Sunday, September 30, 2007
Yesturday is History;
Tomorrow is the Future.
i hate life.
i hate insects.
i hate headaches.
i hate disappointment.
i hate frowns.
i hate many things....
Complain for all i care, scold me for all i care. I'm getting used to this horrible life i don't know how my friends would live through it if they were to be me just for 1 day. I'm in this horrible state, i hate it and i know i shouldn't be making my blog ugly because of HER. The one and only person who could make my life a living HELL. I start thinking of morbid thoughts and wondering when i'll die and wishing i could just meet death now. To me and MAYBE most of us, we think of hell as a place where it's unlivable, horrible, filled with flames of hate and sin. I especially despise people who tell me that its just a phase i'm going through well, IT'S NOT. It's unimaginable, it can only be felt. It's undescribable, unexplicable and not tangible for all to see, just maybe the really special ones are able to see it all and feel it too. There are the unique ones who are able to comfort me. Well, i've lost the mood to blog anymore. Till the next post. Chao dear readers.
Tomorrow is the Future.
i hate life.
i hate insects.
i hate headaches.
i hate disappointment.
i hate frowns.
i hate many things....
Complain for all i care, scold me for all i care. I'm getting used to this horrible life i don't know how my friends would live through it if they were to be me just for 1 day. I'm in this horrible state, i hate it and i know i shouldn't be making my blog ugly because of HER. The one and only person who could make my life a living HELL. I start thinking of morbid thoughts and wondering when i'll die and wishing i could just meet death now. To me and MAYBE most of us, we think of hell as a place where it's unlivable, horrible, filled with flames of hate and sin. I especially despise people who tell me that its just a phase i'm going through well, IT'S NOT. It's unimaginable, it can only be felt. It's undescribable, unexplicable and not tangible for all to see, just maybe the really special ones are able to see it all and feel it too. There are the unique ones who are able to comfort me. Well, i've lost the mood to blog anymore. Till the next post. Chao dear readers.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Saturday, September 29, 2007
Updating myself with the past;
recalling the past.
all so painful yet beautiful.
Why do i feel like suddenly i am now really all alone? In my own little world, sometimes bright, sunny and warm and welcoming and yet, at other times so dark, cold and makes one never want to go back there. I feel like we've all drifted from the closest and best of friends and unexpectedly brought the not so close ones together. It's amazing how these happens within a blink of an eye and leaves you there to figure out everything. I figured i had a really great time with F and E.
I shall leave out the details in case i complicate this already complicated situation or whatever you shall please call it.
I feel like maybe i have some whacked split personality. I write stuff i don't even know i could. How, strange? I don't know, all i know is that i'm going to leave this world behind and move on. I must get in!
I MUST! Disppointment applenty and happiness unsufficient for this 13 year old who misses her past few years of living. She just wants it to be the same, where everything was about laughing, and no such words like kill, hit, divorce, hate and... no more sights of pain. I hate what's going on,
talking to Elizabeth helps a lot. I don't know, maybe somethings brought many of us closer and some, apart. We don't like whats happening to us but yet we're forced to accept it as they come along. Nobody likes everything nor nothing, nobody wants to be left alone but in some situations have to be alone.
We just want someone to help us and we are unable to understand that one day we'll be alright but not so soon. God's planned it all; for us to learn from what happens and finally smile when it's all over. Whatever it is, all this is probably part of his plans and hope it'll turn out right soon.
The though that this phase may be a test of our friendship, who'll stay and who'll be the one to leave. Who are the real gems and who are the fakes. it's all to help us and not to worsen our lifes. I don't know who'll stay or who'll go but i know i'll stay here despite the storms that may brew, i'll wait and see who'll go through it all with me; who my real friends are.
I believe they'll stay with me but i may be wrong. I doubt the friendship we share for we've been through quite a hard time, many times at it. Only God knows what's in store for us. I pray for the best and shall leave now.
recalling the past.
all so painful yet beautiful.
Why do i feel like suddenly i am now really all alone? In my own little world, sometimes bright, sunny and warm and welcoming and yet, at other times so dark, cold and makes one never want to go back there. I feel like we've all drifted from the closest and best of friends and unexpectedly brought the not so close ones together. It's amazing how these happens within a blink of an eye and leaves you there to figure out everything. I figured i had a really great time with F and E.
I shall leave out the details in case i complicate this already complicated situation or whatever you shall please call it.
I feel like maybe i have some whacked split personality. I write stuff i don't even know i could. How, strange? I don't know, all i know is that i'm going to leave this world behind and move on. I must get in!
I MUST! Disppointment applenty and happiness unsufficient for this 13 year old who misses her past few years of living. She just wants it to be the same, where everything was about laughing, and no such words like kill, hit, divorce, hate and... no more sights of pain. I hate what's going on,
talking to Elizabeth helps a lot. I don't know, maybe somethings brought many of us closer and some, apart. We don't like whats happening to us but yet we're forced to accept it as they come along. Nobody likes everything nor nothing, nobody wants to be left alone but in some situations have to be alone.
We just want someone to help us and we are unable to understand that one day we'll be alright but not so soon. God's planned it all; for us to learn from what happens and finally smile when it's all over. Whatever it is, all this is probably part of his plans and hope it'll turn out right soon.
The though that this phase may be a test of our friendship, who'll stay and who'll be the one to leave. Who are the real gems and who are the fakes. it's all to help us and not to worsen our lifes. I don't know who'll stay or who'll go but i know i'll stay here despite the storms that may brew, i'll wait and see who'll go through it all with me; who my real friends are.
I believe they'll stay with me but i may be wrong. I doubt the friendship we share for we've been through quite a hard time, many times at it. Only God knows what's in store for us. I pray for the best and shall leave now.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Sunday, September 23, 2007
Where do i go from here?
Who do i trust when there is no one to trust?
Do i put my heart in the hands of love?
Do i still continue with this deadly, torturous silence?
What do i do, i'm breaking down .
No one can understand.
I'm alone from here.
They say the same thing.
Their answers ring in my head.
But is not enough to change anything.
Maybe if he just said something to crush my everything,
would i then finally give up and be free.
Dear beloved faithful people reading this,
i'm sorry if i make you very depressed or anything. I can't help it if the Lord has given me this life to lead and i, to have to follow my heart and take this path full of pain. I wish to take the easy way out, but i won't succeed if i always take the easy way out. I listen to the same sad songs, tunes and rythems all stuck in my head. I'm starting to hate the silence, it's tearing me apart and killing me. Soon my heart will really be in a broken wine glass holding in it, both my broken heart and the blood it shall bleed. No one cares, no one can ever understand. Just hate me for being such a pathetic fool, i cannot be bothered right now. Despise the fact i'm like that, DID YOU JUST REALISE? Praying for the torment to end, the silence to come to an end, the suffering to lessen and for me to lead a life without being misunderstood. Maybe i ask for too much...
the world's spinning and i can't get a hold of myself,
i try to remain calm but end up in a wreck.
Life's hard to live,
and damn it i'm not the only one,
that's what everyone thinks.
Just keep quiet,
you don't know what i'm going through or how i feel,
none of the words you speak are actually helping.
Who do i trust when there is no one to trust?
Do i put my heart in the hands of love?
Do i still continue with this deadly, torturous silence?
What do i do, i'm breaking down .
No one can understand.
I'm alone from here.
They say the same thing.
Their answers ring in my head.
But is not enough to change anything.
Maybe if he just said something to crush my everything,
would i then finally give up and be free.
Dear beloved faithful people reading this,
i'm sorry if i make you very depressed or anything. I can't help it if the Lord has given me this life to lead and i, to have to follow my heart and take this path full of pain. I wish to take the easy way out, but i won't succeed if i always take the easy way out. I listen to the same sad songs, tunes and rythems all stuck in my head. I'm starting to hate the silence, it's tearing me apart and killing me. Soon my heart will really be in a broken wine glass holding in it, both my broken heart and the blood it shall bleed. No one cares, no one can ever understand. Just hate me for being such a pathetic fool, i cannot be bothered right now. Despise the fact i'm like that, DID YOU JUST REALISE? Praying for the torment to end, the silence to come to an end, the suffering to lessen and for me to lead a life without being misunderstood. Maybe i ask for too much...
the world's spinning and i can't get a hold of myself,
i try to remain calm but end up in a wreck.
Life's hard to live,
and damn it i'm not the only one,
that's what everyone thinks.
Just keep quiet,
you don't know what i'm going through or how i feel,
none of the words you speak are actually helping.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Saturday, September 22, 2007
LOVE ME;
take my heart but please don't break it!
Nothing accomplished with Elizabeth today. Both of us were too tired and we only stoned, talk, bought trashy magazines and bought stuff from seven-eleven. Borrowed two books and 4 cd's, i simply love OLIVIA's songs! SIMPLY FANTASTIC! I loved cathecism! It was funny and fun-filled. I am feeling sleepy! I want to talk to someone before i make up another imaginary friend. I need to socialise with people now. Guess i could just write my stuff. Don't need to read if you don't want to.
everytime i see anything about you,
my heart beats faster than the usual.
i try to let go so many times,
i've tried and always have failed.
Want to end the pain of loving you,
wish you would recognise it my love for you.
you don't even know my story,
you don't even help me to end it.
say something before i fade away,
don't wish to end it here just because of you.
there's more i've yet to see,
want to be there to see you happy.
sad stories of quite many girls always end,
with the girl standing in the rain.
they think it's all over for them,
they've lost their love of their lifes.
my stories starts with love so strong for him,
and it has not faded since.
but the amount of blood bled,
fills the broken wine glass.
the once not broken wine glass,
i first held when i saw him.
okay, that's all i don't really feel up to it anymore. It's like taking away pieces of me while writing, i feel good yet empty. anyway, that's all. thank you for staying through the end of this post. chao dear friend~
take my heart but please don't break it!
Nothing accomplished with Elizabeth today. Both of us were too tired and we only stoned, talk, bought trashy magazines and bought stuff from seven-eleven. Borrowed two books and 4 cd's, i simply love OLIVIA's songs! SIMPLY FANTASTIC! I loved cathecism! It was funny and fun-filled. I am feeling sleepy! I want to talk to someone before i make up another imaginary friend. I need to socialise with people now. Guess i could just write my stuff. Don't need to read if you don't want to.
everytime i see anything about you,
my heart beats faster than the usual.
i try to let go so many times,
i've tried and always have failed.
Want to end the pain of loving you,
wish you would recognise it my love for you.
you don't even know my story,
you don't even help me to end it.
say something before i fade away,
don't wish to end it here just because of you.
there's more i've yet to see,
want to be there to see you happy.
sad stories of quite many girls always end,
with the girl standing in the rain.
they think it's all over for them,
they've lost their love of their lifes.
my stories starts with love so strong for him,
and it has not faded since.
but the amount of blood bled,
fills the broken wine glass.
the once not broken wine glass,
i first held when i saw him.
okay, that's all i don't really feel up to it anymore. It's like taking away pieces of me while writing, i feel good yet empty. anyway, that's all. thank you for staying through the end of this post. chao dear friend~
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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It's all so beautiful, pretty, lovely, dazzling, stunning & mesmerising.
The stars shine so bright;
i'm blinded but i never want to forget you.
HELLO dear people who actually read this dull and boring blog of mine. I'll do a recap from 20th of Septemeber onwards until yesturday!
okay...
20th of September: Went to school dental and got pissed off because of the long wait and the irritating seraphine. SO IRRITATING. Okay, went home, slacked. MAJOR SLACKING! It was horrible and so, i studied till 11 plus. The pain still has yet to leave me and my leg alone.
21stof September: Sleepy, didn't feel like waking up and going to school and yet again get unexplicable feelings which apparently are not tangible enough for the rest to see. Okay, LONG DAY at school. Came back from school at around 245+, ate, showered, did art prepretory work, drew my second combine art work. It's so nonsensical. Went back to school, did almost nothing in the classroom, showed kathleen a split, senior saw and asked if i am in ballet. said was in ballet. Mid Autumn was kind of boring but i really loved the atmosphere at the night when we were at the courtyard just going high, being scolded idiots and to shut up by the seniors, singing, shouting, forming a star with our legs, trying to take pictures with my handphone without flash, listening to music, picking up a call, feeling extra and looking at the sky and wondering if he's doing the same. Went home after the results feeling a little guilty, ate, showered once again, watched tv, talked on the phone and fell into a deep, luxourious sleep. woke up refreshedand here i am blogging, using the computer.
There's cathecism today. i hate it. i hate the world. i'm so dizzy and i could drop anytime. the pain still persists. nobody cares. i fall with weak knees, i stay strong and walk on.
that's all, just a lil poems thats all.
the whole world shares the same sky,
and so i lie down and look up and start to wonder.
if your looking at the sky,
and i can't help but think of you.
i can't think of anymore. maybe another time. for now, i gotta go to liz's house soon. Chao~
The stars shine so bright;
i'm blinded but i never want to forget you.
HELLO dear people who actually read this dull and boring blog of mine. I'll do a recap from 20th of Septemeber onwards until yesturday!
okay...
20th of September: Went to school dental and got pissed off because of the long wait and the irritating seraphine. SO IRRITATING. Okay, went home, slacked. MAJOR SLACKING! It was horrible and so, i studied till 11 plus. The pain still has yet to leave me and my leg alone.
21stof September: Sleepy, didn't feel like waking up and going to school and yet again get unexplicable feelings which apparently are not tangible enough for the rest to see. Okay, LONG DAY at school. Came back from school at around 245+, ate, showered, did art prepretory work, drew my second combine art work. It's so nonsensical. Went back to school, did almost nothing in the classroom, showed kathleen a split, senior saw and asked if i am in ballet. said was in ballet. Mid Autumn was kind of boring but i really loved the atmosphere at the night when we were at the courtyard just going high, being scolded idiots and to shut up by the seniors, singing, shouting, forming a star with our legs, trying to take pictures with my handphone without flash, listening to music, picking up a call, feeling extra and looking at the sky and wondering if he's doing the same. Went home after the results feeling a little guilty, ate, showered once again, watched tv, talked on the phone and fell into a deep, luxourious sleep. woke up refreshedand here i am blogging, using the computer.
There's cathecism today. i hate it. i hate the world. i'm so dizzy and i could drop anytime. the pain still persists. nobody cares. i fall with weak knees, i stay strong and walk on.
that's all, just a lil poems thats all.
the whole world shares the same sky,
and so i lie down and look up and start to wonder.
if your looking at the sky,
and i can't help but think of you.
i can't think of anymore. maybe another time. for now, i gotta go to liz's house soon. Chao~
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Monday, September 17, 2007
MAD RUSH.
Why in the world would i want a boyfriend;
i'm literally dying just by loving someone.
It's defintely a crazy life but i'm not having fun! It's crazy. i'm rushing like mad and i still have many things to do and it's like, 8:30! i am going crazy. no time for poems today. school, nothing much. It's crazy. this will be short. not sweet. but you'll be able to tell i'm in a hurry. just needed to blog something. it's my THING. okay. erm. erm. weird crazy things are happening and i need to go. Chao my faithful readers; if there are any.
Why in the world would i want a boyfriend;
i'm literally dying just by loving someone.
It's defintely a crazy life but i'm not having fun! It's crazy. i'm rushing like mad and i still have many things to do and it's like, 8:30! i am going crazy. no time for poems today. school, nothing much. It's crazy. this will be short. not sweet. but you'll be able to tell i'm in a hurry. just needed to blog something. it's my THING. okay. erm. erm. weird crazy things are happening and i need to go. Chao my faithful readers; if there are any.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Sunday, September 16, 2007
CONFUSED.
Speed away on a fast boat or drive with the crowd on the expressway;
& i am stuck in between, pulled in all directions.
i want to know other strangers like you.
I feel so small and the world is bigger than it used to be or maybe it's always been this way. I went out to Millenia Walk, bought donuts, Shopped like never before at Candy Empire and went to Sembawang to get two cd's and get utter disappointment. I feel thrashed and crushed. I don't feel liek doing anything but just lay here and wait when i finally feel alive to go crazy. I'm feeling lost once again. I'm told i'm a dreamy kind of girl by my bestfriend no.5 is he right? or is it just one person's point of view about me? I shall leave that unanswered, anonymous& unknown. I can't be bothered.
Poem 1:
i like everything about you,
everything you do.
want to know if there are more like you,
i want to meet other strangers like you.
Poem 2:
the short lived happiness,
i try to live it up.
happy with wide smiles spread across my pale face,
i never want this moment to end.
Poem 3:
i never want to forget,
everything we've been through.
those moments so sweet,
every second remains fresh in my memory.
( to my beloved friends, Cheryl, Elizabeth, Zoey, Abigail, Teresa, Francesca & more that we've really had those up's and down's together!)
Poem 4:
I try to let go,
but my heart won't move on.
the same answer,
i always tell them.
it's true i promise,
don't doubt me.
i never chose to end up,
this crazy over him.
Poem 5:
Staring out into the sky,
i start to get thoughts so sweet.
just to wake up,
to realise it's just my fantasy.
Poem 6:
Though we've known each other for one day,
i'm starting to think your the one.
who could say those words so harsh,
and yet my heart wouldn't break.
Poem 7:
I think of you,
even when i don't want to.
Wish you would say something,
about the words i say about my everything.
Don't think you know,
that your my all.
I used to be able to resist every tear,
but this time it flows continuosly and i can't stop it.
Poem 8:
The words i want to hear,
you don't speak.
i never expected you to do anything,
just want to know what your thinking.
I'd love it if we could at least communicate,
but we don't even say hi.
Poem 9:
The romantic atmosphere,
attracts envious hearts.
A fairytale actually going on.
and i thought it was impossible.
perfect wouldn't be the right word,
but magic would fit perfectly.
Love stories like these,
rare would be the absolute defination.
I am very zonk, guess this will be all. CHAO~
Hope you enjoyed reading this post.
With Love,
Sarah
Speed away on a fast boat or drive with the crowd on the expressway;
& i am stuck in between, pulled in all directions.
i want to know other strangers like you.
I feel so small and the world is bigger than it used to be or maybe it's always been this way. I went out to Millenia Walk, bought donuts, Shopped like never before at Candy Empire and went to Sembawang to get two cd's and get utter disappointment. I feel thrashed and crushed. I don't feel liek doing anything but just lay here and wait when i finally feel alive to go crazy. I'm feeling lost once again. I'm told i'm a dreamy kind of girl by my bestfriend no.5 is he right? or is it just one person's point of view about me? I shall leave that unanswered, anonymous& unknown. I can't be bothered.
Poem 1:
i like everything about you,
everything you do.
want to know if there are more like you,
i want to meet other strangers like you.
Poem 2:
the short lived happiness,
i try to live it up.
happy with wide smiles spread across my pale face,
i never want this moment to end.
Poem 3:
i never want to forget,
everything we've been through.
those moments so sweet,
every second remains fresh in my memory.
( to my beloved friends, Cheryl, Elizabeth, Zoey, Abigail, Teresa, Francesca & more that we've really had those up's and down's together!)
Poem 4:
I try to let go,
but my heart won't move on.
the same answer,
i always tell them.
it's true i promise,
don't doubt me.
i never chose to end up,
this crazy over him.
Poem 5:
Staring out into the sky,
i start to get thoughts so sweet.
just to wake up,
to realise it's just my fantasy.
Poem 6:
Though we've known each other for one day,
i'm starting to think your the one.
who could say those words so harsh,
and yet my heart wouldn't break.
Poem 7:
I think of you,
even when i don't want to.
Wish you would say something,
about the words i say about my everything.
Don't think you know,
that your my all.
I used to be able to resist every tear,
but this time it flows continuosly and i can't stop it.
Poem 8:
The words i want to hear,
you don't speak.
i never expected you to do anything,
just want to know what your thinking.
I'd love it if we could at least communicate,
but we don't even say hi.
Poem 9:
The romantic atmosphere,
attracts envious hearts.
A fairytale actually going on.
and i thought it was impossible.
perfect wouldn't be the right word,
but magic would fit perfectly.
Love stories like these,
rare would be the absolute defination.
I am very zonk, guess this will be all. CHAO~
Hope you enjoyed reading this post.
With Love,
Sarah
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Saturday, September 15, 2007
I'm feeling Literature-ish now!
hey! Don't complain! You've got a choice to leave or stay and read~
Poem 1:
Everytime i finally am happy,
the Lord punishes me.
I'm not understanding why this happens,
i only see darkness in front of me.
I'm lost in my own world,
only to feel cold and hurt.
Left to break down at a corner,
i can't stand everything at this point of time.
Poem 2:
i pray to the Lord each night,
asking the same question each time.
the pain just adds on,
i still don't get an answer.
Poem 3:
I'm pulled in every direction,
unsure which one to go.
hating everything that's happening,
including the pain that just worsens each day.
Poem 4:
I'm lost and don't know why,
don't even know who to talk to.
life's a crazy thing,
and i'm all messed up.
okay. feeling bored and no mood to write more. so, chao~
hey! Don't complain! You've got a choice to leave or stay and read~
Poem 1:
Everytime i finally am happy,
the Lord punishes me.
I'm not understanding why this happens,
i only see darkness in front of me.
I'm lost in my own world,
only to feel cold and hurt.
Left to break down at a corner,
i can't stand everything at this point of time.
Poem 2:
i pray to the Lord each night,
asking the same question each time.
the pain just adds on,
i still don't get an answer.
Poem 3:
I'm pulled in every direction,
unsure which one to go.
hating everything that's happening,
including the pain that just worsens each day.
Poem 4:
I'm lost and don't know why,
don't even know who to talk to.
life's a crazy thing,
and i'm all messed up.
okay. feeling bored and no mood to write more. so, chao~
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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The Romantic Ambience;
so very sweet.
altogether makes everything breath taking.
Went to my beautiful GuGu's wedding dinner yeturday, she is now married to the handsome leon. haha. But yesturday was really wonderful! Both of them together makes the whole ceremony yesturday, so very romantic and sweet. Then gugu sang a chinese song xiao shou qian da shou, something like that and gosh, they "popped" the champagne real fast. Gosh. I sat next to the all so cute mandy but she was super shy and didn't let me or Alyssa take a picture with her. It was a rather interesting and different wedding dinner then the other wedding dinners i've been to. They had power point slides of the ceremony earlier in the day where uncle leon got bullied and then, they also had pictures of them before the wedding when they tried out their outfits and their photoshoot which i guess every couple getting married would go through. Then, there was a small video on how they met. Everyhting was simply marvellous! The atmosphere was filled with their love for each other. It was so romantic! And during the ceremony, buofu disturbed me and asked if i had a rough idea for my wedding.
Then there was a steamed prawn dish which i had a debate with korkor yi xuan why not to eat the prawns. I was telling him that it was a harmless and cute creature and he just laughed. Then he kept telling me just to eat at least one and as he was peeling the shell off, i was looking at it with disgust and he said why won't you eat it and i asked if he could not see the small beady black eyes of the prawn that was just killed for us to eat and it's so cruel. He said it's dead. I still refused to eat it. He then asked, don't you eat chicken? I said yes i do. Then he said then why can't you eat prawns if you can eat chicken. Okay. I'm tired of typing. In the end, i ate A prawn, i was forced to. Okay, there's the horrible cathecism today and i have to take a bus. They went out. GOsh. okay.
chao for now my dear readers.
so very sweet.
altogether makes everything breath taking.
Went to my beautiful GuGu's wedding dinner yeturday, she is now married to the handsome leon. haha. But yesturday was really wonderful! Both of them together makes the whole ceremony yesturday, so very romantic and sweet. Then gugu sang a chinese song xiao shou qian da shou, something like that and gosh, they "popped" the champagne real fast. Gosh. I sat next to the all so cute mandy but she was super shy and didn't let me or Alyssa take a picture with her. It was a rather interesting and different wedding dinner then the other wedding dinners i've been to. They had power point slides of the ceremony earlier in the day where uncle leon got bullied and then, they also had pictures of them before the wedding when they tried out their outfits and their photoshoot which i guess every couple getting married would go through. Then, there was a small video on how they met. Everyhting was simply marvellous! The atmosphere was filled with their love for each other. It was so romantic! And during the ceremony, buofu disturbed me and asked if i had a rough idea for my wedding.
Then there was a steamed prawn dish which i had a debate with korkor yi xuan why not to eat the prawns. I was telling him that it was a harmless and cute creature and he just laughed. Then he kept telling me just to eat at least one and as he was peeling the shell off, i was looking at it with disgust and he said why won't you eat it and i asked if he could not see the small beady black eyes of the prawn that was just killed for us to eat and it's so cruel. He said it's dead. I still refused to eat it. He then asked, don't you eat chicken? I said yes i do. Then he said then why can't you eat prawns if you can eat chicken. Okay. I'm tired of typing. In the end, i ate A prawn, i was forced to. Okay, there's the horrible cathecism today and i have to take a bus. They went out. GOsh. okay.
chao for now my dear readers.
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Thursday, September 13, 2007
Does anybody have a heart,
made entirely of pieces of pain.
TIRED! ZONKED! SLEEPY! ARGH! it's a no homework day once again and now, i'm sick of life. I need my cure. THE cure. I am sick of this crazy life. The screams, shouts, anger and frustration. I hate all the negative vibes and words. It's driving me to a corner and making me want to just end it all. I need to get away from all of this and have to go to somewhere nearly called paradise. My day in school was bombarded with tests and crazy stuff. I'm cheorographing a dance for da jie. DONE ALREADY. Satisfied with it.. hope she'll like it! The counts are replaying over and over in my head. I'm helping Miss Abigail with the 'issue' because, i'm a good friend. ISSUE SOLVED, DONE AND OVER! okay. I'm tired. Trying to do literature and instead, ended up helping my dear friend. LIT TIME FOR ME! POEMS. DEEPO LINES! BEAR WITH ME FAITHFUL PEOPLE!~
Another alternative is, close the window....
Poem 1:
As each day passes,
the posibility of finding happiness in my life lessens.
i shout and ask the Lord why no one can see,
and i'm left to tell myself maybe it's just fated to be.
Poem 2:
the shouts and screams,
pierces my heart so weak.
the anger and frustration,
i fail to resist crying.
Poem 3:
The young life so sweet,
now's my worse nightmare.
Fearing it will repeat itself,
dreading that it'll really happen again.
Poem 4:
Feeling so pathetic,
i try to think.
My mind's blank,
i hate what's happening to me.
Poem 5:
I try to smile,
but break out in tears instead.
Hating the shouting and anger,
i break down and my whole body shivers in fear.
Poem 6:
I smile for you,
but i shall never cry for you.
I'd do almost anything for you,
but i will never do everything for you.
i will help you on the way,
but not throughout.
ignoring the fact you'll hate me,
i just want to help you.
This is for my friends once again. it's not nice but, yeah. Love Ya'll.
Poem 7:
i don't want to be with you for life right now,
just want tobe the one to hear your every word.
never said we had to be together,
and i didn't say i don't want to be friends.
I love you but,
that doesn't mean i have to make you mine.
Just want you to be happy,
and tell me your every thought.
OKAY. That's all for now. i know it's not that nice. My poems were never nice. That's all for today. CHAO~
made entirely of pieces of pain.
TIRED! ZONKED! SLEEPY! ARGH! it's a no homework day once again and now, i'm sick of life. I need my cure. THE cure. I am sick of this crazy life. The screams, shouts, anger and frustration. I hate all the negative vibes and words. It's driving me to a corner and making me want to just end it all. I need to get away from all of this and have to go to somewhere nearly called paradise. My day in school was bombarded with tests and crazy stuff. I'm cheorographing a dance for da jie. DONE ALREADY. Satisfied with it.. hope she'll like it! The counts are replaying over and over in my head. I'm helping Miss Abigail with the 'issue' because, i'm a good friend. ISSUE SOLVED, DONE AND OVER! okay. I'm tired. Trying to do literature and instead, ended up helping my dear friend. LIT TIME FOR ME! POEMS. DEEPO LINES! BEAR WITH ME FAITHFUL PEOPLE!~
Another alternative is, close the window....
Poem 1:
As each day passes,
the posibility of finding happiness in my life lessens.
i shout and ask the Lord why no one can see,
and i'm left to tell myself maybe it's just fated to be.
Poem 2:
the shouts and screams,
pierces my heart so weak.
the anger and frustration,
i fail to resist crying.
Poem 3:
The young life so sweet,
now's my worse nightmare.
Fearing it will repeat itself,
dreading that it'll really happen again.
Poem 4:
Feeling so pathetic,
i try to think.
My mind's blank,
i hate what's happening to me.
Poem 5:
I try to smile,
but break out in tears instead.
Hating the shouting and anger,
i break down and my whole body shivers in fear.
Poem 6:
I smile for you,
but i shall never cry for you.
I'd do almost anything for you,
but i will never do everything for you.
i will help you on the way,
but not throughout.
ignoring the fact you'll hate me,
i just want to help you.
This is for my friends once again. it's not nice but, yeah. Love Ya'll.
Poem 7:
i don't want to be with you for life right now,
just want tobe the one to hear your every word.
never said we had to be together,
and i didn't say i don't want to be friends.
I love you but,
that doesn't mean i have to make you mine.
Just want you to be happy,
and tell me your every thought.
OKAY. That's all for now. i know it's not that nice. My poems were never nice. That's all for today. CHAO~
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Wednesday, September 12, 2007
I CAN'T STAND IT! I'M FEELING LIKE WRITING POEMS AND LINES THAT JUST FEEL DEEP! YOU DON'T HAVE TO READ! BUT I JUST WANT TO KEEP IT ALL HERE~
Poem 1:
my sky once so blue,
is now a coarse grey.
yearning to mean it when i smile,
and laugh with no pain to hide.
no need to feel the pain that just adds on,
the feeling so unexplicable.
wish one day i would meet,
the one who would really understand.
Poem 2:
my life always misunderstood,
only what seems like happy is seen.
i lie that its just not tangible,
but deep inside i'm dying from all these lies i tell myself.
Poem 3:
hate the way i live my life,
but helplessly i just go on this way.
feeling pathetic of the way i feel,
everything's just so wrong.
Poem 4:
wanting to scream and shout,
but fearing the echo.
the reminder of the presence of pain,
and the absence of happiness.
Poem 5:
this one is inspired by my nightmare!
the few laughters,
the wide smiles filled with short-lived happiness.
God must have misunderstood,
but i should be content.
great friends along with love,
i should not ask for more.
greed shall lead to worse,
and that i would not want.
(SORRY NIGHTMARE! It's a crappy poem post!)
Poem 6:
unsure how to express my grattitude,
hoping by not sharing my problems should suffice.
never wanting to forget,
every minute spent together.
the loud laughter,
the wide spastic smiles.
don't want it to be erased,
from my precious memory.
(For all my friends. i know its crappy. but, THANK YOU.
To be SPECIFIC: Elizabeth Lee, Cheryl, Francesca, Zoey, Teresa, Abigail, Best Friend/no.1/no.2/no.3! done with ya'll in mind.
SARAH LOVES YOU AND IS GRATEFUL!)
I'm sorry! Turned out to be so crappy. But, hey! I'm not perfect! NOBODY is! I love ya'll!
this time i really gotta go. and eat dinner.
CHAO~
Poem 1:
my sky once so blue,
is now a coarse grey.
yearning to mean it when i smile,
and laugh with no pain to hide.
no need to feel the pain that just adds on,
the feeling so unexplicable.
wish one day i would meet,
the one who would really understand.
Poem 2:
my life always misunderstood,
only what seems like happy is seen.
i lie that its just not tangible,
but deep inside i'm dying from all these lies i tell myself.
Poem 3:
hate the way i live my life,
but helplessly i just go on this way.
feeling pathetic of the way i feel,
everything's just so wrong.
Poem 4:
wanting to scream and shout,
but fearing the echo.
the reminder of the presence of pain,
and the absence of happiness.
Poem 5:
this one is inspired by my nightmare!
the few laughters,
the wide smiles filled with short-lived happiness.
God must have misunderstood,
but i should be content.
great friends along with love,
i should not ask for more.
greed shall lead to worse,
and that i would not want.
(SORRY NIGHTMARE! It's a crappy poem post!)
Poem 6:
unsure how to express my grattitude,
hoping by not sharing my problems should suffice.
never wanting to forget,
every minute spent together.
the loud laughter,
the wide spastic smiles.
don't want it to be erased,
from my precious memory.
(For all my friends. i know its crappy. but, THANK YOU.
To be SPECIFIC: Elizabeth Lee, Cheryl, Francesca, Zoey, Teresa, Abigail, Best Friend/no.1/no.2/no.3! done with ya'll in mind.
SARAH LOVES YOU AND IS GRATEFUL!)
I'm sorry! Turned out to be so crappy. But, hey! I'm not perfect! NOBODY is! I love ya'll!
this time i really gotta go. and eat dinner.
CHAO~
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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DON'T PLAY WITH MY HEART;
it's soft to the touch and made of glass.
IRRELEVANCE!
Dear faithful readers of my blog and passer by's,
i simply love literature group projects and poetry is still loved but a pageful seems more complete. i love LITERATURE AND DANCING! Take both away from me and you might as well take my life too! NO HOMEWORK TODAY! just drawing for D&T which is super EASY. LOVE LIFE RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT! No scoldings so far. I am currently under observation, to be specific, my knee. I am on MC until next week. I am HIGH. on SUGAR. Okay, i have yet to type out my beloved literature project which i wanted to do! I can't upload pictures! THE MEMORY CARD IS.... FAILING ME! Gasp with me! *GASPS* sorry. i'm high. need to get low. Okay. time for me to go. BYE.
wish you would say or do something,
i can't stand the silence.
my mind's filled with thoughts,
ones i never invited.
OKAY.
that was random. Well, that's all for today! CHAO~
it's soft to the touch and made of glass.
IRRELEVANCE!
Dear faithful readers of my blog and passer by's,
i simply love literature group projects and poetry is still loved but a pageful seems more complete. i love LITERATURE AND DANCING! Take both away from me and you might as well take my life too! NO HOMEWORK TODAY! just drawing for D&T which is super EASY. LOVE LIFE RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT! No scoldings so far. I am currently under observation, to be specific, my knee. I am on MC until next week. I am HIGH. on SUGAR. Okay, i have yet to type out my beloved literature project which i wanted to do! I can't upload pictures! THE MEMORY CARD IS.... FAILING ME! Gasp with me! *GASPS* sorry. i'm high. need to get low. Okay. time for me to go. BYE.
wish you would say or do something,
i can't stand the silence.
my mind's filled with thoughts,
ones i never invited.
OKAY.
that was random. Well, that's all for today! CHAO~
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Tuesday, September 11, 2007
FABULOUS;
everything must be fabulous,
that's just one simple request!
HI dear people who bother to read my blog which to me, is rotting and terribly dying and soon, fade away with the happiness i once felt, as a child. The pain at my knee is frustrating me and i am so annoyed with mozzies! I not only attract werid people, okay, UNIQUE people, i attract PESTS. Today was mugging and yet having fun kinda day. Went to Gelare with Liz, Cheryl and FRAN. MUGGED till about few minutes before four. Satisfied with the work done. I think. Anyway, i'm obssessed with HSM2 songs because of them. haha. I am so zonked! I wish to just lie down, take in the darkness before i drift off to a far away place. I wish to just fade away and yet still be able to guide those i shall forever remember, but that's just wishful thinking. I shall end here, post of pictures coming your way. SOON. Sorry, i am TIRED.
ripping is not scheduled for today.
XD
CHAO~
thank you for caring.
everything must be fabulous,
that's just one simple request!
HI dear people who bother to read my blog which to me, is rotting and terribly dying and soon, fade away with the happiness i once felt, as a child. The pain at my knee is frustrating me and i am so annoyed with mozzies! I not only attract werid people, okay, UNIQUE people, i attract PESTS. Today was mugging and yet having fun kinda day. Went to Gelare with Liz, Cheryl and FRAN. MUGGED till about few minutes before four. Satisfied with the work done. I think. Anyway, i'm obssessed with HSM2 songs because of them. haha. I am so zonked! I wish to just lie down, take in the darkness before i drift off to a far away place. I wish to just fade away and yet still be able to guide those i shall forever remember, but that's just wishful thinking. I shall end here, post of pictures coming your way. SOON. Sorry, i am TIRED.
ripping is not scheduled for today.
XD
CHAO~
thank you for caring.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Thursday, September 06, 2007
WORSE THAN EVER.
I am only like, 1/20 done with my homework. I seriously cannot be bothered for now. I never had so much excitement since like, i was really really young. can't remember but the feeling is GREAT. I am totally slacking in my work and i am clueless how to get my english homework. I shall try again later, after blogging this post. I want to watch ratatouille again! I LOVE IT! It's definitely worth watching and i am super annoyed with my MRI scan results. GUESS WHAT?! Nothing major wrong with my leg. Just probably some strain/overuse at my legiment or cultage. GOSH. I CAN GO BACK TO DANCING AND PE!!! BUT, I DON"T KNOW THE DANCE ROUTINES! HELP CHERYL AND TERESA! If there's pain, i'll be on my way, once again, to the doctor/specialist. Hell, it was like a living nightmare yesturday. wasting hundreds of dollars to find out there's nothing wrong with me. It's good and bad. oh well. I shall end here for i fear i'll bore you. Chao.
I am only like, 1/20 done with my homework. I seriously cannot be bothered for now. I never had so much excitement since like, i was really really young. can't remember but the feeling is GREAT. I am totally slacking in my work and i am clueless how to get my english homework. I shall try again later, after blogging this post. I want to watch ratatouille again! I LOVE IT! It's definitely worth watching and i am super annoyed with my MRI scan results. GUESS WHAT?! Nothing major wrong with my leg. Just probably some strain/overuse at my legiment or cultage. GOSH. I CAN GO BACK TO DANCING AND PE!!! BUT, I DON"T KNOW THE DANCE ROUTINES! HELP CHERYL AND TERESA! If there's pain, i'll be on my way, once again, to the doctor/specialist. Hell, it was like a living nightmare yesturday. wasting hundreds of dollars to find out there's nothing wrong with me. It's good and bad. oh well. I shall end here for i fear i'll bore you. Chao.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Monday, September 03, 2007
FASCINATE YOURSELF,
& to those involved,
enjoy.
I LOVE THE HOLIDAYS! It's all scheduled with activities! Well, the start. Okay! I'm getting a new phone!!! LOVE THE BLUE! I AM TOO EXCITED FOR WORDS. I've to settle down later on to start on loads! OKAY. so my new hairdo now disturbs me! OKAY> i'm feeling totally random! and, for now i wish to go. chao~
& to those involved,
enjoy.
I LOVE THE HOLIDAYS! It's all scheduled with activities! Well, the start. Okay! I'm getting a new phone!!! LOVE THE BLUE! I AM TOO EXCITED FOR WORDS. I've to settle down later on to start on loads! OKAY. so my new hairdo now disturbs me! OKAY> i'm feeling totally random! and, for now i wish to go. chao~
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Sunday, September 02, 2007
OH SO UNEXPRESSABLE!!!
not sure that's even a word but, deal with it!
Details...
Yestuday:
Went for dental appointment, chains! All joined together, the pain is driving me nuts alright! Then, went home to pick mum to go to the Adelphi to eat at TCC!!! The Potato wedges with melted cheese simply rocks! Went to buy magazines, haven't been buying them trashy mags for weeks/months. After that, went to The Trimmers! They simply did a fantastic job! Washed my hair, cut my hair till a little over my shoulder. Layered. LOVE IT! It's okay i guess. See for yourself. SOON. No pictures. Not today. I am UBER tired!!! After all that, went home. Slept, then went to mama's house to eat! I miss her cooking but ate really little!!! Couldn't bite. It hurts anyway. & now!...
TODAY!...
Went to cini and watched Ratatouille, i think that's how it's spelled. Anyway, i am pleased that i to say i watched Evan Almighty with my brother and his three guy friends that day. I remember the cute guys name! raymond. HeE. SORRY!!! Okay, today watched the all so cute show Ratatouille. LOVE it. Evan Almighty is a...kind of silly show but, i would never want to go out with my brother and his friends AGAIN. I THINK! I felt UBER EXTRA! Okay, i can't stop yawning now but i seriously have nothing to write out, nothing i can think of anyway. Shall stop here. TILL THEN!
IN LOVE WITH THE SONG "THE POTENTIAL BREAK UP SONG" by ALY&AJ.
okok.
CHAO~
not sure that's even a word but, deal with it!
Details...
Yestuday:
Went for dental appointment, chains! All joined together, the pain is driving me nuts alright! Then, went home to pick mum to go to the Adelphi to eat at TCC!!! The Potato wedges with melted cheese simply rocks! Went to buy magazines, haven't been buying them trashy mags for weeks/months. After that, went to The Trimmers! They simply did a fantastic job! Washed my hair, cut my hair till a little over my shoulder. Layered. LOVE IT! It's okay i guess. See for yourself. SOON. No pictures. Not today. I am UBER tired!!! After all that, went home. Slept, then went to mama's house to eat! I miss her cooking but ate really little!!! Couldn't bite. It hurts anyway. & now!...
TODAY!...
Went to cini and watched Ratatouille, i think that's how it's spelled. Anyway, i am pleased that i to say i watched Evan Almighty with my brother and his three guy friends that day. I remember the cute guys name! raymond. HeE. SORRY!!! Okay, today watched the all so cute show Ratatouille. LOVE it. Evan Almighty is a...kind of silly show but, i would never want to go out with my brother and his friends AGAIN. I THINK! I felt UBER EXTRA! Okay, i can't stop yawning now but i seriously have nothing to write out, nothing i can think of anyway. Shall stop here. TILL THEN!
IN LOVE WITH THE SONG "THE POTENTIAL BREAK UP SONG" by ALY&AJ.
okok.
CHAO~
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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