Friday, June 22, 2007
OKAY. i am soooooooooooooo low. Got scolded. for NO REASON?! i don't know. amybe it's just me. i feel like she's being so unreasonable... I get scolded for practiclly everything. Always getting scolded. My happy life at home. is SHORT. as in reallly really short. Can't stand it. ahish.
sorry. need to de-depress. going to.....WRITE.
No one realises.
this broken heart deep inside.
no one knows.
the incompletence of my happiness.
no one sees.
the plastered smile.
the bleeding heart.
the unstoppable pain i feel.
they think.
being rich.
is all we need.
but.
i know.
all we need.
is something no one can ever buy.
i love this sentance.
it reminds me of my life.
The rich yearn for love.
while the poor yearn for money.
my life.
filled with.
pain.
misery.
confusion.
nothing is enough.
lies.
cries.
its not just cries of anger.
but sadness.
nobody can understand.
this complicated life led.
only i will know.
how painful the final blow.
these words.
striaght from the heart.
continously flowing from my mind.
but is this really nothing?
is this how everyone will feel eventually?
somethingnot only i feel?
i always tell myself.
i'm very fortunate.
they tell me so too.
but they don't know.
anything.
at all.
how much it hurts.
what i'd do.
just to feel something.
besides what i feel.
i try to hide it.
but this time i can't.
she's struck again.
driving my heart insane.
can't help but cry.
when no one's looking.
this pain too much.
for one to bear.
i can't lie anymore.
i'm not lucky.
nor happy.
nobody can ever understand what i feel.
though they think they do.
just give up Sarah.
i often tell myself.
till that day.
your still stuck here with pain, hurt & sadness.
stop lying to yourself.
tomorrow's not a better day.
daddy won't help you.
your all alone.
still stay strong.
but do it with honesty.
stop lying to yourself about tommorow's going to be better.
it'll be alright.
just not very long.
it's always the case.
now i close my eyes.
wondering what will tomorrow bring.
i pray to God.
haven't been doing that very long.
asking him.
to have mercy on me.
his servent.
i tear some more.
i don't know why.
somebody help me.
before i die...
sorry. need to de-depress. going to.....WRITE.
No one realises.
this broken heart deep inside.
no one knows.
the incompletence of my happiness.
no one sees.
the plastered smile.
the bleeding heart.
the unstoppable pain i feel.
they think.
being rich.
is all we need.
but.
i know.
all we need.
is something no one can ever buy.
i love this sentance.
it reminds me of my life.
The rich yearn for love.
while the poor yearn for money.
my life.
filled with.
pain.
misery.
confusion.
nothing is enough.
lies.
cries.
its not just cries of anger.
but sadness.
nobody can understand.
this complicated life led.
only i will know.
how painful the final blow.
these words.
striaght from the heart.
continously flowing from my mind.
but is this really nothing?
is this how everyone will feel eventually?
somethingnot only i feel?
i always tell myself.
i'm very fortunate.
they tell me so too.
but they don't know.
anything.
at all.
how much it hurts.
what i'd do.
just to feel something.
besides what i feel.
i try to hide it.
but this time i can't.
she's struck again.
driving my heart insane.
can't help but cry.
when no one's looking.
this pain too much.
for one to bear.
i can't lie anymore.
i'm not lucky.
nor happy.
nobody can ever understand what i feel.
though they think they do.
just give up Sarah.
i often tell myself.
till that day.
your still stuck here with pain, hurt & sadness.
stop lying to yourself.
tomorrow's not a better day.
daddy won't help you.
your all alone.
still stay strong.
but do it with honesty.
stop lying to yourself about tommorow's going to be better.
it'll be alright.
just not very long.
it's always the case.
now i close my eyes.
wondering what will tomorrow bring.
i pray to God.
haven't been doing that very long.
asking him.
to have mercy on me.
his servent.
i tear some more.
i don't know why.
somebody help me.
before i die...
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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