Sunday, May 11, 2008
♥ Understanding Is Love For Me
Today i woke up with love in my heart but now i'm left with nothing but a hollow and empty heart. I look forward to this Saturday to forget everything that happened or just happened. I agree that i have been a b**** but that's my cover for the truth you don't know. I am deeply hurt and drowning in the endless pain as it tortures me each day. I try to find reason and answers only to get misled. I thought that then, it was the time. Where i would be understood. I am once again wronged.
I could wish and hope for so many things but then again, why should i?
I once longed for love only to get misled, misunderstood and so much more over and over again.
Like how i cry when no one's looking, or how i fake a smile to this life i try to make the best out of.
Pleasing everyone is tiring and i don't know why i still go on trying to do so. Only to end up
hurting people i love around me and myself.
I had moved on and wanted to tell you but you found out from someone what i wanted to tell you. You didn't give me a chance and now everything's still messed up but you think it's not.
& for you my fragile friend now, you too do not understand me as i thought you would. You broke my heart and dreams again. I do not blame you for anything but just want you to know, it's not the same as it used to be. you opened the door wide enough for all that i tried so hard to forget, to come back once again. I am deeply wounded.
I do not expect anything from anyone. I am just grateful for what i have and am given. I may have forsaken many things but i learn. Correct me and give me chances.
My dearest, you ended everything but i know it's not the end. Today i wake up more clear in mind than ever. I love you. I hurt you when i never ever thought i could. I'm sorry. I need you, please don't leave me here. i don't want it to be over. This is just the start for me though it's the end for you. Everything will go well, i will wait patiently for another chance if god grants me.
General:
Tests are all over. birthday this Sat. CAn't wait.
ciao.
I could wish and hope for so many things but then again, why should i?
I once longed for love only to get misled, misunderstood and so much more over and over again.
Like how i cry when no one's looking, or how i fake a smile to this life i try to make the best out of.
Pleasing everyone is tiring and i don't know why i still go on trying to do so. Only to end up
hurting people i love around me and myself.
I had moved on and wanted to tell you but you found out from someone what i wanted to tell you. You didn't give me a chance and now everything's still messed up but you think it's not.
& for you my fragile friend now, you too do not understand me as i thought you would. You broke my heart and dreams again. I do not blame you for anything but just want you to know, it's not the same as it used to be. you opened the door wide enough for all that i tried so hard to forget, to come back once again. I am deeply wounded.
I do not expect anything from anyone. I am just grateful for what i have and am given. I may have forsaken many things but i learn. Correct me and give me chances.
My dearest, you ended everything but i know it's not the end. Today i wake up more clear in mind than ever. I love you. I hurt you when i never ever thought i could. I'm sorry. I need you, please don't leave me here. i don't want it to be over. This is just the start for me though it's the end for you. Everything will go well, i will wait patiently for another chance if god grants me.
General:
Tests are all over. birthday this Sat. CAn't wait.
ciao.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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