Friday, May 11, 2007
Heyy.
i've decided to blog. but i have NO MOOD to post any pictures. so sorry that'll all it'll be for a few days will be words....i'm just really pissed off with life. Seems like all is quite alright for my friends. For me, nothing's going right in my family. i am totally out of tears, can't cry anymore. Not cause i'm okay..nevermind. I really feel so out of place...don't know what to do. Life's just so wrong. I hate living..it's so painful..i'm breaking down. i don't show it in school. i try to pretend everything's alright. Mid-Year's are here. so is stress. so much so that nobody would realise how i feel is not how i look on the outside. No one will understand what i go through..nobody knows...nobody cares. I hate her! i just really hate her! She scolds me for everything i do! I can never please her! i Hate her!!! I'm practically a loner in school...though it don't show...i know so. i feel so darn left out and it's all because of her! She ruins my life! i want her to get out of my life! i want to live without her! She's tearing my whole world apart! I can't stand life! It's seriously so unbearable!!! I am so lost...i don't know what to do..i don't want to care about her. I am truly sure that i hate her! With all the insults and words she speaks, my hatred for her grows deeper each day. She critises my every move. I don't care about her, she's nothing, always venting her anger on me though not physically but it's just as bad. Imagine some annoying freak nagging and scolding and reprimading you and bringing your friends in! She even doesn't care if i become a loner! If i ever become a loner i will kill myself! My friends keep me standing...all this is just too much for one to handle...No one would ever understand what i go through...the slaps that leave the stinging pain. the tears that refuse to clear. the pain too much for one to bear. All too much for one heart to carry alone. Swimming, dancing and writing poetry are the only ways to relieve the pain for a while. It will never be gone because everytime it's gone she just adds on and it comes back. Thinks she's what we depends on to live on.
I wish there was someone who would understand what i really go through. No one can. sad yet true. but what can i do...
Love's gone and hurt's here to stay.
and i know it'll be long.
i've decided to blog. but i have NO MOOD to post any pictures. so sorry that'll all it'll be for a few days will be words....i'm just really pissed off with life. Seems like all is quite alright for my friends. For me, nothing's going right in my family. i am totally out of tears, can't cry anymore. Not cause i'm okay..nevermind. I really feel so out of place...don't know what to do. Life's just so wrong. I hate living..it's so painful..i'm breaking down. i don't show it in school. i try to pretend everything's alright. Mid-Year's are here. so is stress. so much so that nobody would realise how i feel is not how i look on the outside. No one will understand what i go through..nobody knows...nobody cares. I hate her! i just really hate her! She scolds me for everything i do! I can never please her! i Hate her!!! I'm practically a loner in school...though it don't show...i know so. i feel so darn left out and it's all because of her! She ruins my life! i want her to get out of my life! i want to live without her! She's tearing my whole world apart! I can't stand life! It's seriously so unbearable!!! I am so lost...i don't know what to do..i don't want to care about her. I am truly sure that i hate her! With all the insults and words she speaks, my hatred for her grows deeper each day. She critises my every move. I don't care about her, she's nothing, always venting her anger on me though not physically but it's just as bad. Imagine some annoying freak nagging and scolding and reprimading you and bringing your friends in! She even doesn't care if i become a loner! If i ever become a loner i will kill myself! My friends keep me standing...all this is just too much for one to handle...No one would ever understand what i go through...the slaps that leave the stinging pain. the tears that refuse to clear. the pain too much for one to bear. All too much for one heart to carry alone. Swimming, dancing and writing poetry are the only ways to relieve the pain for a while. It will never be gone because everytime it's gone she just adds on and it comes back. Thinks she's what we depends on to live on.
I wish there was someone who would understand what i really go through. No one can. sad yet true. but what can i do...
Love's gone and hurt's here to stay.
and i know it'll be long.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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