Friday, August 31, 2007
Tired of this life.
the pain that keeps adding on,
the plaintive screams and cries.
the thought that no one cares,
no one knows.
TIRING!!!! ARGH. baked with cheryl yesturday for like...a few hours? more than 2hrs definitely! So tired!!! Teacher's day celebration- relatively interesting but i was super tired. Results for Term 3- HORRIBLE!!! 17th in class. Miss Yap's comment: Sarah has a sweet disposition. hahah. YES. i am happy with that. but, unhappy with my grades. It's all SLIPPING! need to study HARDER. But, i'm mostly in the top 20's for most subjects so, it's only OKAY. but...BAD. My English grade...really DEPROVED! super tired. Got major thrashing from the woman just now. So pissed. ARGH. Went to the specialist. He did some funny movements to my leg and found out where the pain is. Going for MRI to check. NO BLOOD TEST! Dr Ho SCARED ME! she said i have to go for blood test! After the appt, went to cine to catch a movie with Sean and his 3 friends- Zi Hao, Alex&a cute guy) BLANK about his name! Zi Hao is the....shy dude, Alex is the person who dresses like an EMO but looks super friendly& the cute guy...ERR. is the cutest? OKAY. SORRY! I know...getting a little too much. Shall stop. Back home at 8:45. Eyes are almost closing. LOVE TMR! NO CATH! going for dental appointment and trimming my hair. Shall end here, will post tomorrow if i can, detailed of the happenings. till then, CHAO~
the pain that keeps adding on,
the plaintive screams and cries.
the thought that no one cares,
no one knows.
TIRING!!!! ARGH. baked with cheryl yesturday for like...a few hours? more than 2hrs definitely! So tired!!! Teacher's day celebration- relatively interesting but i was super tired. Results for Term 3- HORRIBLE!!! 17th in class. Miss Yap's comment: Sarah has a sweet disposition. hahah. YES. i am happy with that. but, unhappy with my grades. It's all SLIPPING! need to study HARDER. But, i'm mostly in the top 20's for most subjects so, it's only OKAY. but...BAD. My English grade...really DEPROVED! super tired. Got major thrashing from the woman just now. So pissed. ARGH. Went to the specialist. He did some funny movements to my leg and found out where the pain is. Going for MRI to check. NO BLOOD TEST! Dr Ho SCARED ME! she said i have to go for blood test! After the appt, went to cine to catch a movie with Sean and his 3 friends- Zi Hao, Alex&a cute guy) BLANK about his name! Zi Hao is the....shy dude, Alex is the person who dresses like an EMO but looks super friendly& the cute guy...ERR. is the cutest? OKAY. SORRY! I know...getting a little too much. Shall stop. Back home at 8:45. Eyes are almost closing. LOVE TMR! NO CATH! going for dental appointment and trimming my hair. Shall end here, will post tomorrow if i can, detailed of the happenings. till then, CHAO~
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Your problems,
suddenly became mine.
YES? Helped krizhen today~ WHEEE! Took a picture for our deary Mrs Loy. okay. that's so... YUCKS! never mind. okay, nothing much. I LOVE ENGLISH!!! Till death do us part~ hmmm. nothing much. history project- DONE. Chinese- half done. PICTURE for MRS LOY- DONE. tution homework- DONE. IPW sent to chanel- DONE. DONEDONEDONE. OKAY. i myself am DONE for. SO messed up. Leg hurts like, A LOT! Have to go for blood test for my annoying knee. So troublesome. OH! the doctor who helped my mum when she was in labour, wants to see us! XD I find it so cool! HAHA. they actually kept in touch~ GOING TO SEE DR NIEN! I think thats how you spell it. AND DR SINGH? NO IDEA! Okay, sorry. my bad. I'm hyper? SHH! I LOVE life! BUT, AM FEELING SO SICK OF IT. WAIT, I LOVE life only when i'm high! Don't misunderstand. Gotta end here, CHAO my dear friend.
suddenly became mine.
YES? Helped krizhen today~ WHEEE! Took a picture for our deary Mrs Loy. okay. that's so... YUCKS! never mind. okay, nothing much. I LOVE ENGLISH!!! Till death do us part~ hmmm. nothing much. history project- DONE. Chinese- half done. PICTURE for MRS LOY- DONE. tution homework- DONE. IPW sent to chanel- DONE. DONEDONEDONE. OKAY. i myself am DONE for. SO messed up. Leg hurts like, A LOT! Have to go for blood test for my annoying knee. So troublesome. OH! the doctor who helped my mum when she was in labour, wants to see us! XD I find it so cool! HAHA. they actually kept in touch~ GOING TO SEE DR NIEN! I think thats how you spell it. AND DR SINGH? NO IDEA! Okay, sorry. my bad. I'm hyper? SHH! I LOVE life! BUT, AM FEELING SO SICK OF IT. WAIT, I LOVE life only when i'm high! Don't misunderstand. Gotta end here, CHAO my dear friend.
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Sunday, August 26, 2007
Getting back the Lost but NOT forgotten.
i tried to save a lot of pictures that just VANISHED. It's UBER weird. Now, i'm saving them into a DVD CD so i have a backup copy of pictures i hope i will not loose.Okay, went to milenia walk's Candy Empire. It was so good. Bought LOTS of goodies. 2 baskets full of snacks, sweets and chocs and NOUGAT! hmmm. i bought lots of sweets!~ So happy? guess so. The sugar makes me high. Well, finished my IPW power point, half way through History project. Okay, nothing else. Chao~
i tried to save a lot of pictures that just VANISHED. It's UBER weird. Now, i'm saving them into a DVD CD so i have a backup copy of pictures i hope i will not loose.Okay, went to milenia walk's Candy Empire. It was so good. Bought LOTS of goodies. 2 baskets full of snacks, sweets and chocs and NOUGAT! hmmm. i bought lots of sweets!~ So happy? guess so. The sugar makes me high. Well, finished my IPW power point, half way through History project. Okay, nothing else. Chao~
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Saturday, August 25, 2007
the perfect ending,
is the sublime sunset; so serenely.
Yes. It is irrelevant but fits my feelings. certain part of my feelings of life now.
Things are so complicated and weird. I am always feeling the inexplicable feeling even when with a crowd. The pieces don't fit in and nothing is right. I can't seem to be cheery. Hate the fact i am so..depressed. I can't seem to say anything, least they speak unwanted words that they would want to stay unknown. I can't seem to feel a feeling. at least, i don't know what i am feeling or how i am feeling. I try to smile, but i can't. Life's weird and i don't want to live on anymore, and it's not just about my all so terrible behaviour academically wise. okay, i can't think anymore, my mind's a whole space of blank and the colour of my sky so grey. I guess i'll end here. bye.
is the sublime sunset; so serenely.
Yes. It is irrelevant but fits my feelings. certain part of my feelings of life now.
Things are so complicated and weird. I am always feeling the inexplicable feeling even when with a crowd. The pieces don't fit in and nothing is right. I can't seem to be cheery. Hate the fact i am so..depressed. I can't seem to say anything, least they speak unwanted words that they would want to stay unknown. I can't seem to feel a feeling. at least, i don't know what i am feeling or how i am feeling. I try to smile, but i can't. Life's weird and i don't want to live on anymore, and it's not just about my all so terrible behaviour academically wise. okay, i can't think anymore, my mind's a whole space of blank and the colour of my sky so grey. I guess i'll end here. bye.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Friday, August 24, 2007
the plaintive screams and cries no one hears,
or know about.
HELLO. i will try my utmost best to make this a cheery post, please accept my apologies as i do/did not have a good time today. things are horrible.
the unexplicable feeling. the misunderstood life and lots more. it's definitely more than meets the eye. it's one part of the life that's known. okay. nvm. i'm in a mess. all brokened up. shall stop. i must not go on, least some talk more abd stuff about me and say how whiny i am. bye.
or know about.
HELLO. i will try my utmost best to make this a cheery post, please accept my apologies as i do/did not have a good time today. things are horrible.
the unexplicable feeling. the misunderstood life and lots more. it's definitely more than meets the eye. it's one part of the life that's known. okay. nvm. i'm in a mess. all brokened up. shall stop. i must not go on, least some talk more abd stuff about me and say how whiny i am. bye.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Melancholy Idyll
irrelevance.
yes, i know. that is so irrelevant. But, i just love those two words. Got back Science today, terribly done. 12. outta. 20. Okay, i don't really have much to blog. to abigail&Liz, Enjoy ripping.
Some might think i'm crazy,
others might say i'm hopeless.
that's what they say,
and what they believe.
I don't believe i'm either,
and i do believe only what i say about myself really counts.
They've only seen part of the story,
and the other side is still untold.
Wondering if i should just spill even though no one wants to know,
or keep it all inside.
this life i admit is crazy,
and yet misunderstood.
irrelevance.
yes, i know. that is so irrelevant. But, i just love those two words. Got back Science today, terribly done. 12. outta. 20. Okay, i don't really have much to blog. to abigail&Liz, Enjoy ripping.
Some might think i'm crazy,
others might say i'm hopeless.
that's what they say,
and what they believe.
I don't believe i'm either,
and i do believe only what i say about myself really counts.
They've only seen part of the story,
and the other side is still untold.
Wondering if i should just spill even though no one wants to know,
or keep it all inside.
this life i admit is crazy,
and yet misunderstood.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Monday, August 20, 2007
The complex mind&the simple girl.
Okay.
i've decided not to post the all so crazy-licious pictures taken today(with Abi&liz). Okay. Today is rated a 2.5/5. Presentation for Lit. I love presentating our work in front of the whole class now. No idea why, it is just so fun. Okay. Science, Mrs BObo said she'll return our exam pieces only tomorrow as she needs to key in our marks and what so ever. okay. then it was recess, AGAIN. the whole feeling of noise around me and wanting to shut everyone out and just scream and cry, it came again. It was TERRIBLE. i don't know why but when i stop to think and noise is everywhere, that happens and it is very very scary. It was then time for MOTHER TONGUE! I was completely lost. No other comments. MATH! handed in art form thing then it was RE. Lost and the feeling was not the same as during recess and instead, i was the only one not fitting in with everyone else. Okay, forget that. It's totally bersark. After RE, maths CA2 papers were given out, I PASSED! badly. 23/40 I am...feeling down but a little content that i passed. Ms Yap gave me a lil' smile when i collected my exam piece. I am sad to say, i could have scored at least 4 more marks if i were more careful. Then, SCHOOL'S OVER! Went crazy with the camera, took quite a number of pictures. that's all. My dark grey sky's got me feeling horrible. Chao until the next post.
hoping, wishing, praying that everything will be better tomorrow.
Okay.
i've decided not to post the all so crazy-licious pictures taken today(with Abi&liz). Okay. Today is rated a 2.5/5. Presentation for Lit. I love presentating our work in front of the whole class now. No idea why, it is just so fun. Okay. Science, Mrs BObo said she'll return our exam pieces only tomorrow as she needs to key in our marks and what so ever. okay. then it was recess, AGAIN. the whole feeling of noise around me and wanting to shut everyone out and just scream and cry, it came again. It was TERRIBLE. i don't know why but when i stop to think and noise is everywhere, that happens and it is very very scary. It was then time for MOTHER TONGUE! I was completely lost. No other comments. MATH! handed in art form thing then it was RE. Lost and the feeling was not the same as during recess and instead, i was the only one not fitting in with everyone else. Okay, forget that. It's totally bersark. After RE, maths CA2 papers were given out, I PASSED! badly. 23/40 I am...feeling down but a little content that i passed. Ms Yap gave me a lil' smile when i collected my exam piece. I am sad to say, i could have scored at least 4 more marks if i were more careful. Then, SCHOOL'S OVER! Went crazy with the camera, took quite a number of pictures. that's all. My dark grey sky's got me feeling horrible. Chao until the next post.
hoping, wishing, praying that everything will be better tomorrow.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Sunday, August 19, 2007
yes. i was bored yesturday, mum&dad were still out at uncle michael's place. Lyssa refused to sleep and was playing with some noisy toy mum bought for her & i got random so i started taking pictures with her. and a random picture which is supposed to be half of a heart. I took some pictures of myself = BOREDD!!! But that, i shan't blog. XD
okay. nothing much for today. I ahve to do my chinese hw, which i can't seem to be able to do. i still have to do something about PW, which is horribly awful. Sorry leader of my group, but your not cut out to be a leader. WE're in a big mess mostly because of you. I just wished i wasn't absent of that monday. Then, things wouldn't be so messed up, which adds on to my burden. I am so...stressed. Gosh. haha. my leg hurts!!! ARGH. the pain just won't go away. I keep refusing to be brought to the doctor who specialises in bones and all. Okay. Forgot what they're called. But..till the next time i blog again, Bye.
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Saturday, August 18, 2007
THE PAIN.THE LIFE.THE MISERY.
the heart that keeps hearing the same sad song.
HELLO. yes. my title seems, not the happy, cheery type like the past few days? i don't know. but, my ankle hurts and so does my knee. My heart...gosh. never mind. i shall not burden anyone else. I am feeling really low. Everything's all messed up, i need to sort everyhting out. somehow. Don't know how. I hate myself. I hate the noise and crowd around me. I can't stand everything! I just feel like shutting out everyone and cry, knowing no one will find out. To enjoy the only sound called pain. okay. never mind. sorry for this crazy, stupid post. I shall end here. Till the nest post. Chao.
the heart that keeps hearing the same sad song.
HELLO. yes. my title seems, not the happy, cheery type like the past few days? i don't know. but, my ankle hurts and so does my knee. My heart...gosh. never mind. i shall not burden anyone else. I am feeling really low. Everything's all messed up, i need to sort everyhting out. somehow. Don't know how. I hate myself. I hate the noise and crowd around me. I can't stand everything! I just feel like shutting out everyone and cry, knowing no one will find out. To enjoy the only sound called pain. okay. never mind. sorry for this crazy, stupid post. I shall end here. Till the nest post. Chao.
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Friday, August 17, 2007
THE THIRD POST.
yes. yes. it is super crazy! i am like..quadraple tasking? okay. it totally forgot how to spell quadraple thing. please forgive me. yes yes. It's the end of Ca's!!! but..i am so.....down as i doubt i will do well. no idea. ah well. after school, went to pp with fran and cheryl. had lunch at KFC. met ppl. totally felt like i don't fit in. it's so...weird. the feeling of not being able to blend. totally crazy. francesca went crazy over this jacket. It was total maddness! But it was okay i guess. though i didn't really enjoy as much as i thought i would. my leg is going to be the death of me! my ankle hurts now...so does my knee. how...annoying. And yet, i still danced for mass PE! i can't help it!!! not been dancing and running!!!! for 1 month! no volleyball for me. Okay. totally blank now. CRAZY. can't sit down and sort out the mess i am in. gotta do that when i have free time. OH. received our pri and sec sources structured essays. Totally disappointed in myself!! I could have gotten a L4/5-6m is i had elaborated more on the reliability if i'm not wrong. Horrible. I must buck up. Okay. that's all for now. searching for a new bloggy skin. LOVEs.
yes. yes. it is super crazy! i am like..quadraple tasking? okay. it totally forgot how to spell quadraple thing. please forgive me. yes yes. It's the end of Ca's!!! but..i am so.....down as i doubt i will do well. no idea. ah well. after school, went to pp with fran and cheryl. had lunch at KFC. met ppl. totally felt like i don't fit in. it's so...weird. the feeling of not being able to blend. totally crazy. francesca went crazy over this jacket. It was total maddness! But it was okay i guess. though i didn't really enjoy as much as i thought i would. my leg is going to be the death of me! my ankle hurts now...so does my knee. how...annoying. And yet, i still danced for mass PE! i can't help it!!! not been dancing and running!!!! for 1 month! no volleyball for me. Okay. totally blank now. CRAZY. can't sit down and sort out the mess i am in. gotta do that when i have free time. OH. received our pri and sec sources structured essays. Totally disappointed in myself!! I could have gotten a L4/5-6m is i had elaborated more on the reliability if i'm not wrong. Horrible. I must buck up. Okay. that's all for now. searching for a new bloggy skin. LOVEs.
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Posted all pictures! Except...lost the pictures when me, cheryl and fran baked and talk and freaked and had a blast! sorry!~ Okay. hope you enjoyed amazing yourselves with the pictures. sorry for some retarded pictures. LOVEs. blogging again soon. chao~
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Let the pictures do the talking. Just a few words for this post. will be posting about 2 more posts. the least. ahha. loads of pictures to post to let my dear friends enjoy ripping them~
LOVEs.
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