Saturday, September 29, 2007
Updating myself with the past;
recalling the past.
all so painful yet beautiful.
Why do i feel like suddenly i am now really all alone? In my own little world, sometimes bright, sunny and warm and welcoming and yet, at other times so dark, cold and makes one never want to go back there. I feel like we've all drifted from the closest and best of friends and unexpectedly brought the not so close ones together. It's amazing how these happens within a blink of an eye and leaves you there to figure out everything. I figured i had a really great time with F and E.
I shall leave out the details in case i complicate this already complicated situation or whatever you shall please call it.
I feel like maybe i have some whacked split personality. I write stuff i don't even know i could. How, strange? I don't know, all i know is that i'm going to leave this world behind and move on. I must get in!
I MUST! Disppointment applenty and happiness unsufficient for this 13 year old who misses her past few years of living. She just wants it to be the same, where everything was about laughing, and no such words like kill, hit, divorce, hate and... no more sights of pain. I hate what's going on,
talking to Elizabeth helps a lot. I don't know, maybe somethings brought many of us closer and some, apart. We don't like whats happening to us but yet we're forced to accept it as they come along. Nobody likes everything nor nothing, nobody wants to be left alone but in some situations have to be alone.
We just want someone to help us and we are unable to understand that one day we'll be alright but not so soon. God's planned it all; for us to learn from what happens and finally smile when it's all over. Whatever it is, all this is probably part of his plans and hope it'll turn out right soon.
The though that this phase may be a test of our friendship, who'll stay and who'll be the one to leave. Who are the real gems and who are the fakes. it's all to help us and not to worsen our lifes. I don't know who'll stay or who'll go but i know i'll stay here despite the storms that may brew, i'll wait and see who'll go through it all with me; who my real friends are.
I believe they'll stay with me but i may be wrong. I doubt the friendship we share for we've been through quite a hard time, many times at it. Only God knows what's in store for us. I pray for the best and shall leave now.
recalling the past.
all so painful yet beautiful.
Why do i feel like suddenly i am now really all alone? In my own little world, sometimes bright, sunny and warm and welcoming and yet, at other times so dark, cold and makes one never want to go back there. I feel like we've all drifted from the closest and best of friends and unexpectedly brought the not so close ones together. It's amazing how these happens within a blink of an eye and leaves you there to figure out everything. I figured i had a really great time with F and E.
I shall leave out the details in case i complicate this already complicated situation or whatever you shall please call it.
I feel like maybe i have some whacked split personality. I write stuff i don't even know i could. How, strange? I don't know, all i know is that i'm going to leave this world behind and move on. I must get in!
I MUST! Disppointment applenty and happiness unsufficient for this 13 year old who misses her past few years of living. She just wants it to be the same, where everything was about laughing, and no such words like kill, hit, divorce, hate and... no more sights of pain. I hate what's going on,
talking to Elizabeth helps a lot. I don't know, maybe somethings brought many of us closer and some, apart. We don't like whats happening to us but yet we're forced to accept it as they come along. Nobody likes everything nor nothing, nobody wants to be left alone but in some situations have to be alone.
We just want someone to help us and we are unable to understand that one day we'll be alright but not so soon. God's planned it all; for us to learn from what happens and finally smile when it's all over. Whatever it is, all this is probably part of his plans and hope it'll turn out right soon.
The though that this phase may be a test of our friendship, who'll stay and who'll be the one to leave. Who are the real gems and who are the fakes. it's all to help us and not to worsen our lifes. I don't know who'll stay or who'll go but i know i'll stay here despite the storms that may brew, i'll wait and see who'll go through it all with me; who my real friends are.
I believe they'll stay with me but i may be wrong. I doubt the friendship we share for we've been through quite a hard time, many times at it. Only God knows what's in store for us. I pray for the best and shall leave now.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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