Monday, April 30, 2007
Heya, had chinese mid year exam today. It was kinda okay. anyways, Celestine told me not to get angry with her. She claims that it isn't her fault, HAHA! It's annoying! She's a COWARD plus a LIAR. ah well. Many want revenge, i can't be bothered to waste my time and energy getting revenge, but she shuld watch out. Discipline commitee have decided that for our punishment we will write a 500 word essay for relections. I'm cool with it, it's like really very light for all my 'offences'. The fact that Celestine is hiding for what she has done really makes me DISGUSTED. Oh!
I had a 10min worth of annoying lecture from my mum again in the car! Getting used to it, but what she says goes in and comes out. Most of it anyway. i HATE being lectured and nagged at.
anyway, after Chinese LC it was supposed to be English, but the teacher didn't come and as usual our class made an awful lot of noise, i admit i did contribute a bit to it. heees. Teddy bear came in and punished and scolded us. At first, he made us stand up and put both hands over our mouths and then he went out, when he came in we were still making lots of noise so he made us cover our mouths with one hand and raise the other hand up 180 degrees. He sat down and decided that it was fun to him so he took pictures of us doing that. It was CRAZY.
Oh! After finishing my Chinese paper, i fell asleep, i'm totally zonked today. During reading, after writing 2 poems and a couplet, a doodle i once again went to sleep. Had maths, didn't bring my maths stuff, had to stand for 1hr. But it was not that bad, Pamelia entertained me, she was looking at the answers at the back of the maths textbook and working backworks to get the workings and answer.
Fell asleep while Aaron was having tution. Oh! I've got new cubicle doors for my bathroom. nicer ones than the ones that came with the house. Too lazy to post any pictures. haha. maybe tomorrow. WOW. i've got this sudden urge to play captain's ball and go swimming!!!!! i need to be TAN-ER-ER!!! okay. that was so irrelevant....well, that's all.
chaos~
oh. could someone tell me if i should show my crappy poems? XD
I had a 10min worth of annoying lecture from my mum again in the car! Getting used to it, but what she says goes in and comes out. Most of it anyway. i HATE being lectured and nagged at.
anyway, after Chinese LC it was supposed to be English, but the teacher didn't come and as usual our class made an awful lot of noise, i admit i did contribute a bit to it. heees. Teddy bear came in and punished and scolded us. At first, he made us stand up and put both hands over our mouths and then he went out, when he came in we were still making lots of noise so he made us cover our mouths with one hand and raise the other hand up 180 degrees. He sat down and decided that it was fun to him so he took pictures of us doing that. It was CRAZY.
Oh! After finishing my Chinese paper, i fell asleep, i'm totally zonked today. During reading, after writing 2 poems and a couplet, a doodle i once again went to sleep. Had maths, didn't bring my maths stuff, had to stand for 1hr. But it was not that bad, Pamelia entertained me, she was looking at the answers at the back of the maths textbook and working backworks to get the workings and answer.
Fell asleep while Aaron was having tution. Oh! I've got new cubicle doors for my bathroom. nicer ones than the ones that came with the house. Too lazy to post any pictures. haha. maybe tomorrow. WOW. i've got this sudden urge to play captain's ball and go swimming!!!!! i need to be TAN-ER-ER!!! okay. that was so irrelevant....well, that's all.
chaos~
oh. could someone tell me if i should show my crappy poems? XD
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Sunday, April 29, 2007
Heyy. WOW. so much is going on....
I'll start with what happened on Friday(27April2007).
Had English Mid-Year Exams today. i don't think i'll do quite well for Paper 1 but i simply LOVE my Paper 2! Oh! Btw, Thanks to CELESTINE THAM(i don't care if i spelled your name wrongly!!!) i've never liked your presence anywhere near me! i wish you were 10000000000000000000000000miles away from me! You suck up to teachers! You got me into trouble! PLUS I CAN'T USE MY HP ANYMORE AND I AM STRICTLY NOT ALLOWED TO GO OUT WITH MY FRIENDS ANYMORE!!! My mum thinks i spend too much time with my friends and i go out A LOT with them! ARGH! I promise that you'll get what you rightfully deserve! I respected you and ignored your presence, now that you done this i will treat you the way you must be treated. You won't like it. not ONE BIT! i am sure after a while you'll start saying i'm whatever. I DON'T CARE! You are better off dead! you aren't that smart, you aren't ALL THAT, so why do you even bother acting like you are!? argh. You made me and nicole go through HELL! I will make your life a living hell if you ever dare talk or do anything to me EVER AGAIN! Surprise spot check on friday. a whole lot of us got caught. Wrote down all our 'offences'. It was a really CRAPPY day. thanks to the one and only celestine tham, and i don't mean it as a compliment. I feel like calling you something i don't wish to, but i shall not. the small font for her name means that she's nothing to me, and the colour brown means she's more of s***. It's bold meaning she did something bad i'll never ever forget! Cried till whole face drowned with tears, nose red like a cherry. Mum fetched me home, nagging started. Couldn't care less. AGAIN she dragged in MY BEST FRIENDS! ARGH! i HATE it when she does that! She says that their bad influences and that so far no KC girl has shown her anything positive INCLUDING ME! I can't stand this life! It's so hard to live....i feel like ending it all, yet i can't bear to. i live for my dad, i study hard hopefully to get a really good job, make my daddy proud of me and see him happy.
okay......... feeling much better. just talked to Suzanna. She made me laugh so i'm feeling 'lighter' mentally.
Saturday(28April2007): Didn't go for cathecism. hope i don't need to repeat Con1. will get the happenings during cathesicm from Natalia and Elizabeth. Today was Mama's b'dae, it was really nice. the aunty i'm closest to on my dad's side, 'buomu' said i've grown into a PYT. haha. and more ladylike? lol. well, designed mama's cake, kinda fun. Love my Grandparents. received early ang pao(bdae pressie) from mama and gongong & 'Buomu' and 'Buofu'. Don't be mitaken i love my grandparents and buomu and buofu not cause of the ang pao, but for actually remembering the day i was born, for this i am very grateful that i am in their hearts. Okay. I'll stop all this love. managed to tickle Yi Re korkor again! wahahaha. He was stretching since the time he came, crazy person! JK! haha. i guess among all my cousins, he's the one i'm more closer to. We talked about SYF, said i MUST get into SYF team. I told him i would and must and i quietly told myself, if i had a chance.
Sunday(29April2007akaToday): Didn't go to church, woke up unusually late but went to Parkway. Bought some stuff. not much. Piano lesson in about 43mins time. haha. oh well, wish i didn't have to take piano! I seriously don't like it AT ALL. but it kinda helps me with all my anger and troubles, i just forget about them for that 1 hour.
Listening to lots of meaningful songs then usual. can't seem to find my usual self. That's all for now. Will post pictures another day. Chaos.
these colours match my emotions. they're all mixed up and they don't match.....
I'll start with what happened on Friday(27April2007).
Had English Mid-Year Exams today. i don't think i'll do quite well for Paper 1 but i simply LOVE my Paper 2! Oh! Btw, Thanks to CELESTINE THAM(i don't care if i spelled your name wrongly!!!) i've never liked your presence anywhere near me! i wish you were 10000000000000000000000000miles away from me! You suck up to teachers! You got me into trouble! PLUS I CAN'T USE MY HP ANYMORE AND I AM STRICTLY NOT ALLOWED TO GO OUT WITH MY FRIENDS ANYMORE!!! My mum thinks i spend too much time with my friends and i go out A LOT with them! ARGH! I promise that you'll get what you rightfully deserve! I respected you and ignored your presence, now that you done this i will treat you the way you must be treated. You won't like it. not ONE BIT! i am sure after a while you'll start saying i'm whatever. I DON'T CARE! You are better off dead! you aren't that smart, you aren't ALL THAT, so why do you even bother acting like you are!? argh. You made me and nicole go through HELL! I will make your life a living hell if you ever dare talk or do anything to me EVER AGAIN! Surprise spot check on friday. a whole lot of us got caught. Wrote down all our 'offences'. It was a really CRAPPY day. thanks to the one and only celestine tham, and i don't mean it as a compliment. I feel like calling you something i don't wish to, but i shall not. the small font for her name means that she's nothing to me, and the colour brown means she's more of s***. It's bold meaning she did something bad i'll never ever forget! Cried till whole face drowned with tears, nose red like a cherry. Mum fetched me home, nagging started. Couldn't care less. AGAIN she dragged in MY BEST FRIENDS! ARGH! i HATE it when she does that! She says that their bad influences and that so far no KC girl has shown her anything positive INCLUDING ME! I can't stand this life! It's so hard to live....i feel like ending it all, yet i can't bear to. i live for my dad, i study hard hopefully to get a really good job, make my daddy proud of me and see him happy.
okay......... feeling much better. just talked to Suzanna. She made me laugh so i'm feeling 'lighter' mentally.
Saturday(28April2007): Didn't go for cathecism. hope i don't need to repeat Con1. will get the happenings during cathesicm from Natalia and Elizabeth. Today was Mama's b'dae, it was really nice. the aunty i'm closest to on my dad's side, 'buomu' said i've grown into a PYT. haha. and more ladylike? lol. well, designed mama's cake, kinda fun. Love my Grandparents. received early ang pao(bdae pressie) from mama and gongong & 'Buomu' and 'Buofu'. Don't be mitaken i love my grandparents and buomu and buofu not cause of the ang pao, but for actually remembering the day i was born, for this i am very grateful that i am in their hearts. Okay. I'll stop all this love. managed to tickle Yi Re korkor again! wahahaha. He was stretching since the time he came, crazy person! JK! haha. i guess among all my cousins, he's the one i'm more closer to. We talked about SYF, said i MUST get into SYF team. I told him i would and must and i quietly told myself, if i had a chance.
Sunday(29April2007akaToday): Didn't go to church, woke up unusually late but went to Parkway. Bought some stuff. not much. Piano lesson in about 43mins time. haha. oh well, wish i didn't have to take piano! I seriously don't like it AT ALL. but it kinda helps me with all my anger and troubles, i just forget about them for that 1 hour.
Listening to lots of meaningful songs then usual. can't seem to find my usual self. That's all for now. Will post pictures another day. Chaos.
these colours match my emotions. they're all mixed up and they don't match.....
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Heyy. wow. super crazy day. went to watch my dance seniors dance for the SYF today. they were better on stage today. and they looked great while dancing on stage. better when we saw them dance eye level. getting mixed emotions back. this time its double trouble. anyways. super crazy day. got lots to do. gotta go! chaos.
Still feeling ultra blue...
Still feeling ultra blue...
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Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Heyys. OKAY... WAS happy. NOW darn low. well, my <3 life is watever. don't really care about it now. my Friendship life is HORRIBLE. i mean horrible!!! its actually worse than horrible, there's no word invented to describe it anyway. i mean it in a BAD WAY. I am lost. so LOST. i am so so so so so so so so LOST. 'She' says i'm in big trouble, what did i do? i can't stand it anymore. its all bout her, her and more of HER! i don't care if she reads this, she says she's annonyed, pissed off, irritated or whatsoever with me? well, i'm ANNONYED, PISSED OFF, IRRITATED WITH HER TOO! Her attitude stinks! keeps saying 'S'! wth? ARGH! okay. i shall stop that. i seriously want to vent my anger. i feel like going back to the scissors. but i must not! i will not! Life's so hard to live and yet nobody is trying to help make it easier. I'm at a lost of what to do next, i'm in trouble to. Don't know what, guess it'll mean another reflections'! oh well. i can't stand it anymore. i want to scream and shout! i want to cry and laugh. i shall stop here. i'm getting a little crazy. i need to cool down. I'm trying. Tml i'm in trouble. i feel so troubled too. I feel it will soon double. its hard to tell. just as life's getting good it suddenly makes a sharp turn and goes wrong. so wrong...
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Monday, April 23, 2007
Heyys. i'm uploading some pictures cause i've some free time and Zoey says my blog needs pictures. so yeah.
My Brother & Me when we were really young.
My Sister & Me.
My New Fringe-Do.
My Brother & Me when we were really young.
My Sister & Me.
My New Fringe-Do.
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heyys. hmms. nothing new. had a wake up call from nicole. freaking out. totally crazy today. haish. passed maths. tied with elizabeth in english. both of us came in first in class for english! yays. my love life = Zero,Zilch,Nada. anyways, feeling so low. having mixed feelings again!!!! argh. anyway, can't wait for my brothers clown frens to come on his bdae! haha. one of them told me to blah blah blah. okay. sorry. i just forgot what my brother told me. from him. zzZ!!! the hamster person is coming! feel like whacking him. i'm angry. he's evil. okay......nvm. back to low me. i am super tired. super stressed. super i don't know what! i don't know how to feel. i don't know what to do. i'm just going to try to relax. its amazing how all these don't affect my studies. love my great frens. anyways. there's nothing else. so....buaix!~
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Thursday, April 19, 2007
Heya! nothing much to blog, having mixed emotions! haish. No idea what to do, how to feel.oh well. don't feel like going for cathecism! ahh. kays. gotta go. need to sort out my thoughts and report to Liz! chaos.
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Monday, April 16, 2007
Heya! wow! things are getting weirder in a way and freaky! ah well, some weird problems and also the common problem - FRIENDSHIP. hmms. i almost fainted after 2.4km, my legs hurt and were wobbly and i couldn't walk properly and my heart was pounding my head was killing me i realised today, that i have really great frens, cheering me on for my 2.4km which i failed twice. ok. fine. i'm thin and should be passing the first time. but hey! life's full of surprises and i am really surprised at the ppl who helped me. THANK YOU so much! oh! she's a great fren! many say she's les but i couldn't care less! she's really nice. she's still not talking to me!!!! i am seriously lost & confused. LORD HELP ME PLEASE!!! so much going on! i may be transfering to a totally new environment and i will miss my great frens in KC dearly! well, the good frens will stay in contact with me while the rest will....just drift. i can't do much about that. my poems are getting.......stale? i don't know. i feel so torn. yet i'm grateful to the Lord for giving me such wonderful friends.gotta go. byes!
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Saturday, April 14, 2007
heya! today was kinda okay. slept for 15mins then went for cath class. hmms. was kinda ok. sep that sat in front of someone i didn't want to. so noisy larhs. plus ANNOYING. anyway, today i was like darn pai seh lehs. the first blush is about sth that ya'll don't need to noe. second while eating sweets with fran, liz and nat,(which was allowed!!!) the......teacher took it away! like so no fair and embarrassing. well, a lil' anyway.haha. hmms on the week of my birthday, on the saturday, we won't be having lessons as usual. and instead going to the beach.....like.....lol? and we hav to wear beachwear. (swimwear can be not used.) which is a relieve!!! haha. totally crazy. oh! nicole helped me with my new fringe-do and liz told her wat to do. the result is really great! haha. thanks to both! hmms. well, thats bout it. chaos. will try upload pictures when i've more time. chaos~
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Wednesday, April 11, 2007
heya! can't blog much. just blogging a lil. sought of a lot of happenings. love writing poetry now. hmms. i lurve my frens! they are really great! helping me when i'm really low and lousy. thank you Lord for blessing me with such wonderful friends! have to go do more work now. just finished english situational. gotta run! chaos.
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