. I love yesterday and today. Ana mei and liz getting high was annoying yet funny and fun.
Imagine trying to sleep but end up laughing. & just before you want to fall asleep, you eat sugar and get high and come down with block nose. horrible. but i loved it.
signing off,
sarah~
he remembered me!!!!!!!& my birthday!!!!!!!!
HEYHEYHEY!
YEAH! FOURTEEN ALREADY! FABULOUS MUCH! THANK YOU FOR THE WISHES EVERYONE~
Yesterday was just brilliant!
Cathe- met france and vanessa a first then gave up waiting for the rest after natalia came so we went up first. Then liz, ana mei ans natasha came! They bought me presents and a chocolate mousse cake which got disfigured totally after cathe. OH PICTURES COMING SOON!~~~
Orchard- Pepper lunch for dinner. Wow. kinda contradicting huh. It was fantabulous! We ate at 8 plus cos we waited for teresa as she had her "secret project" to do. OH! & ana mei slept over and had to get her stuff. Anyway, went to Zara and completely did the most stupid thing. Then, watsons to get stuff. Then BACK HOME! It was really great chatting with the taxi driver while getting confused, laughing, getting misled and getting weird/freaky smses. It was fine. Then, reached home to cool down and settle down and went down from my room to first floor to cut my last cake which signified the end of my birthday at exactly MIDNIGHT when i blew out the candles. The ultimate bomb! Pictures soon. Then, we went back to my room- Teresa fell asleep almost instantly while the rest were deprived of sleep by Liz&Anamei. I give it to them that it was super fun but me&OEY were totally zonked today! Slept at 4, woke up at 6-7 and ordered macs before falling back asleep countless times. OH! Them lovelies made a wonderful card/surprise for me and i was so damn touched i almost cried! Pictures SOON. presents await me. Unexpected things happen. Watched White chicks, blood&Chocolate and a walk to remember today with zoey. It was nice. I love yesterday and today. Ana mei and liz getting high was annoying yet funny and fun.
Imagine trying to sleep but end up laughing. & just before you want to fall asleep, you eat sugar and get high and come down with block nose. horrible. but i loved it.
signing off,
sarah~
he remembered me!!!!!!!& my birthday!!!!!!!!
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Thursday, May 15, 2008
♥ Love Is Out Of Reach
if this is a dream, i don't ever want to wake up;
i need your love
Thank you for doing what you did, to make me realise i can never forget him. You opened the door for what was waiting for me to wake up and go back.
Dear reader,
i am very delighted to tell you that fricking fourteen is on it's way this Saturday. Before that is a great day with my friends in school. Presents await, a cake for jojo too and so much more i'm pretty sure. Anyway, for today we had pw which was fine. Geography was watching the ending of "If Only" which is super touching, and Ice Age. After Geog, went to have lunch which was just Vitasoy for me. Then, it was time to meet at LT to head to HCJC's campus for some science experiments at their supposedly new lab. It was the ultimate laughter bomb! Carmel&I took a piece of tissue paper and wrote Linfeng's number and gave it to the JC guys. It also stated :looking for male partner. Coolness, need i say more?
OH! Besides our doing to him, he still helped rub and massage my leg with some medicine from Miss Ida-from the first aid kit. I could promise that this leg is killing and givinng me a lot of problems! It was nice though that linfeng and jojo offered to bring me to the hospital. haha. They say my bone is jerking out. I can't see anything and they tell me i'm blind. Oh Well. So be it. Told mummy&daddy but mum just said, if you can walk it's fine.
WTH. i seriously doubt they are normal. IT HURTS ALREADY! FOR HALF A YEAR NOW! ARGH! I run and act normal maybe because no one wants to help me, i have no MC and therefore i HAVE to run. This is oh so annoying and frustrating....
Anyway,
au revoir.
time to go sleep- need to be in sch at 7 for the "party".
i need your love
Thank you for doing what you did, to make me realise i can never forget him. You opened the door for what was waiting for me to wake up and go back.
Dear reader,
i am very delighted to tell you that fricking fourteen is on it's way this Saturday. Before that is a great day with my friends in school. Presents await, a cake for jojo too and so much more i'm pretty sure. Anyway, for today we had pw which was fine. Geography was watching the ending of "If Only" which is super touching, and Ice Age. After Geog, went to have lunch which was just Vitasoy for me. Then, it was time to meet at LT to head to HCJC's campus for some science experiments at their supposedly new lab. It was the ultimate laughter bomb! Carmel&I took a piece of tissue paper and wrote Linfeng's number and gave it to the JC guys. It also stated :looking for male partner. Coolness, need i say more?
OH! Besides our doing to him, he still helped rub and massage my leg with some medicine from Miss Ida-from the first aid kit. I could promise that this leg is killing and givinng me a lot of problems! It was nice though that linfeng and jojo offered to bring me to the hospital. haha. They say my bone is jerking out. I can't see anything and they tell me i'm blind. Oh Well. So be it. Told mummy&daddy but mum just said, if you can walk it's fine.
WTH. i seriously doubt they are normal. IT HURTS ALREADY! FOR HALF A YEAR NOW! ARGH! I run and act normal maybe because no one wants to help me, i have no MC and therefore i HAVE to run. This is oh so annoying and frustrating....
Anyway,
au revoir.
time to go sleep- need to be in sch at 7 for the "party".
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Tuesday, May 13, 2008
♥ Surprise, Surprise
Fantastic Fourteen in just 3 more days. sorry. i totally mixed up my numbers in yesterday's post.
Can't wait for the 17th!
There's something awaiting me!
This is probably the first time i really want and can't wait to go for cathe, though not for the lesson.
HAHAHAHAH.
Gosh, do i love my lovelies.
English- watched the oh so weird grimm brothers
break- ate then went early to IT lab.
IT- logged onto friendster and facebook then i actually started on the It assignment! Me &GiGi
science-erased from memory, therefore. ZILCH.
math-lesson
chinese-lesson
geog-TEST PAPER! 42/50, top in class.
lunch-poolside with GiGi then...
MASS EXERCISE.
damn mass exercise and people who sabotaged me into answering sim sim's qn....
though i like bonding with my dear classmates.
anyway till the next time,
ciaociao~
Can't wait for the 17th!
There's something awaiting me!
This is probably the first time i really want and can't wait to go for cathe, though not for the lesson.
HAHAHAHAH.
Gosh, do i love my lovelies.
English- watched the oh so weird grimm brothers
break- ate then went early to IT lab.
IT- logged onto friendster and facebook then i actually started on the It assignment! Me &GiGi
science-erased from memory, therefore. ZILCH.
math-lesson
chinese-lesson
geog-TEST PAPER! 42/50, top in class.
lunch-poolside with GiGi then...
MASS EXERCISE.
damn mass exercise and people who sabotaged me into answering sim sim's qn....
though i like bonding with my dear classmates.
anyway till the next time,
ciaociao~
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Monday, May 12, 2008
♥ Forgotten
Yeah, i could barely sleep last night. tossed and turn a lot then i started to think and cried myself to sleep after the horrible thoughts and memories tormented me.
Today was major slacking.
Also major thinking and reflecting...I'm better off like this. It's either you or no you. I can't stop forcing myself to forget you or i'll end up hurting people again. It's my turn to prove my love by waiting even if it kills me when you're with someone else, i deserve it. Then, your not all right either.
Anyway, lost all feelings to write poems. having horrible mixed feelings and i'm lost.
ciao.
3 more days till fabulous fourteen.
Today was major slacking.
Also major thinking and reflecting...I'm better off like this. It's either you or no you. I can't stop forcing myself to forget you or i'll end up hurting people again. It's my turn to prove my love by waiting even if it kills me when you're with someone else, i deserve it. Then, your not all right either.
Anyway, lost all feelings to write poems. having horrible mixed feelings and i'm lost.
ciao.
3 more days till fabulous fourteen.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Sunday, May 11, 2008
♥ Understanding Is Love For Me
Today i woke up with love in my heart but now i'm left with nothing but a hollow and empty heart. I look forward to this Saturday to forget everything that happened or just happened. I agree that i have been a b**** but that's my cover for the truth you don't know. I am deeply hurt and drowning in the endless pain as it tortures me each day. I try to find reason and answers only to get misled. I thought that then, it was the time. Where i would be understood. I am once again wronged.
I could wish and hope for so many things but then again, why should i?
I once longed for love only to get misled, misunderstood and so much more over and over again.
Like how i cry when no one's looking, or how i fake a smile to this life i try to make the best out of.
Pleasing everyone is tiring and i don't know why i still go on trying to do so. Only to end up
hurting people i love around me and myself.
I had moved on and wanted to tell you but you found out from someone what i wanted to tell you. You didn't give me a chance and now everything's still messed up but you think it's not.
& for you my fragile friend now, you too do not understand me as i thought you would. You broke my heart and dreams again. I do not blame you for anything but just want you to know, it's not the same as it used to be. you opened the door wide enough for all that i tried so hard to forget, to come back once again. I am deeply wounded.
I do not expect anything from anyone. I am just grateful for what i have and am given. I may have forsaken many things but i learn. Correct me and give me chances.
My dearest, you ended everything but i know it's not the end. Today i wake up more clear in mind than ever. I love you. I hurt you when i never ever thought i could. I'm sorry. I need you, please don't leave me here. i don't want it to be over. This is just the start for me though it's the end for you. Everything will go well, i will wait patiently for another chance if god grants me.
General:
Tests are all over. birthday this Sat. CAn't wait.
ciao.
I could wish and hope for so many things but then again, why should i?
I once longed for love only to get misled, misunderstood and so much more over and over again.
Like how i cry when no one's looking, or how i fake a smile to this life i try to make the best out of.
Pleasing everyone is tiring and i don't know why i still go on trying to do so. Only to end up
hurting people i love around me and myself.
I had moved on and wanted to tell you but you found out from someone what i wanted to tell you. You didn't give me a chance and now everything's still messed up but you think it's not.
& for you my fragile friend now, you too do not understand me as i thought you would. You broke my heart and dreams again. I do not blame you for anything but just want you to know, it's not the same as it used to be. you opened the door wide enough for all that i tried so hard to forget, to come back once again. I am deeply wounded.
I do not expect anything from anyone. I am just grateful for what i have and am given. I may have forsaken many things but i learn. Correct me and give me chances.
My dearest, you ended everything but i know it's not the end. Today i wake up more clear in mind than ever. I love you. I hurt you when i never ever thought i could. I'm sorry. I need you, please don't leave me here. i don't want it to be over. This is just the start for me though it's the end for you. Everything will go well, i will wait patiently for another chance if god grants me.
General:
Tests are all over. birthday this Sat. CAn't wait.
ciao.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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