Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Life is too tiring,
i just want to give up and die right here.
Stop comparing me;
just abandon me i rather die than live.
I hate you, leave me alone. I can't be the perfect daughter you want, i can't stop being me. So why don't you just give me away or leave me to die. I appreciate everything you do except when you wish i was someone else or try to change who i am and what i was meant to do. I am sure you wouldn't want me to change you or wish you were someone else you could never be. You make me shed tears of hate, increasing each day. Tiring to keep up the smile, agreeing with no choice, pretending to be happy. You think i have it all and that's where everyone's wrong. I'm always mistaken, never relieved of this pain. It keeps coming back to me and i'm helpless. Questions so absurd, answers unknown. I've been keeping this up for years and nobody sees i'm breaking down, i don't want to live anymore. Lord save this servant of yours, unworthy but she's begging you on her knees now. I just want to be happy, but that's just too much to ask for. It's tiring to hate, but it's not easy getting rid of the hatred that builds up slowly. Hurt by this world, yet i seem so happy. It's all just too true to believe-superficial life, happiness, everything. I try, believe me i do and i'm so sorry that i am useless, i can't even stand up- not anymore.
I HATE YOU! GO AWAY!
You scold others when they don't think it the way you do and here you are saying things which are untrue, tell me if i should just shut up but you make no sense. Your so unreasonable, you don't even see your destroying my life and your enjoying it. The tears don't want to stop falling, the pain just keeps adding... just kill me already, help me end this suffering.
i just want to give up and die right here.
Stop comparing me;
just abandon me i rather die than live.
I hate you, leave me alone. I can't be the perfect daughter you want, i can't stop being me. So why don't you just give me away or leave me to die. I appreciate everything you do except when you wish i was someone else or try to change who i am and what i was meant to do. I am sure you wouldn't want me to change you or wish you were someone else you could never be. You make me shed tears of hate, increasing each day. Tiring to keep up the smile, agreeing with no choice, pretending to be happy. You think i have it all and that's where everyone's wrong. I'm always mistaken, never relieved of this pain. It keeps coming back to me and i'm helpless. Questions so absurd, answers unknown. I've been keeping this up for years and nobody sees i'm breaking down, i don't want to live anymore. Lord save this servant of yours, unworthy but she's begging you on her knees now. I just want to be happy, but that's just too much to ask for. It's tiring to hate, but it's not easy getting rid of the hatred that builds up slowly. Hurt by this world, yet i seem so happy. It's all just too true to believe-superficial life, happiness, everything. I try, believe me i do and i'm so sorry that i am useless, i can't even stand up- not anymore.
I HATE YOU! GO AWAY!
You scold others when they don't think it the way you do and here you are saying things which are untrue, tell me if i should just shut up but you make no sense. Your so unreasonable, you don't even see your destroying my life and your enjoying it. The tears don't want to stop falling, the pain just keeps adding... just kill me already, help me end this suffering.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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