Sunday, March 09, 2008
♥ I Hate This Life now
Things are so different, yeah. It's because i changed it without even knowing. I want my old life back, i want to be the nice, sweet, innocent and carefree girl i once was, but life has changed me. Part of life, don't comment it's gonna be same old same old words. I'm sick of life without him here. He doesn't blog as much, he doesn't come online, life's so different and my heart feels so heavy but yet, empty of all feelings. I need some space to breathe, think and be alone for some time. I feel like i'm not ready to love another but need some thing to cry on, a shoulder. Lord save this sinner already. Please. I'm dying and i can't even talk to him, the only one i need. I'm hurting everyone by everything i do, i'm a walking disaster, a living mess.
Conclusion: my life sucks terribly.
Hey you,
I'm drained of all energy to be hyper like i used to be. Yesturday was the best because i totally bombed my wallet and bought stuff that made me feel so much better. That's so ironic? I painted my nails. Went for cathecism. Had dinner at mama&gonggong's place with the family. Sean went for camp. Watched diao man gong zhu. Today, bored, tired and feeling so messed up. I need to stop tying myself down and go out and relax with them lovelies and forget the need-to-be-forgotten's. Sarahg, your such a bitch.
Love plays with my heart,
then tears my apart.
Hate smiles at me,
making me think now that we can never be.
Strong is not me,
i'm not what you see.
My heart is made of cotton candy,
and pain is not friendly.
Trying to forget,
everything that happened.
Somehow my heart doesn't allow,
this love i have for you to fade.
In the noiseless dark,
my tears sparkles.
No one can tell or see,
your everything that i need.
The sun does not shine as bright,
as when you were in my life.
You were the light,
that gave me everything i needed to live.
This time it's my fault,
i got myself into this mess.
Loving you is all i could do,
besides drowning in the endless pain.
Tears roll down,
as pain grows stronger with love.
This love is somehow different,
as i now taste the true bitterness of love.
Don't know how to love another,
and promise to be forever.
All my energy i used to love you,
now i'm darined and don't know what to do.
Promise me you won't forget me,
but the pain i left you with.
I won't promise i'll let go,
even when you do.
For you see,
i am out of words as my energy is drained.
This i promise won't be the last of it,
because not even this amount of words could say it all.
Tried loving another,
the way i love you.
But some things,
just can't be the same.
My heart weighs me down,
as i try to catch my breath.
I need some time by myself,
to be carefree and not what i am now.
I'm messed up,
all lost and confused.
I need to find a way out,
but the i'm cornered every side.
Tears add on to the morning dew,
and pain adds on to the broken heart.
This love i feel for you,
my wrong move left me in such a state.
yeah, i'm good and broken.
I'm a messed up kid...
and i did this to myself.
till the next due post,
ciao.
Conclusion: my life sucks terribly.
Hey you,
I'm drained of all energy to be hyper like i used to be. Yesturday was the best because i totally bombed my wallet and bought stuff that made me feel so much better. That's so ironic? I painted my nails. Went for cathecism. Had dinner at mama&gonggong's place with the family. Sean went for camp. Watched diao man gong zhu. Today, bored, tired and feeling so messed up. I need to stop tying myself down and go out and relax with them lovelies and forget the need-to-be-forgotten's. Sarahg, your such a bitch.
Love plays with my heart,
then tears my apart.
Hate smiles at me,
making me think now that we can never be.
Strong is not me,
i'm not what you see.
My heart is made of cotton candy,
and pain is not friendly.
Trying to forget,
everything that happened.
Somehow my heart doesn't allow,
this love i have for you to fade.
In the noiseless dark,
my tears sparkles.
No one can tell or see,
your everything that i need.
The sun does not shine as bright,
as when you were in my life.
You were the light,
that gave me everything i needed to live.
This time it's my fault,
i got myself into this mess.
Loving you is all i could do,
besides drowning in the endless pain.
Tears roll down,
as pain grows stronger with love.
This love is somehow different,
as i now taste the true bitterness of love.
Don't know how to love another,
and promise to be forever.
All my energy i used to love you,
now i'm darined and don't know what to do.
Promise me you won't forget me,
but the pain i left you with.
I won't promise i'll let go,
even when you do.
For you see,
i am out of words as my energy is drained.
This i promise won't be the last of it,
because not even this amount of words could say it all.
Tried loving another,
the way i love you.
But some things,
just can't be the same.
My heart weighs me down,
as i try to catch my breath.
I need some time by myself,
to be carefree and not what i am now.
I'm messed up,
all lost and confused.
I need to find a way out,
but the i'm cornered every side.
Tears add on to the morning dew,
and pain adds on to the broken heart.
This love i feel for you,
my wrong move left me in such a state.
yeah, i'm good and broken.
I'm a messed up kid...
and i did this to myself.
till the next due post,
ciao.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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