Saturday, June 30, 2007
nothing much. YESTurdaY. UBER FUN! DANCE CLUB MEMBERS INCLUDING SEC 1'S, led the WHOLE SCHOOL for ACES day workout rehersal? LOL. SO FUN! I was standing in front. It was SOOOO FREAKY!!! So many pairs of eyes on you!~ Like...woah. Well. wacthing a chinese show now. BYE! Will post later or tml.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Thursday, June 28, 2007
HEYY. ok. not much time. need to go off soon. brother wants to use the comp soon. most probably. Had dance today. It was SOOOOO EXHAUSTING!!!! most exhausting since first lesson. A lot of changes. We learned the ACES day workout. VERY FUN! But it was so tiring! We were pespiring though we were in a air conditioned room. Went home, passed st pats while walking to bus stop with Natsha, Annabelle & Melissa. Saw some of the st pats 'long pants' guys. Shouted melissa's name. Don't get me wrong. Just trying to get her into trouble. I think. Lol...okay..nvm. Walked...and walked. Now, my legs are aching like hell! I am SO TIRED!!!! But it was soooo fun! The ACES day workout thing is like so fun and cool. Seniors are nice. Some. Today no sec4's!!! The anti-juniors ppl. well, thats aall! NIGHT! CHAO. for now.
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Wednesday, June 27, 2007
HEYY! I don't know if its stress or what. can't seem to get enough sleep, and i have so much work and yet i can do them. I'm so scared i can't finish my work!!! Lol. well, no PE today. Reading period was crazy. other then that, everything's quite okay. Except the fact that me and pamelia will be acting together in front of the chinese class and Racial Harmony Day is nearing and i have to dance in fornt of the WHOLE SCHOOL. I really don't want to do it! I'll get stage fright. I think. well, gotta go. BYE.
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Tuesday, June 26, 2007
HUMILIATED. crazy.
TODAY was C-R-A-Z-Y. had art. Those who disliked art had to put up their hands. I sorta not like it so i raised up my hand half-way? but not on purpose!!! And the art teacher teased me. GOSH. But...kinda okay. Really ZONKED. tired. *yawn*. lala. Hmmm. went to buy milk. Walked sky and Cassie too. they are STRONG. REALLY STRONG. So funny. passed by some funny people. A guy on his bic was singing out of tune and his bic was making funny noises and he kept falling off his bic after a few secs. So funny. Then, another two different guys were cycling and talking in chinese about too strong later they will pull her you crazy. sth like that. ahah.well. funny day. CHAO!~
TODAY was C-R-A-Z-Y. had art. Those who disliked art had to put up their hands. I sorta not like it so i raised up my hand half-way? but not on purpose!!! And the art teacher teased me. GOSH. But...kinda okay. Really ZONKED. tired. *yawn*. lala. Hmmm. went to buy milk. Walked sky and Cassie too. they are STRONG. REALLY STRONG. So funny. passed by some funny people. A guy on his bic was singing out of tune and his bic was making funny noises and he kept falling off his bic after a few secs. So funny. Then, another two different guys were cycling and talking in chinese about too strong later they will pull her you crazy. sth like that. ahah.well. funny day. CHAO!~
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Sunday, June 24, 2007
HEYY.
I'M SARAH. MY LIFE OFFICIALLY SUCKS.
I mean my life at home. GOSH! SO DARN RESTRICTED! no freedom! at all! Haish. went to parkway. nothing much. bored. bought the VCD save the last dance. It's quite okay. lala. not easy to use your hips to dance. TRY! i tried! it's ok.... better than dancing with your stomach! XD well...nothing much to say. BYE.
sarah's better off dead.
her gone, won't make a difference at all.
only one 13 year old less in this world.
love is gone.
hurt is here to stay forever.
Btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELIZABETH!!!
LOVE YA!~
I'M SARAH. MY LIFE OFFICIALLY SUCKS.
I mean my life at home. GOSH! SO DARN RESTRICTED! no freedom! at all! Haish. went to parkway. nothing much. bored. bought the VCD save the last dance. It's quite okay. lala. not easy to use your hips to dance. TRY! i tried! it's ok.... better than dancing with your stomach! XD well...nothing much to say. BYE.
sarah's better off dead.
her gone, won't make a difference at all.
only one 13 year old less in this world.
love is gone.
hurt is here to stay forever.
Btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELIZABETH!!!
LOVE YA!~
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Friday, June 22, 2007
OKAY. i am soooooooooooooo low. Got scolded. for NO REASON?! i don't know. amybe it's just me. i feel like she's being so unreasonable... I get scolded for practiclly everything. Always getting scolded. My happy life at home. is SHORT. as in reallly really short. Can't stand it. ahish.
sorry. need to de-depress. going to.....WRITE.
No one realises.
this broken heart deep inside.
no one knows.
the incompletence of my happiness.
no one sees.
the plastered smile.
the bleeding heart.
the unstoppable pain i feel.
they think.
being rich.
is all we need.
but.
i know.
all we need.
is something no one can ever buy.
i love this sentance.
it reminds me of my life.
The rich yearn for love.
while the poor yearn for money.
my life.
filled with.
pain.
misery.
confusion.
nothing is enough.
lies.
cries.
its not just cries of anger.
but sadness.
nobody can understand.
this complicated life led.
only i will know.
how painful the final blow.
these words.
striaght from the heart.
continously flowing from my mind.
but is this really nothing?
is this how everyone will feel eventually?
somethingnot only i feel?
i always tell myself.
i'm very fortunate.
they tell me so too.
but they don't know.
anything.
at all.
how much it hurts.
what i'd do.
just to feel something.
besides what i feel.
i try to hide it.
but this time i can't.
she's struck again.
driving my heart insane.
can't help but cry.
when no one's looking.
this pain too much.
for one to bear.
i can't lie anymore.
i'm not lucky.
nor happy.
nobody can ever understand what i feel.
though they think they do.
just give up Sarah.
i often tell myself.
till that day.
your still stuck here with pain, hurt & sadness.
stop lying to yourself.
tomorrow's not a better day.
daddy won't help you.
your all alone.
still stay strong.
but do it with honesty.
stop lying to yourself about tommorow's going to be better.
it'll be alright.
just not very long.
it's always the case.
now i close my eyes.
wondering what will tomorrow bring.
i pray to God.
haven't been doing that very long.
asking him.
to have mercy on me.
his servent.
i tear some more.
i don't know why.
somebody help me.
before i die...
sorry. need to de-depress. going to.....WRITE.
No one realises.
this broken heart deep inside.
no one knows.
the incompletence of my happiness.
no one sees.
the plastered smile.
the bleeding heart.
the unstoppable pain i feel.
they think.
being rich.
is all we need.
but.
i know.
all we need.
is something no one can ever buy.
i love this sentance.
it reminds me of my life.
The rich yearn for love.
while the poor yearn for money.
my life.
filled with.
pain.
misery.
confusion.
nothing is enough.
lies.
cries.
its not just cries of anger.
but sadness.
nobody can understand.
this complicated life led.
only i will know.
how painful the final blow.
these words.
striaght from the heart.
continously flowing from my mind.
but is this really nothing?
is this how everyone will feel eventually?
somethingnot only i feel?
i always tell myself.
i'm very fortunate.
they tell me so too.
but they don't know.
anything.
at all.
how much it hurts.
what i'd do.
just to feel something.
besides what i feel.
i try to hide it.
but this time i can't.
she's struck again.
driving my heart insane.
can't help but cry.
when no one's looking.
this pain too much.
for one to bear.
i can't lie anymore.
i'm not lucky.
nor happy.
nobody can ever understand what i feel.
though they think they do.
just give up Sarah.
i often tell myself.
till that day.
your still stuck here with pain, hurt & sadness.
stop lying to yourself.
tomorrow's not a better day.
daddy won't help you.
your all alone.
still stay strong.
but do it with honesty.
stop lying to yourself about tommorow's going to be better.
it'll be alright.
just not very long.
it's always the case.
now i close my eyes.
wondering what will tomorrow bring.
i pray to God.
haven't been doing that very long.
asking him.
to have mercy on me.
his servent.
i tear some more.
i don't know why.
somebody help me.
before i die...
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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OKAY. Natasha came over yesturday and we did Lit project, the remains. Laughter was definitely present and i am happy to say, pain wasn't! Went hyper, took lots of pictures. Will post em' later. Too lazy to go up and get my camera & upload them into the computer. Natasha stayed till like, 9:40. haha. last 20 mins, we went to my room to look for Posters for Natasha! Hmmm, got lotsa posters to give/throw away. Please tell me if you want any...Okay...Aunty Mei came, she gave us chocolates from Europe!~ Mango pudding and bread? lol. Okay. Currently crazy about Paula Deanda songs!!! Boycotting boys. LOL. okay...nothing else...bye!~
Footprints on my Heart:
You don't even hold me like you used to hold me
And there's no way you could of meant all the things you told me
Yeah, yeah
I remember when you told me you'd never lie to me
I can't believe I trusted you
I sacrificed my time and my heart
I gave you my all and what you do
You stepped on me, you walked on me
Boy you left yourFootprints on my
Heart broken crying over the way you left your
Footprints on my
Heart aching you ran all over me and left your
Footprints on my heart
My heart
I know the way you were before me
And I was crazy to think you'd change
I put up with your attitude
Your selfish ways and your childish games (whoa)
A good heart always ends up broken
But overtime, it'll make me strong
I'ma put the pieces back together
Might take some time, but I just go on
You stepped on me, you walked on me
Boy you left yourFootprints on my
Heart broken crying over the way you left your
Footprints on my
Heart aching you ran all over me and left your
Footprints on my heart
My heart
Love me or leave me
I don't mind
My heart can't take this pain
We had something so beautiful
But now it's not the same
So I gotta let this go
Gotta take back the truth
This situation makes no good for me
I can't believe I let it happen like this
I just sat back while you
You stepped on me, you walked on me
Boy you left your
Footprints on my
Heart broken crying over the way you left your
Footprints on my
Heart aching you ran all over me and left your
Footprints on my heart
My heart
Ooh, whoa, ooh
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Ooh
Footprints on my Heart:
You don't even hold me like you used to hold me
And there's no way you could of meant all the things you told me
Yeah, yeah
I remember when you told me you'd never lie to me
I can't believe I trusted you
I sacrificed my time and my heart
I gave you my all and what you do
You stepped on me, you walked on me
Boy you left yourFootprints on my
Heart broken crying over the way you left your
Footprints on my
Heart aching you ran all over me and left your
Footprints on my heart
My heart
I know the way you were before me
And I was crazy to think you'd change
I put up with your attitude
Your selfish ways and your childish games (whoa)
A good heart always ends up broken
But overtime, it'll make me strong
I'ma put the pieces back together
Might take some time, but I just go on
You stepped on me, you walked on me
Boy you left yourFootprints on my
Heart broken crying over the way you left your
Footprints on my
Heart aching you ran all over me and left your
Footprints on my heart
My heart
Love me or leave me
I don't mind
My heart can't take this pain
We had something so beautiful
But now it's not the same
So I gotta let this go
Gotta take back the truth
This situation makes no good for me
I can't believe I let it happen like this
I just sat back while you
You stepped on me, you walked on me
Boy you left your
Footprints on my
Heart broken crying over the way you left your
Footprints on my
Heart aching you ran all over me and left your
Footprints on my heart
My heart
Ooh, whoa, ooh
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Ooh
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Okay. woke up. went to parkway to do stuff. not for me stuff. okay... really sian. Cheryl came and did her english hw. nothing much. i'm bored. lol. okay... thats all. maybe later i'll post again if i'm bored and still on the computer. BYE! for now.
love this song...
Fairy Tales. by JoJo.
You know the story
You read the books
Boy meets girl
Then they fall forever in love
But I know better
So here goes a tale
Of the realest of the real
Listen
Now once upon a time
in a small world
It was everything that I dreamed of
He was my gem and I was his pearl
Nothing could come between us
A prince charming to call my own
Until the day that he broke my heart
And left me wonderin all alone
Pickin my mind and soul apart
Used to believe in love (I used to believe in love)
Used to believe in fairy tales (In fairy tales)
Since my heart's been crushed (It's been crushed)
Just don't believe in a tiny hell (No no no no no)
Don't know which way to turn
Figure it out for myself I've just started to learn (La da da dee, oh)
There's no such thing as fairy tales
Is a good story supposed to end
Unhappily ever after
Just as wonderful as it begins
And carry on for a few chapters
Baby how come each time I open up
I can't seem to get past stage one
I guess it's time for me to close up
And go back on the shelf because I'm done
Used to believe in love (I used to believe in love)
Used to believe in fairy tales (In fairy tales)
Since my heart's been crushed (Since my heart's been crushed)
Just don't believe in a tiny hell
Don't know which way to turn (I don't know which way to turn)
Figure it out for myself I've just started to learn (La da da dee oh)
There's no such thing as fairy tales
Twinkle twinkle little star
Why do my dreams seem so far (Why they seem so far)
Up above the world so high
Won't somebody tell me why (Can you help me)
Can you help me out
Can you tell me what love is all about
Cause I never known it for myself (Don't believe in fairy tales)
That's why I don't believe in fairy tales no more
Used to believe in love (No more)
Used to believe in fairy tales (I used to believe, I used to believe, I used to believe)
Since my heart's been crushed
Just don't believe in a tiny hell (I don't believe in much)
Don't know which way to turn
Figure it out for myself (Oh no no no no no)
I've just started to learn (Just started to learn)
There's no such thing as fairy tales (There's no such thing as fairy tales)
Used to believe in love
Used to believe fairy tales (La da da da)
Since my heart's been crushed
Just don't believe in a tiny hell
Don't know which way to turn (I don't know which way)
Figure it out for myself I've just started to learn
There's no such thing as fairy tales
love this song...
Fairy Tales. by JoJo.
You know the story
You read the books
Boy meets girl
Then they fall forever in love
But I know better
So here goes a tale
Of the realest of the real
Listen
Now once upon a time
in a small world
It was everything that I dreamed of
He was my gem and I was his pearl
Nothing could come between us
A prince charming to call my own
Until the day that he broke my heart
And left me wonderin all alone
Pickin my mind and soul apart
Used to believe in love (I used to believe in love)
Used to believe in fairy tales (In fairy tales)
Since my heart's been crushed (It's been crushed)
Just don't believe in a tiny hell (No no no no no)
Don't know which way to turn
Figure it out for myself I've just started to learn (La da da dee, oh)
There's no such thing as fairy tales
Is a good story supposed to end
Unhappily ever after
Just as wonderful as it begins
And carry on for a few chapters
Baby how come each time I open up
I can't seem to get past stage one
I guess it's time for me to close up
And go back on the shelf because I'm done
Used to believe in love (I used to believe in love)
Used to believe in fairy tales (In fairy tales)
Since my heart's been crushed (Since my heart's been crushed)
Just don't believe in a tiny hell
Don't know which way to turn (I don't know which way to turn)
Figure it out for myself I've just started to learn (La da da dee oh)
There's no such thing as fairy tales
Twinkle twinkle little star
Why do my dreams seem so far (Why they seem so far)
Up above the world so high
Won't somebody tell me why (Can you help me)
Can you help me out
Can you tell me what love is all about
Cause I never known it for myself (Don't believe in fairy tales)
That's why I don't believe in fairy tales no more
Used to believe in love (No more)
Used to believe in fairy tales (I used to believe, I used to believe, I used to believe)
Since my heart's been crushed
Just don't believe in a tiny hell (I don't believe in much)
Don't know which way to turn
Figure it out for myself (Oh no no no no no)
I've just started to learn (Just started to learn)
There's no such thing as fairy tales (There's no such thing as fairy tales)
Used to believe in love
Used to believe fairy tales (La da da da)
Since my heart's been crushed
Just don't believe in a tiny hell
Don't know which way to turn (I don't know which way)
Figure it out for myself I've just started to learn
There's no such thing as fairy tales
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Monday, June 18, 2007
Finally! A day of pure fun! well, and pressure. hmmm. nothing much. LIZ was LATE! haha. making us. LATE. hah. but it was really fun. watched fantastic 4 today. took neos. thats about it. Kinda nice day today. XD well, thats all for today. Saturday, the pictures will say it all. XD Gtg. BYE!
Today: CS/TM/WS with Teresa, Abi,Liz,Clara & Zoey!
Saturday: Opheliaakamygodsister's birthday.
Today: CS/TM/WS with Teresa, Abi,Liz,Clara & Zoey!
Saturday: Opheliaakamygodsister's birthday.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Saturday, June 16, 2007
Tightened my braces today. changed to pink. HORRIBLE!!! but anyway...pink is suppose to be...err...sexy?...lol. okay. on the bus ride to Mount E, 3 guys were talking so darn loud! it was soooo irritating! I couldn't hear my music!...Then, went to mount e. Was late. Lol. but didn't matter. hmmm. nothing much. later will be going to ophelia's birthday party. I'm going. I want to. God's taking her home anytime. So i better go see her. Will try to take lots of pictures. oh. yesturday, brought sky&cassie to the vet to get their 1yr old injections. So funny. Was fun. Yesturday and today. 1 thing in common. guys keep looking at me like i'm some kind of weirdo! It was irritating in a way... Okay. ouch. My braces are starting to hurt my teeth. i got chains. as in those linked braces. so it hurts. Argh i hate chains! i prefer single. Hmmm. haha. soon will be able to take off these stupid metal and rubber bands. lol. always hate the first day of tightening of braces. numb like crazy! okay. will end here. and post pictures!~
Comment! ! ! I need to know if its okay, me with bangs. XD
on the way home from Mount E.
The bottom of my jeans were wet.
JELLY BEANS! ate them on the way home.
HOME! finally! my jeans were killing me!!!
Me. changed into skirt. the jeans were really uncomfortable.
Comment! ! ! I need to know if its okay, me with bangs. XD
on the way home from Mount E.
The bottom of my jeans were wet.
JELLY BEANS! ate them on the way home.
HOME! finally! my jeans were killing me!!!
Me. changed into skirt. the jeans were really uncomfortable.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Friday, June 15, 2007
Heyy. hmmm. today's the day where Sean takes out the plaster that hides his scar! I helped him remove the plasterS. It was fun!!! The scar is soooooooooo looooong and really nice. lol. except where i touch his scabs!!! Really dirty. It waas in a way, fun to remove the plasters. Got some random pictures. And a picture of his long scar on his back. waiting for the pictures now. hmmm. today, mama and gonggong are coming over(dad's side.) The whole lot of relatives are coming. especially the all so cute Mandy! hmmm. okay....took random pictures of Sky&Cassie.XD
okay.
i'll stop crapping.
These pictures were took in the morning.XD
The long scar that was hidden for 4 days.
The plasters that hid the scar.
Aaron, daddy & Alyssa at the dining tableXD
Sniffing around for food!
He finally looks at the camera! Nahh. i tricked him into it.XD
Looking at the camera, but didn't want to smile. =X
Still sleeping till i woke him upXD
refusing to look at the cameraXD
Sky. He saw Aaron. so yeah..
=X
okay.
i'll stop crapping.
These pictures were took in the morning.XD
The long scar that was hidden for 4 days.
The plasters that hid the scar.
Aaron, daddy & Alyssa at the dining tableXD
Sniffing around for food!
He finally looks at the camera! Nahh. i tricked him into it.XD
Looking at the camera, but didn't want to smile. =X
Sky
Is
Camera SHY.
Still sleeping till i woke him upXD
refusing to look at the cameraXD
Sky. He saw Aaron. so yeah..
=X
That's all for now. BYE!~
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Thursday, June 14, 2007
Heyy. yes so i decided to blog again. I'M BORED! i think i've sprained my leg! It hurts like hell!!!!!!!!! & i can see a bone sticking out! OUCH!!!!!!! lol. i'm bored. & sian! haish. gosh. having super mixed feelings! don't know why. REALLY BORED!!!! sians!!!!! my foot hurts...no idea what i did...haish. sians!!! well...i'll write my stuff...
promise we'll be togetehr till the end.
but.
it seems like.
yesturday you promised.
and today you broke this promise.
so.
i guess.
it's true.
when they say.
there will always be a end to friends.
everything's so messed up.
suddenly.
i feel so small.
and the world's so big and dark.
i'm lost.
don't know where to go.
don't know what do i do.
my mind's spinning.
i'm still looking for the light at the end of this tunnel.
feeling my way out.
no one to help.
i feel really cold and frightened.
but.
yet.
i know i have to get to the light at the end of this tunnel.
to get out of this cold and dark place.
i'm out of breathe.
i can't run anymore.
i can't think.
i feel so alone.
so afraid.
tears roll down.
i feel so lost.
no idea what to do next.
i run in all directions aimlessly.
not sure where to go.
i'm breaking down.
promises which turned into lies.
led to a broken heart.
everything's going through my mind.
i can't take anymore of it.
i try to keep smiling.
but i always end up in tears when no one's looking.
when i fall.
i've to be strong and pick myself up.
no one to lean on when life gets hard to live.
i'm all alone.
at least it feels this way.
everyone walks past me.
no one stops to help.
i try to stand up everytime i fall.
but i know.
soon i won't be able to help myself up.
the weight of the pain.
too much for one to bear alone.
but yet.
there's only me to help myself up.
so i'll be strong.
with everything weighing down on me.
i'll keep up that smile.
won't let anyone catch me crying...
but i can't say if i'll break down while no one's watching me.
this life i lead.
no one will ever understand.
promise we'll be togetehr till the end.
but.
it seems like.
yesturday you promised.
and today you broke this promise.
so.
i guess.
it's true.
when they say.
there will always be a end to friends.
everything's so messed up.
suddenly.
i feel so small.
and the world's so big and dark.
i'm lost.
don't know where to go.
don't know what do i do.
my mind's spinning.
i'm still looking for the light at the end of this tunnel.
feeling my way out.
no one to help.
i feel really cold and frightened.
but.
yet.
i know i have to get to the light at the end of this tunnel.
to get out of this cold and dark place.
i'm out of breathe.
i can't run anymore.
i can't think.
i feel so alone.
so afraid.
tears roll down.
i feel so lost.
no idea what to do next.
i run in all directions aimlessly.
not sure where to go.
i'm breaking down.
promises which turned into lies.
led to a broken heart.
everything's going through my mind.
i can't take anymore of it.
i try to keep smiling.
but i always end up in tears when no one's looking.
when i fall.
i've to be strong and pick myself up.
no one to lean on when life gets hard to live.
i'm all alone.
at least it feels this way.
everyone walks past me.
no one stops to help.
i try to stand up everytime i fall.
but i know.
soon i won't be able to help myself up.
the weight of the pain.
too much for one to bear alone.
but yet.
there's only me to help myself up.
so i'll be strong.
with everything weighing down on me.
i'll keep up that smile.
won't let anyone catch me crying...
but i can't say if i'll break down while no one's watching me.
this life i lead.
no one will ever understand.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Heyy! okay. so things aren't as fun as i thought it would be. I MUST have FUN next week! 3 weeks of June holidays. not one day with my friends! THIS IS PURE TORTURE!!!!! I am going to have my fun. NOT NOW BUT SOON! next week! Less work, more FUN!!!! 1 day is booked for Liz & Van to come over to bake!!! yay!!! They were suppose to come tomorrow, but my relatives are coming to see Sean and have dinner and all. I wanna go out with Clara and Ryl! Spend time with Zoey and somemore! Lol. Hmmm. okay. i've started on my homework. Almost done. kinda tired. no idea why. okay. well. nothing to say le. going to try baking something new. that's all for now. looking forward to a week filled of fun!
the pain.
the broken heart.
the endless screams.
the memories that haunt my mind.
the crazy life led...
the pain.
the broken heart.
the endless screams.
the memories that haunt my mind.
the crazy life led...
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Heyy! I'M LOST!!! FEELING SO SO SO SO DIZZY!!!! okay...nothing much. FEEL LIKE GOING OUT!!! AHHHHHH. haish. hmmms.
12th of June: nothing much. watched tv. slept. went to cold storage to but groceries. Sean couldn't go. his back. hmmm. had to carry a lot of stuff. total for the stuff we bought was like about 200 pluss i guess. really bored. haish. walked sky and cassie. still
bored. came back. watched tv again.
bored. came back. watched tv again.
13thofjune/today: BORED! I AM DYING OF BOREDOM! starting on my hols hw...=.- haish. want to go out tomorrow!!!! but..yet..i feel like baking. haha. okay. not much. will post pictures now~
I tried out Tiny fairy cakes again! in choco flavour!~ My trial batch also. the only choco tiny fairy cakes.XD
The plain choco tiny fairy cake.
plain ones. original tiny fairy cakes. the 2nd batch. still being baked.XD
Alyssa's creation!(with help) i did my cakes without help.XD
The crazily decorated batch. done on the 10th of june.XD
i try to smile.
but deep inside i'm bleeding.
i cannot remember.
when it started.
but i just know.
it's been long.
i'm getting desperate.
to keep up this smile.
no more lies.
the cut's deep.
i can't take it.
it hurts like hell.
i guess.
this is just me.
my pain.
my heart.
my life.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Monday, June 11, 2007
Heyy.
been a super crazy few days. well. FYIs, the post before this isn't a poem. just my thoughts. hmmm. nothing much. complicated! mum & dad were fighting since a few years. It was scary. and what dad said. just pierced my heart really bad. Hmmm. so fun. been baking everyday since friday. life suddenly feels so different. okay. nothing much.. no mood to blog. HUIXIAN GOT 21.5! YAY! not sure if the rest got any higher. lol. ah well....not controlling the remote. hmmm. now we have 3 tv's with cable.XD
as each day passes by.
i think to myself.
what will become of me in the near future..
if i follow my heart.
to do what i wish.
or to do what i have to.
life's getting tough from here.
but life wasn't meant to be easy.
the decision is mine.
the consequences i must bear.
i dance as though it'll be my last.
i don't know what decision i'll make.
but i know that i will never stop dancing.
daning to me.
is not just something.
where you move.
it's a form of art where i express myself.
so don't try to take it away from me.
it's my life.
life is crazy.
but still.
it has to go on.
the music i move to.
please don't take away from me.
the beat that replays in my head.
i can never forget.
don't kill me.
don't take my life away.
it's what i depend on to take away the pain.
my dreams gone.
though it still lives in me.
it's bad enough.
but i'll be strong.
and life still goes on...
been a super crazy few days. well. FYIs, the post before this isn't a poem. just my thoughts. hmmm. nothing much. complicated! mum & dad were fighting since a few years. It was scary. and what dad said. just pierced my heart really bad. Hmmm. so fun. been baking everyday since friday. life suddenly feels so different. okay. nothing much.. no mood to blog. HUIXIAN GOT 21.5! YAY! not sure if the rest got any higher. lol. ah well....not controlling the remote. hmmm. now we have 3 tv's with cable.XD
as each day passes by.
i think to myself.
what will become of me in the near future..
if i follow my heart.
to do what i wish.
or to do what i have to.
life's getting tough from here.
but life wasn't meant to be easy.
the decision is mine.
the consequences i must bear.
i dance as though it'll be my last.
i don't know what decision i'll make.
but i know that i will never stop dancing.
daning to me.
is not just something.
where you move.
it's a form of art where i express myself.
so don't try to take it away from me.
it's my life.
life is crazy.
but still.
it has to go on.
the music i move to.
please don't take away from me.
the beat that replays in my head.
i can never forget.
don't kill me.
don't take my life away.
it's what i depend on to take away the pain.
my dreams gone.
though it still lives in me.
it's bad enough.
but i'll be strong.
and life still goes on...
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Friday, June 08, 2007
HEY! okay... woke up, mum was angry at Aaron and she threw her temper at me! like...WTH!!! argh! okay...after that, things cooled down. She went out, i looked after Sean in case he wanted to do stuff he was not allowed to. Example, bending down to pick sth or whatsoever. hmmm. okay...Auntie Cat came, had this sudden urge to bake. Went out to get stuff to bake. Baked rich chocolate cake and Tiny Fairy Cakes. Both was a success! haha. really happy with myself. After all the tiring work, i had a blasting headache and was really warm. hmmm. Slacked throughout after that. oh. yesturday night, was reading Chinese Cinderella for the third time. This time, i'm penning down my thoughts while reading. I really understand the things Adeline goes through. haish. At the same time, i'm once again reading falling leaves. It's the story of her life from age 14 onwards. Her life, really is filled with saddness. She says she remembers Mother Teresa saying that "Loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted are the greatest poverty." I agree with her, and Adeline Yen Mah adds on, " 1 single positive dream is more impotant than a thousand negative realites." I really can relate to these two sentances. It sort of inspires me. In falling leaves, she uses chinese idioms she learnt and applies them to her life. I really am amazed, and really filled with fascination? Hmmm. The story of her life, touches me and yet pierces my heart. After reading the book last year, i could never forget what she's been through. I can still remember the pain she's gone through. She's just yearns to be loved and understood by her family. I have so far never read a more touching book than Adeline Yen Mah's Chinese Cinderella & Falling Leaves. How she pulls through, after all those painful times. Really tough. Getting kicked out by your stepmother and your father doesn't do anything..Trying to find out the real will of her father, and her siblings don't help at all. She's all alone. No Aunt Baba there to help her, to encourage her. haish. really sad. Okay...well, that's all for today. NIGHTS!
...just let me dance till i die.
& promise me you won't save me.
cos i'll be better off dead.
as i can't carry anymore of this pain.
It's just too much for me to bear alone.
it may seem i'm not alone.
but i am.
i know.
so the day i die.
don't shed a tear.
i promise you.
i'll still be here.
maybe you won't see me.
but you know that in your heart.
i'm there with you.
promise me.
when you see my body.
you will still rest in peace.
cos i shall promise you.
that i will do my best
to watch over you.
& when i reach thepoint.
where it burns.
don't cry.
don't be sad.
remember i died with no regrets.
i am going to lead a happier life.
i will be judged.
and be sent to the place i deserve to be.
don't worry about me.
i assure you.
i will be okay.
all the endless screams will have ended.
the mark sting left after the slap.
would be gone.
the fear of the final blow.
would be gone.
the memories that haunt me.
will finally be over.
the life i hate.
would have ended.
& this i must say.
I Love You.
I Appreciate Ya'll.
but.
now.
it's time for me to go.
no need to worry.
i won't do anything foolish.
i will rest in peace.
once he knows how much i love him.
how long i've waited till this day.
i don't want anything.
i just wish he knew.
& when it's my time to go.
i can recall.
when i was still alive.
bearing all the pain.
i just wanted him to love me.
is that too much to ask.
but now i learn.
love is something that could come later.
but love from your famliy is something that should be present to feel complete.
all i ever wanted was to be loved.
the pain is too much.
it adds on each day.
feelings all mixed up.
don't know how i should feel.
all i know is i want to end it all.
but i can't.
the sting.
the tears.
the pain.
the hurt.
the endless blame.
the endless lies.
i wish to correct her.
but i know it's no use.
they know what's she like.
but they don't understand what she can do.
i must stop here and go.
i made a promise to the one i love so dear.
so this is all...
...just let me dance till i die.
& promise me you won't save me.
cos i'll be better off dead.
as i can't carry anymore of this pain.
It's just too much for me to bear alone.
it may seem i'm not alone.
but i am.
i know.
so the day i die.
don't shed a tear.
i promise you.
i'll still be here.
maybe you won't see me.
but you know that in your heart.
i'm there with you.
promise me.
when you see my body.
you will still rest in peace.
cos i shall promise you.
that i will do my best
to watch over you.
& when i reach thepoint.
where it burns.
don't cry.
don't be sad.
remember i died with no regrets.
i am going to lead a happier life.
i will be judged.
and be sent to the place i deserve to be.
don't worry about me.
i assure you.
i will be okay.
all the endless screams will have ended.
the mark sting left after the slap.
would be gone.
the fear of the final blow.
would be gone.
the memories that haunt me.
will finally be over.
the life i hate.
would have ended.
& this i must say.
I Love You.
I Appreciate Ya'll.
but.
now.
it's time for me to go.
no need to worry.
i won't do anything foolish.
i will rest in peace.
once he knows how much i love him.
how long i've waited till this day.
i don't want anything.
i just wish he knew.
& when it's my time to go.
i can recall.
when i was still alive.
bearing all the pain.
i just wanted him to love me.
is that too much to ask.
but now i learn.
love is something that could come later.
but love from your famliy is something that should be present to feel complete.
all i ever wanted was to be loved.
the pain is too much.
it adds on each day.
feelings all mixed up.
don't know how i should feel.
all i know is i want to end it all.
but i can't.
the sting.
the tears.
the pain.
the hurt.
the endless blame.
the endless lies.
i wish to correct her.
but i know it's no use.
they know what's she like.
but they don't understand what she can do.
i must stop here and go.
i made a promise to the one i love so dear.
so this is all...
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Thursday, June 07, 2007
Had lotsa fun! hmmm. the choco 'burst'! lol.. hmm..and after all this baking, me & Nat's legs were aching like hell! standing/baking for 6hrs straight! And after all this chaos, in the night, i fell sick. With a terrible sore throat and flu. But yet, i still went to school the nxt day. XD
Second Day.
<=====Liz was high at that time!
<===I wanted to break all the cookies with the 'magic glove' and elizabeth was like preventing me from doing so. XD 
<=== Liz feeding me choco!
Heyy. Okay. nothing much. Natsha's sick so she's not coming. Project's postponed. haish. okay...reall bored and sian!!! My brother can't climb the stairs more than twice...lol. 1 fall and he could be paralysed for life. Okay...i'll stop here and try to post pictures.
Pictures of the day we made cookies(me, liz, abigail & Van.)
<====The all so 'hardworking' liz. =x
<===a unsuccessful cookie batch!
<===Four of us!~
<===== RAINBOW SPRINKLES!
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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