Tuesday, March 25, 2008
♥ Depressed.Depress.Depressing.
Kill me and don't remember anything.
I just got fricking nagged at, by HER. about smsing and geog results. I improved dammit! JUST STFU! Demoralising my efforts. So damn hard to please everyone! I want to end it just here! Give me time! DAMN. I mean, i did quite well considering the fact SHE doesn't give a damn about my school life and all. PLUS i count on myself. GOSH. Life is just so bloody sickening now. I need you! WHERE ARE YOU?....I need your comforting words so true....
sarah's soul still can't rest in peace.
I just got fricking nagged at, by HER. about smsing and geog results. I improved dammit! JUST STFU! Demoralising my efforts. So damn hard to please everyone! I want to end it just here! Give me time! DAMN. I mean, i did quite well considering the fact SHE doesn't give a damn about my school life and all. PLUS i count on myself. GOSH. Life is just so bloody sickening now. I need you! WHERE ARE YOU?....I need your comforting words so true....
sarah's soul still can't rest in peace.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Monday, March 24, 2008
♥ Messed Up World Without Him
& all i ever wanted was for you to understand this love for you i feel, and it's truly real.
Count me dead, there's no point living without his love and us like this.
i'm screwed up, f-ed up and i don't know what the hell i'm supposed to do now.
I'm lost and confused.
my love was all i ever wanted you to understand but you just don't care do you?
YES, fine! just blame it all on me.
Nothing's going to be the same anymore, is it?
bye.
I Just Can't Live A Lie.
yeah, i love you. This song fits my feelings now...
Count me dead, there's no point living without his love and us like this.
i'm screwed up, f-ed up and i don't know what the hell i'm supposed to do now.
I'm lost and confused.
my love was all i ever wanted you to understand but you just don't care do you?
YES, fine! just blame it all on me.
Nothing's going to be the same anymore, is it?
bye.
I Just Can't Live A Lie.
yeah, i love you. This song fits my feelings now...
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Saturday, March 22, 2008
♥ Lost Without Your Love
tried being with another,
but your love is the only one that meant forever.
Hey amiga/amigo,
how's love coming along? Love hates me right now, nothing seems right. I need him alright. I feel so so so so so so lost. I defintely want him but i don't know what to do. His love used to be like the wind for me, i couldn't see it but only feel it ; now it feels just like any other ordinary stale feeling. I won't give up on this feeling but i see no point in trying anymore. It feels like a one sided love. Anyway, went to Trimmers and ended with a Hair-tastrophe! Short fringe and now i look so chinese-sy! and WEIRD! oh no! i want my long fringe back! ahhh! WEnt to laguna club to eat dinner, stoned after dinner. Ate a lot! oh! did i mention i'm still 40kg? i'm proud of it! Anyway, ciao.
but your love is the only one that meant forever.
Hey amiga/amigo,
how's love coming along? Love hates me right now, nothing seems right. I need him alright. I feel so so so so so so lost. I defintely want him but i don't know what to do. His love used to be like the wind for me, i couldn't see it but only feel it ; now it feels just like any other ordinary stale feeling. I won't give up on this feeling but i see no point in trying anymore. It feels like a one sided love. Anyway, went to Trimmers and ended with a Hair-tastrophe! Short fringe and now i look so chinese-sy! and WEIRD! oh no! i want my long fringe back! ahhh! WEnt to laguna club to eat dinner, stoned after dinner. Ate a lot! oh! did i mention i'm still 40kg? i'm proud of it! Anyway, ciao.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Friday, March 21, 2008
♥ A Walk To Remember
I woke up with a mind filled of memories of us together,
and somehow the tears just couldn't stop it's flow.
Hey there,
i just love the song "Only Hope" sung by Mandy Moore. Heard it from the movie "A Walk To Remember". It's so sad and touching and romantic! Anyway, yesturday was kinda boring after coming home. Today, it's kinda boring but not sure about later. Aunt Pam&thefamily are coming over! I feel so out of love today! I need to talk to him! He fills my life with real love, hope and true happiness.
I just can't let go of you,
life's without you is so cold.
Our love once like the wind could only be felt,
but now i can't feel nor see it.
Be it to hate or love,
i won't let go just now.
Your my angel sent from above,
nobody could make me feel the same.
real or unreal,
or i want is you.
each time i think of the past,
i can't help but cry.
ciao dearest reader~
and somehow the tears just couldn't stop it's flow.
Hey there,
i just love the song "Only Hope" sung by Mandy Moore. Heard it from the movie "A Walk To Remember". It's so sad and touching and romantic! Anyway, yesturday was kinda boring after coming home. Today, it's kinda boring but not sure about later. Aunt Pam&thefamily are coming over! I feel so out of love today! I need to talk to him! He fills my life with real love, hope and true happiness.
I just can't let go of you,
life's without you is so cold.
Our love once like the wind could only be felt,
but now i can't feel nor see it.
Be it to hate or love,
i won't let go just now.
Your my angel sent from above,
nobody could make me feel the same.
real or unreal,
or i want is you.
each time i think of the past,
i can't help but cry.
ciao dearest reader~
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Thursday, March 20, 2008
♥ Shakesphere In Love
Now Sarah Is.
Can i be the one to love you and be everything you need?
Hey you~
How's life? Mine's fine, really fine, mighty fine! Today was Hwa Chong's 89th birthday. Ended at 0930, went to KAP for lunch then headed to Cineleisure to watch Step Up 2 once again. I want to learn to Salsa! Oh. Then took neoprints with Shellfish, cockroach and Mama Stingray. Yeah. Then headed to KC, stood like some loser loner for half an hour. People started pouring out then i said hi's and hugged many. So happy, felt really great to see my friends and it felt like i was home. Mann. Haish. Good time. Good times. But, things have changed and one person in particular. We've drifted terribly, it feels horrible. Anyway, came home and have been slacking since the time i came home. So, nothing much except that i am happily in love somehow.
Never did i expect,
to fall this badly.
My heart's been hurt over and again,
but nothing could compare to my love for you.
OH! i just found out that he is seriously a jerk, stereo type guy, immature idiot, gay, annoying and somehow he can become a playboy. ANNOYING MUCH! Anyway, i'm signing off so...
Ciao~
Can i be the one to love you and be everything you need?
Hey you~
How's life? Mine's fine, really fine, mighty fine! Today was Hwa Chong's 89th birthday. Ended at 0930, went to KAP for lunch then headed to Cineleisure to watch Step Up 2 once again. I want to learn to Salsa! Oh. Then took neoprints with Shellfish, cockroach and Mama Stingray. Yeah. Then headed to KC, stood like some loser loner for half an hour. People started pouring out then i said hi's and hugged many. So happy, felt really great to see my friends and it felt like i was home. Mann. Haish. Good time. Good times. But, things have changed and one person in particular. We've drifted terribly, it feels horrible. Anyway, came home and have been slacking since the time i came home. So, nothing much except that i am happily in love somehow.
Never did i expect,
to fall this badly.
My heart's been hurt over and again,
but nothing could compare to my love for you.
OH! i just found out that he is seriously a jerk, stereo type guy, immature idiot, gay, annoying and somehow he can become a playboy. ANNOYING MUCH! Anyway, i'm signing off so...
Ciao~
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Tuesday, March 18, 2008
♥ It's You
you're engraved on my heart and cannot nor will be erased
When i hear your name,
i forget all that's around me.
When i think of you,
i hope fate will bring us together eventually.
Hey you,
it's back to school in Term 2! Time pasts fast yet slow? Yeah, for me it's passing really slowly. I need to find out what he feels. I need to get over all this crazy stuff and settle down even if he doesn't feel the way i do. i daren't think that it's not too late to get back because i messed up. Anyway, scored 28/30 for english letter writing. it's so crazy. Amazing. OH! had first british council course yesturday and it rocked! haha. Okay, so i had debating just now and now it's IT. Will be having chinese later and i so did not do the homework, no one really remembered anyway! Gonna get nagged at later. Most probably.
alright, need to go now. It's time for science!
ciao~
When i hear your name,
i forget all that's around me.
When i think of you,
i hope fate will bring us together eventually.
Hey you,
it's back to school in Term 2! Time pasts fast yet slow? Yeah, for me it's passing really slowly. I need to find out what he feels. I need to get over all this crazy stuff and settle down even if he doesn't feel the way i do. i daren't think that it's not too late to get back because i messed up. Anyway, scored 28/30 for english letter writing. it's so crazy. Amazing. OH! had first british council course yesturday and it rocked! haha. Okay, so i had debating just now and now it's IT. Will be having chinese later and i so did not do the homework, no one really remembered anyway! Gonna get nagged at later. Most probably.
alright, need to go now. It's time for science!
ciao~
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Sunday, March 16, 2008
♥ Only You Can Tell
it's so hard not being me around others;
you make living so much easier
"addiction is hard to break but love is the hardest to shake"
Your my hero~
Hey there,
how's life? Mine? It's complicated. I proudly announce i wear a ring to show the world i'm taken. I don't want anybody but you, i always smile when i'm with you though sometimes we quarrel. In the end, you always leave me smiling except that one time you left me bleeding but soon we realised we both felt the same.Our love is strong and real, no one knows how it feels. I Love You these words i say, for you will stay ever so true. When i look at this ring, it reminds me of you and the memories of you. Wish you could be mine once again and i, be yours. Tell me if you we can once again be together, one more chance to be with you. One more chance for me to want you, love you and be everything you ever need ;
your oxygen to breathe
I don't need to ask if it's you because i know you fit perfectly.
so, will you let me be with you to love you?
ciao~
deepest apologies,
for these may not be what you want to see.
Till my next post,
do stay close.
you make living so much easier
"addiction is hard to break but love is the hardest to shake"
Your my hero~
Hey there,
how's life? Mine? It's complicated. I proudly announce i wear a ring to show the world i'm taken. I don't want anybody but you, i always smile when i'm with you though sometimes we quarrel. In the end, you always leave me smiling except that one time you left me bleeding but soon we realised we both felt the same.Our love is strong and real, no one knows how it feels. I Love You these words i say, for you will stay ever so true. When i look at this ring, it reminds me of you and the memories of you. Wish you could be mine once again and i, be yours. Tell me if you we can once again be together, one more chance to be with you. One more chance for me to want you, love you and be everything you ever need ;
your oxygen to breathe
I don't need to ask if it's you because i know you fit perfectly.
so, will you let me be with you to love you?
ciao~
deepest apologies,
for these may not be what you want to see.
Till my next post,
do stay close.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Saturday, March 15, 2008
♥ reflect, and move on already!
So here i am blogging again cos i just can't get over something i wanted so much but took for granted. I lost my chance so i have to face the music.
Thought it would be easy,
words can be so deceiving.
Never did i want things to turn out this way,
and now it's back to skies of grey.
i should have never done that,
now i lost my chance.
Bet you've moved on,
i should get started even though it feels so wrong.
Up till now,
you still don't get it.
The way you get to me,
my heart is still with you.
crappy poems are my excuses ;
so i don't have to say it out straight.
i love you,
and i don't know why i still do
Thought it would be easy,
words can be so deceiving.
Never did i want things to turn out this way,
and now it's back to skies of grey.
i should have never done that,
now i lost my chance.
Bet you've moved on,
i should get started even though it feels so wrong.
Up till now,
you still don't get it.
The way you get to me,
my heart is still with you.
crappy poems are my excuses ;
so i don't have to say it out straight.
i love you,
and i don't know why i still do
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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♥ You Get Me
I LOVE ME.
LOVELOVE these songs with me!
Half Life by Duncan Sheik
I Wanna Be Bad by Willa Ford
Long Time Coming by OLIVER JAMES
Stay Beautiful, Invisible, I'm Only Me When I'm With You, Cold As You by Taylor Swift
Hook Me Up, Untouched by THE VERONICAS
IS IT YOU by CASSIE!
&& many many many more!
Hey there,
I was out yesturday reviving my childhood at the zoo for about 5-6hrs. Then i came home at around 4+ and immediately went to my room and crashed for 2hrs then it was time for dinner then tution. After fighting and almsot drowning in numbers, class was dismissed and i came home to use the computer. I didn't feel like blogging so i just went online msn and chat with friends. Then after 40 mins, had to get off the computer so i decided to watch "What A Girl Wants". I cried...haha. Oh Well! I feel so emotional...haha.......Okok. Anyway,
today!
Got cathecism later then it's to Uncle Luke's Hse for their new baby's first month. I feel emotion-less bout this one. haha. I'm a lil weird today. anyway, that's all for now.
Ciao~
Sarah is addicted to the song is it you by cassie!!!!
LOVELOVE these songs with me!
Half Life by Duncan Sheik
I Wanna Be Bad by Willa Ford
Long Time Coming by OLIVER JAMES
Stay Beautiful, Invisible, I'm Only Me When I'm With You, Cold As You by Taylor Swift
Hook Me Up, Untouched by THE VERONICAS
IS IT YOU by CASSIE!
&& many many many more!
Hey there,
I was out yesturday reviving my childhood at the zoo for about 5-6hrs. Then i came home at around 4+ and immediately went to my room and crashed for 2hrs then it was time for dinner then tution. After fighting and almsot drowning in numbers, class was dismissed and i came home to use the computer. I didn't feel like blogging so i just went online msn and chat with friends. Then after 40 mins, had to get off the computer so i decided to watch "What A Girl Wants". I cried...haha. Oh Well! I feel so emotional...haha.......Okok. Anyway,
today!
Got cathecism later then it's to Uncle Luke's Hse for their new baby's first month. I feel emotion-less bout this one. haha. I'm a lil weird today. anyway, that's all for now.
Ciao~
Sarah is addicted to the song is it you by cassie!!!!
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Thursday, March 13, 2008
♥ The Streets
HEY YO!
Today was uber-tastic! YESYESYES! i'm back to mixing up and matching them words up! Step Up 2 the Street's dance cheorographies was pop-oh-licious with a whole lotta attitude! It rocked the crap outta me that i wish i could dance then! The music was awesome too! Watched it with the people who came from retard-land. Popping rocks but dancing with the hips rocks harder! TRY IT! I love dancing with the hips and when popping is joined with attitude dancing, whoo! Sorry if you can't appreciate dancing luh! Not my problem, IDC! MWAHMWAHMWAH to dancing! I know. The headache and weird feeling is getting to my head. I feel fever-ish. I'm addiced to "Is It You" by Cassie! She's so pretty! triple threat! coolness. Went to Marina to watch Step Up 2 The Streets. The show rocks but the dancing rocks harder! I love the last dance cheorography! I miss dancing oh so much! Attitude dancing rocks cos it comes from deep within. HAHAH. WHATEVER! It just rocks! I want dance lessons! Dance, my one and only. okay, that's all!
CIAOCIAO~
Today was uber-tastic! YESYESYES! i'm back to mixing up and matching them words up! Step Up 2 the Street's dance cheorographies was pop-oh-licious with a whole lotta attitude! It rocked the crap outta me that i wish i could dance then! The music was awesome too! Watched it with the people who came from retard-land. Popping rocks but dancing with the hips rocks harder! TRY IT! I love dancing with the hips and when popping is joined with attitude dancing, whoo! Sorry if you can't appreciate dancing luh! Not my problem, IDC! MWAHMWAHMWAH to dancing! I know. The headache and weird feeling is getting to my head. I feel fever-ish. I'm addiced to "Is It You" by Cassie! She's so pretty! triple threat! coolness. Went to Marina to watch Step Up 2 The Streets. The show rocks but the dancing rocks harder! I love the last dance cheorography! I miss dancing oh so much! Attitude dancing rocks cos it comes from deep within. HAHAH. WHATEVER! It just rocks! I want dance lessons! Dance, my one and only. okay, that's all!
CIAOCIAO~
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Wednesday, March 12, 2008
♥ Sometimes Words Get In The Way
OHMYOHMYOHMY!
I feel so screwed up! I'm rotting at home! Doing homework is fun but then again, when you think about your friends going out and having so much fun while your stoning/studying, gosh does the feeling sucks A LOT.
My oxford dictionary has become my new bestest friend.
I'm addicted to the song "something more" by Aly&AJ.
I miss dancing A LOT.
I miss dancing more than just a lot!
I want to dance!
I need dance.
I love dance.
I love attitude dancing.
I love O Lvl english.
I love what i love.
I miss KC.
I miss 1/3 07'.
I miss a lot of things i can't have/do in HCIS.
I don't like the fact that HCIS people don't know how to chill and have real fun.
HEY YOU READING THIS POST OF THIS BLOG OF MINE!
Where's the party at?! I need to get out of here before i go mad! Life's getting really really boring just staying at home and not being able to go out and see people! I NEED TO GET OUT! OH. i am. tomorrow. Yeah, it's another short post once again....
Love can be the sweetest thing we've ever tasted,
but it's different once it changes.
Love will be the most sour thing we've tasted,
when we've had too much of it.
Bring me on a ride,
but never leave my side.
I need something to help me,
carry on this fake pretence.
As the rain is falling,
eyes seem to be tearing.
Ciao lovely.
I feel so screwed up! I'm rotting at home! Doing homework is fun but then again, when you think about your friends going out and having so much fun while your stoning/studying, gosh does the feeling sucks A LOT.
My oxford dictionary has become my new bestest friend.
I'm addicted to the song "something more" by Aly&AJ.
I miss dancing A LOT.
I miss dancing more than just a lot!
I want to dance!
I need dance.
I love dance.
I love attitude dancing.
I love O Lvl english.
I love what i love.
I miss KC.
I miss 1/3 07'.
I miss a lot of things i can't have/do in HCIS.
I don't like the fact that HCIS people don't know how to chill and have real fun.
HEY YOU READING THIS POST OF THIS BLOG OF MINE!
Where's the party at?! I need to get out of here before i go mad! Life's getting really really boring just staying at home and not being able to go out and see people! I NEED TO GET OUT! OH. i am. tomorrow. Yeah, it's another short post once again....
Love can be the sweetest thing we've ever tasted,
but it's different once it changes.
Love will be the most sour thing we've tasted,
when we've had too much of it.
Bring me on a ride,
but never leave my side.
I need something to help me,
carry on this fake pretence.
As the rain is falling,
eyes seem to be tearing.
Ciao lovely.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Tuesday, March 11, 2008
♥ Emptiness
when you left and walked out of my life ;
then it was my turn
I didn't want it this way.
I'm feeling dizzy and warm, about to hurl and i don't know what to do. It feels really bad! I can barely concentrate and think what to blog. So, it'll be yet another short post.
Spinning round and about,
i try to stop and think.
Instead i drop onto the floor,
and wonder why i still love you for.
GOODBYE DEAR WORLD!~~~~~~~~~~
SEE YOU IN MY NEXT LIFE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
then it was my turn
I didn't want it this way.
I'm feeling dizzy and warm, about to hurl and i don't know what to do. It feels really bad! I can barely concentrate and think what to blog. So, it'll be yet another short post.
Spinning round and about,
i try to stop and think.
Instead i drop onto the floor,
and wonder why i still love you for.
GOODBYE DEAR WORLD!~~~~~~~~~~
SEE YOU IN MY NEXT LIFE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Sunday, March 09, 2008
♥ FREAK!
consider this factor,
i'm not a happy cheery girl.
I FAKE THE HAPPY PRETENCE!
GET IT?
life's not what it seems,
and please do not think of what you see of me as what i truly am.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I'M SO MESSED UP! SO FREAKING MESSED UP! LORD SAVE ME. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. CRAP-NESS.
I AM SUCH AN IDIOT! ARGH!.....
............................
i'm not a happy cheery girl.
I FAKE THE HAPPY PRETENCE!
GET IT?
life's not what it seems,
and please do not think of what you see of me as what i truly am.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I'M SO MESSED UP! SO FREAKING MESSED UP! LORD SAVE ME. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. CRAP-NESS.
I AM SUCH AN IDIOT! ARGH!.....
............................
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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♥ I Hate This Life now
Things are so different, yeah. It's because i changed it without even knowing. I want my old life back, i want to be the nice, sweet, innocent and carefree girl i once was, but life has changed me. Part of life, don't comment it's gonna be same old same old words. I'm sick of life without him here. He doesn't blog as much, he doesn't come online, life's so different and my heart feels so heavy but yet, empty of all feelings. I need some space to breathe, think and be alone for some time. I feel like i'm not ready to love another but need some thing to cry on, a shoulder. Lord save this sinner already. Please. I'm dying and i can't even talk to him, the only one i need. I'm hurting everyone by everything i do, i'm a walking disaster, a living mess.
Conclusion: my life sucks terribly.
Hey you,
I'm drained of all energy to be hyper like i used to be. Yesturday was the best because i totally bombed my wallet and bought stuff that made me feel so much better. That's so ironic? I painted my nails. Went for cathecism. Had dinner at mama&gonggong's place with the family. Sean went for camp. Watched diao man gong zhu. Today, bored, tired and feeling so messed up. I need to stop tying myself down and go out and relax with them lovelies and forget the need-to-be-forgotten's. Sarahg, your such a bitch.
Love plays with my heart,
then tears my apart.
Hate smiles at me,
making me think now that we can never be.
Strong is not me,
i'm not what you see.
My heart is made of cotton candy,
and pain is not friendly.
Trying to forget,
everything that happened.
Somehow my heart doesn't allow,
this love i have for you to fade.
In the noiseless dark,
my tears sparkles.
No one can tell or see,
your everything that i need.
The sun does not shine as bright,
as when you were in my life.
You were the light,
that gave me everything i needed to live.
This time it's my fault,
i got myself into this mess.
Loving you is all i could do,
besides drowning in the endless pain.
Tears roll down,
as pain grows stronger with love.
This love is somehow different,
as i now taste the true bitterness of love.
Don't know how to love another,
and promise to be forever.
All my energy i used to love you,
now i'm darined and don't know what to do.
Promise me you won't forget me,
but the pain i left you with.
I won't promise i'll let go,
even when you do.
For you see,
i am out of words as my energy is drained.
This i promise won't be the last of it,
because not even this amount of words could say it all.
Tried loving another,
the way i love you.
But some things,
just can't be the same.
My heart weighs me down,
as i try to catch my breath.
I need some time by myself,
to be carefree and not what i am now.
I'm messed up,
all lost and confused.
I need to find a way out,
but the i'm cornered every side.
Tears add on to the morning dew,
and pain adds on to the broken heart.
This love i feel for you,
my wrong move left me in such a state.
yeah, i'm good and broken.
I'm a messed up kid...
and i did this to myself.
till the next due post,
ciao.
Conclusion: my life sucks terribly.
Hey you,
I'm drained of all energy to be hyper like i used to be. Yesturday was the best because i totally bombed my wallet and bought stuff that made me feel so much better. That's so ironic? I painted my nails. Went for cathecism. Had dinner at mama&gonggong's place with the family. Sean went for camp. Watched diao man gong zhu. Today, bored, tired and feeling so messed up. I need to stop tying myself down and go out and relax with them lovelies and forget the need-to-be-forgotten's. Sarahg, your such a bitch.
Love plays with my heart,
then tears my apart.
Hate smiles at me,
making me think now that we can never be.
Strong is not me,
i'm not what you see.
My heart is made of cotton candy,
and pain is not friendly.
Trying to forget,
everything that happened.
Somehow my heart doesn't allow,
this love i have for you to fade.
In the noiseless dark,
my tears sparkles.
No one can tell or see,
your everything that i need.
The sun does not shine as bright,
as when you were in my life.
You were the light,
that gave me everything i needed to live.
This time it's my fault,
i got myself into this mess.
Loving you is all i could do,
besides drowning in the endless pain.
Tears roll down,
as pain grows stronger with love.
This love is somehow different,
as i now taste the true bitterness of love.
Don't know how to love another,
and promise to be forever.
All my energy i used to love you,
now i'm darined and don't know what to do.
Promise me you won't forget me,
but the pain i left you with.
I won't promise i'll let go,
even when you do.
For you see,
i am out of words as my energy is drained.
This i promise won't be the last of it,
because not even this amount of words could say it all.
Tried loving another,
the way i love you.
But some things,
just can't be the same.
My heart weighs me down,
as i try to catch my breath.
I need some time by myself,
to be carefree and not what i am now.
I'm messed up,
all lost and confused.
I need to find a way out,
but the i'm cornered every side.
Tears add on to the morning dew,
and pain adds on to the broken heart.
This love i feel for you,
my wrong move left me in such a state.
yeah, i'm good and broken.
I'm a messed up kid...
and i did this to myself.
till the next due post,
ciao.
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Friday, March 07, 2008
♥ it's a crazy life
Greetings dearest reader/s,
i am finally free to blog.
i'm sitting here wondering if maybe what i did really affected even our friendship this much. You don't blog and maybe it's because you went for camp or something. I still don't know why feelings won't fade away completely so easily like the rest. I didn't want things to end the way it did, i just hope one day we can see each other and maybe even get together. If not, i hope someone better than me would love you and treasure you the way i didn't.
Yes, my life is so crazy and i'm so tired but still living amazingly. March holidays are here and it's time to go out! Read Romeo and Juliet for r.p and watched Anna and the King for math. Music is still as boring as ever while PE was just stupid Dodge ball. For chinese, we watched some weird cartoon and then now, it's IT. That's for today i suppose; going out in 20 more mins time. What's happening for your March holidays? I only know i want to study, play and sleep more. Results suck a lot, scored a* for english, 3b's and 1 stupid idiotic c. Average sucked too but behaviour was satisfying. All A's. I need to SLEEP! But there's math tution later and i'll crash after that i think. I just want to sleep ASAP. Oh, yesturday was CCA day and it was BORING. Wednesday was boring too. BORING, BORED, BORE. Someone save me from boredom already! Anyway, there's nothing much to update on already so,
Ciao you faithful reader~
i am finally free to blog.
i'm sitting here wondering if maybe what i did really affected even our friendship this much. You don't blog and maybe it's because you went for camp or something. I still don't know why feelings won't fade away completely so easily like the rest. I didn't want things to end the way it did, i just hope one day we can see each other and maybe even get together. If not, i hope someone better than me would love you and treasure you the way i didn't.
Yes, my life is so crazy and i'm so tired but still living amazingly. March holidays are here and it's time to go out! Read Romeo and Juliet for r.p and watched Anna and the King for math. Music is still as boring as ever while PE was just stupid Dodge ball. For chinese, we watched some weird cartoon and then now, it's IT. That's for today i suppose; going out in 20 more mins time. What's happening for your March holidays? I only know i want to study, play and sleep more. Results suck a lot, scored a* for english, 3b's and 1 stupid idiotic c. Average sucked too but behaviour was satisfying. All A's. I need to SLEEP! But there's math tution later and i'll crash after that i think. I just want to sleep ASAP. Oh, yesturday was CCA day and it was BORING. Wednesday was boring too. BORING, BORED, BORE. Someone save me from boredom already! Anyway, there's nothing much to update on already so,
Ciao you faithful reader~
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Tuesday, March 04, 2008
♥ Drained&HalfDead
KARMA.YIN&YANG.DESTINED TO BE.
I AM DYING FULLSTOP I NEED ENERGY FULLSTOP
So, nothing much happened today. i'm just so drained of my energy that i can't post like how i used to.
haha.
today's unique.
Spent one hour at poolside, did hw in bus 67.
Gosh am i dying. i want a hug! haha. okok. that's all for now.
ciao~
I AM DYING FULLSTOP I NEED ENERGY FULLSTOP
So, nothing much happened today. i'm just so drained of my energy that i can't post like how i used to.
haha.
today's unique.
Spent one hour at poolside, did hw in bus 67.
Gosh am i dying. i want a hug! haha. okok. that's all for now.
ciao~
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Monday, March 03, 2008
♥ Hey Now
Let's take a break from our crazy lives and get together to make our runaway from this place.
Wish all that didn't happen, i'm moving on but not letting go. Like you said, if our love is strong we'll be back together soon enough. Your were once my oxygen i needed every minute but now, i learnt to meet new people so you wouldn't need to bear the pain i left you with.You never really loved me anyway, but i know i meant it when i said i loved you. I loved you too much and i never expected myself to mess up but, it's just not time. <3
Hey you people who still check up on me!
Today is back to school, 9th week of Term 1 and a horrible day. Started off with forgetting my jacket and freezing during certain classes and even had to borrow LF's jacket. Had English and i have homework due tomorrow so i'll have to get started soon. Got a stupid skit to present tomorrow! GOSH! OH! I just love slow dancing and pretending i have a partner...=X Want to sleep because i feel quite sleepy but have loads to do first. Need to go to the bed and drift away so i can forget this world and reality doesn't exist where i go. Yes, i'm a dreamer and i don't care what you think about that. You should know i don't really care what you think of how i think~
Life seems so different,
when i left you.
It feels so wrong,
but i know life still goes on.
Now and forever,
i love you.
I won't say always,
because forever is longer.
Love exists for us,
not me and you.
I don't know what to do,
but hope this time it's true.
With love as always,
Sarah~
Wish all that didn't happen, i'm moving on but not letting go. Like you said, if our love is strong we'll be back together soon enough. Your were once my oxygen i needed every minute but now, i learnt to meet new people so you wouldn't need to bear the pain i left you with.You never really loved me anyway, but i know i meant it when i said i loved you. I loved you too much and i never expected myself to mess up but, it's just not time. <3
Hey you people who still check up on me!
Today is back to school, 9th week of Term 1 and a horrible day. Started off with forgetting my jacket and freezing during certain classes and even had to borrow LF's jacket. Had English and i have homework due tomorrow so i'll have to get started soon. Got a stupid skit to present tomorrow! GOSH! OH! I just love slow dancing and pretending i have a partner...=X Want to sleep because i feel quite sleepy but have loads to do first. Need to go to the bed and drift away so i can forget this world and reality doesn't exist where i go. Yes, i'm a dreamer and i don't care what you think about that. You should know i don't really care what you think of how i think~
Life seems so different,
when i left you.
It feels so wrong,
but i know life still goes on.
Now and forever,
i love you.
I won't say always,
because forever is longer.
Love exists for us,
not me and you.
I don't know what to do,
but hope this time it's true.
With love as always,
Sarah~
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Sunday, March 02, 2008
♥ Another Day to be remembered
this time it's different, things are already starting all so differently.
HEY sxc's!
I have a secret only the other person involved knows of and Natalia knows and SR too. OH DEAR. Today could be counted eventful and this is my fourth post for the day. Had a heart to heart talk and now i feel i've matured by 1% . haha. JusJKS! Anyway, i think i won't come online so often now as i need to forget the past and concentrate on other stuff and but not forget the minors still. Wrote my 200th poem excluding poems on this blog and listened to really old songs that i used to listen to everyday then. Okay...i'm bored and forgot all i wanted to blog about so, ciao for now~
HEY sxc's!
I have a secret only the other person involved knows of and Natalia knows and SR too. OH DEAR. Today could be counted eventful and this is my fourth post for the day. Had a heart to heart talk and now i feel i've matured by 1% . haha. JusJKS! Anyway, i think i won't come online so often now as i need to forget the past and concentrate on other stuff and but not forget the minors still. Wrote my 200th poem excluding poems on this blog and listened to really old songs that i used to listen to everyday then. Okay...i'm bored and forgot all i wanted to blog about so, ciao for now~
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♥ R.O.E ; crocsVSprettyfit
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♥ ECP
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♥ Life With Him
hold on and don't ever let me go; ily
HEY~
So, i went to ECP for Adventure Fest on Thursday then went to Wisma/Taka to shop for a dress and a pair of shoes plus nail polish for Saturday then went home all drained. Friday was just archery and walking and eating and taking neos and went home then had to go for tution. Saturday, woke up late after LNC then started to pack a little then prepared for Right of Enrolment where i totally overdressed but Aunt Mel was impressed with my dressing......OHOHOH! People didn't know THEY were my godparents and were fussing? pr whatever they were doing were so stupidly funny. Anyway, went to Conrad for dinner then went home with blisters from wearing heels. haha. Today, is a sort of rest day for me! Okay, i'll post pictures next~
Will post archery pics first then next post will be ecp followed by ROE.
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